Monday, January 31, 2005

I can't sleep

Yes it is 12:04am and I can not sleep!!!

I have never been one that can just fall right to sleep without reading or medication....or something...

My husband falls asleep as soon as his head hits the pillow...Dang him..I will be talking to him and I hear him snore..

I elbowed him and say did you hear me and he will say huh or yeah.....<Big fat liar HA!!!!>

Of course I'm mean for waking him up... shame on me

 

The other night my mom agreed to watch the kids while randy and I went out on a date....

1st we ran out to mickey D's <mcdonalds> to get the kids something so mom wouldnt have to cook..

Our conversation went like this

ME--<in a crappy tone> where are you going?

Randy--Mcdonalds..why

Me--mcdonalds isnt this way

Randy--yes the newer one...... across town

Me--why do you want to go clear across town when the other one is closer

Randy--It's faster

Me--How is it faster if its not closer...

Randy--Trust me

Me--Ha I've heard those words before

a silent pause

Me--Dang I'm gripey tonight I'm sorry honey here I am ruining our time together bitching and complaining...I'm sorry I dont know what my problem is

Randy: That's ok I'm used to it

Me--oh thanks alot makes me feel better....:-) not

Me-<Looking up at the moon> Wow its a full moon tonight..... that must be why I'm gripey..

Randy: Well do your barking somewhere else.

I just busted out laughing so hard it was funny

Me--That was a good one honey...lol lol lol

I still laugh at it as I type...

I just love my husband he loves me for better and for worse....

Crazy man

 

I'm going to hate myself for being up so late tomarrow....

Saturday, January 29, 2005

AHHH!! Life back in younger days

I saw patricks saturday six....

The first celebrity crush is a toss up....I loved David Cassidy and Donny Osmond..I was going to marry them....<I also had a crush on Glen Campbell .....eeewwhhh gross I know!!!

One time my parents had the ole turn table going....<for all you younguns a turn table...is a record player>....

No we didnt have CD's....frisbies..... but no CD's

I thought Glen sang so great and was kind of cute so I picked up the album cover and started dancing with it...<ok I was what maybe 8 give me a break here>

Well my dad walked in and here I was just dancing away in the living room...My dad saw me smiled did a u turn and walked back into the kitchen...

I heard laughing  probably at me but I didnt care I had my Glenn....hardy har har...what a geek I was...

In my teenage years I had Donny and David's pictures on my walls...yep that's right donny and david we were on a first name basis because we was tight.....HA!!!

I kissed there poster's every night before I went to sleep...

David and Donny still look good ...Hey david and donny lets hang out do lunch I'm still waiting for that kiss and hugg.muwah...Call me love ya

 Somewhere in TimeThis Is the Moment

Artist Name: Donny Osmond
Born: 12/9/1957
In: Ogden, UT
Musical Styles: Pop, AM Pop, Pop/Rock
Biography: Learn more about this artist.

Artist Name: David Cassidy
Born: 4/12/1950
In: New York, NY
Musical Styles: Pop, Pop/Rock, Bubblegum
Biography: Learn more about this artist.

Nope I'm not putting Glen Campbell's picture up here...he didnt age well..... all that booze and drugs...I think he is in the slammer right now..Glen baby stop writing me I 'mover you ok...:-)wink


 


Friday, January 28, 2005

weird coworkers

Well it's friday woorah...I left 6 files on my desk to do monday yukky poo....

I can't decide if I like my job or not...One thing I do know I'm very under paid...as are many people in the world.

Today I was thinking dang I graduated from college for this what a failure I am....

My coworkers are ok except there is this one chick thats....... how can I say this correctly....

Let me paint a picture she probably in her 50's unmarried has cats....

I have had no...... let me repeat absolutely no training so I'm beating my brains out to grasp something that I have never been exposed to.  Cat lady  comes in and advises me she doesn't like the way I staple my papers or the way I put my paperclips on the files...

I 'm thinking what the @@@. is the lady nuts..She proceeds to inform me the proper way to staple her papers and put the paperclips on...< I put them 1/2 inch too much to the left on the paperclips and the staples need to be angled just right geeissh!!!

 

NO she is not my boss just a unflexible person...after she walked out of my office I just starting crying....I cant explain the tears ...they just started flowing wouldn't stop...the computer guy walked in <because the computer had been down so I couldnt do my work and files kept piling in>

He said are you ok I said yes just upset about something...I was embarassed but it's like the straw that broke the camels back and the emotions just poured out....

It was petty of her...no wonder she is alone...

I got home exhausted<mentally>

Later that evening the phone rings...It's my sister she talks to my mom<whom she owes money..she always owes my mom money>

I can tell my sister is giving my mom a hard luck story so she doesnt have to pay my mom back...I can tell from the conversation that mom isnt buying whatever she is saying...Then mom says here you want to talk to your sister and throws me the phone....

I got on the phone this was the conversation

ME: Hello

SisterG: you called me today?

Me: Yes I wanted to tell you that Clay got a letter today from the high school

SisterG: oh yeah

Me: yeah you want me to read it to you

<Side note:::My sister has our address for her son so he can go to the high school he wants to go to....also when I got home the letter was sitting on the bar already opened..thats how I knew it was about Clay's behavior in class>

SO.........

Now she is mad at mom because she knows she has to pay her some of her income tax refund and she doesnt want too.. 

SisterG:<yelling in a hateful tone>WHAT DO YOU MEAN READ IT..DID YOU OPEN MY MAIL!!!!!!!!

Me:No!!!

SisterG: HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT SAYS IF YOU DIDNT OPEN IT!!!!..

Now this just totally pissed me off she was calling me a liar and yelling at me when I was only doing her a favor....After dealing with Cat lady all day I was less than willing to let my sister vomit her anger on me so I let loose on her

Me: I'M NOT THE ONLY PERSON WHO LIVES IN THIS HOUSE...THE LETTER WAS ALREADY OPENED WHEN I GOT HOME...

SisterG:Why are you yelling at me!!!!

< I can't stand it when people start the yelling and when you yell back they act offended>

Me:YOU KNOW WHAT FORGET IT... IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT SAYS DRIVE YOUR @@@ OVER HERE AND LOOK AT IT YOURSELF...".click"

 

She called back but I didnt answer and I guess noone else answer either...So now I'm the bad guy for yelling as far as she is concern...whatever I dont care I'm tired and dont have for this crap....

Do I sound gripey and stressed...

I guess I'm going to have to give up the other two jobs if I keep this one I cant keep working the 3 jobs...I'm turning into a zombie....

I know I'm whining....

 

 

 

 

 

Thursday, January 27, 2005

hummmm

SO busy working I think I'm chasing my tail....

Tomarrow is friday...The new job is..... well.....I'm starting to get better at it and I'm also seeing I'm grossly underpaid.....

Payday came and they hadnt even put me into the system so no paycheck.....It seems no one has there stuff together...

Sorry this is so short just tired and need to get the kids to bed..

I really want to quit but I guess I'm stubborn,,,,,

Donna

 

Monday, January 24, 2005

trading spouses

I watched trading spouses tonight

and all together now ......can we say OCD!!!'

The mia chick had some serious issues.... Maybe we should send her a book on the proper care and feeding of husband...

Could you believe how rude and pompous she was with her husband.....You can get your point across without belittling and being cruel.... Talking about her rules and her house..excuse me do you live by yourself woman I think not but keep up that behavior and you will be by yourself

I thought the poor children were so traumatized with the overbearing mother espeically the daughter....

Give that women some prozac or better yet tie her up shoot her with silly string...just kidding...

seriously the woman did need some help....

control freak!!!!

Just my humble opinion

Donna :-)

Sunday, January 23, 2005

lazy sunday

It's a lazy sunday for me.....

I parked my big ole butt on the couch this morning....

I have my warm fuzzy blanket and glass of sweet iced tea ...

I have spent all day in my pajamas watching HGTV one of my favorite channels...

I'm very unmodivated today maybe its the 55 hours of working my body is in shock HA!!!

Naugh It's just me being a lazy bones...

I fell asleep and michael on designing for the sexes was redecorating a bathroom woke up to Devine Design...darn it I wanted to see what he did with that bathroom oh well...guess I'll have to stay on this couch untill I find out.

Life is good...Back to my warm fuzzy blanket and couch....Until next time

Donna In TEXAS

Dancing Math

Got this from johns journal too funny my age would be 71 yaakksss!!!   Dancing Math

A formula to determine how sore you're going to be after a night of dancing:

1. From your current age, find the difference between that age and fifteen, fifteen being the age of the person who has the inherent flexibility to attempt the dance moves you were making last  night.

2. To your current age, add the difference between the current age and fifteen.

3. That is how old you feel this morning.

I can walk. But you better not ask more from me than that right about now.



Written by johnmscalzi (Link to this entry)

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Just a note

Just a note to say Hi to everyone....I have been very busy working and taking care of family so not much time to journal....

My job at the title company is getting better but I still have the other two jobs the hospital and kohlI havent let go of because I'm still not sure about this new job....

I worked at the title company all day and left there straight to the hospital for a 15 hour shift...I got to sleep a little so that help but right now I feel my enegery level dropping....

Good news after next week my mom starts her new job back in Wichita Falls....So this means she moves back to her old house and no more living with me WHOO HOOO!!!

O h I love her but I love her more from a distance Ha!!!!

 

I've been a little gripy today....Went to walmart and Gosh people were so rude blocking the aisles almost running into my cart....does nobody have manners anymore!!!!!

I  hope they dont drive there cars like they drive there buggys....but I bet they do....

The kids have been adjusting well to me working full time..

Well got to go

Donna In TEXAS

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

cute conversation

Cameron was sick yesterday and today...ear infection and strep throat...poor baby he looked terrible....

I was checking e-mail with the news on in the back ground not really paying attention they started talking about the tsunami...

We had this conversation

Cameron: Mom I have been wondering how I can help the asian people who were in the tsunami...

Me:<Not looking up still staring at computer screen> hum really that sweet honey

Cameron: DO you know how I can help those poor people momma

Me: No honey I'm sure you will come up with something...<me still halfway paying attention>

Cameron: disappears into other room comes back carrying can goods....I know momma I will sell these can foods and give the money to the victims...

Me: That is a good idea sweetheart

Cameron:  Look I have green beans, soup ,<begins readingeveryword on the can of bush baked beans> sigh

Me: I love you...you are  very thoughtful baby it makes me proud....

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&

So Zachary comes into the room and says mom help me pull my tooth...

Now this is puzzling to me because I have been trying to get this child to pull this tooth for months....he was having no part of it...

I said are you sure you wont me to pull it????...he said yes momma and brings me the kleenex to pull it....

Well the tooth wasn't coming out without a fight I pulled and pulled...

He made terrible faces and I couldnt imagine what happened to make him change his mind about pulling this tooth...

Finally I said

Zachary why do you want to pull out this tooth all of a sudden

He had this  frighten look on his faceand said I have to momma

I said why????

He said I dont want to die!!!!

I laughed and said zachary your not going to die from this tooth who told you this

Cameron did he said if I dont pull my tooth I will die...it will get infected and I will die....

I dont wont to die!!!!!!!!!!!

I laughed so  hard.....

I said WEll honey your right a person shouldn't let there tooth get infected but yours is not so it will be ok

He had such a relief look on his face..

He said Ok lets wait a little bit later :-)

 

I thought....

Cameron you little stink....<that was a good one though>

Monday, January 17, 2005

My childhood Story

Martin Luther King had a dream but I dont remember him because I was a small child...

I learned later on life his words but I experienced my on lesson in love below...

    When I went to elementary school there were no other races really just white kids at our school....

I didn't know much about different colors of skin and races just what I heard from my parents...I wont go into what they said but it wasn't nice...<my parents are not like that anymore I just think its what they learned from there parents and so forth.>

Ignorance gets passed on and nobody really questions it...  

So as a child I took my parents at thier word because I thought they knew everything.... as all small children do....  

One day we had to make a field trip . All the schools from around town went to a program at this big high school or college....  

This is a day I will always remember.....  

 I was standing in line not really sure where we were going just waiting for our line to move...

 I had my lunch money in my hand probably playing with it instead of keeping it in my pocket like I was supposed to :-)...

 I dropped my quarter and it rolled all the way over to the other side of the big room.... Now on the other side of the big room was another line of children.....Children from the other side of town....I did not know these kids but I did know by looking at them that they were black children which I had never been around ever....

The little black boy  picked up my quarter and held out his hand as to say here is your quarter come and get it...... I didn't know what to do here was my dilemma.....

If I didn't go get my quarter it was no lunch for me and I would be in trouble for losing my lunch money...

But I knew if I went over to the little black boy I would be in trouble because you didn't go around those kind of people....Now I didn't know what that really meant  <those kind of people>I just overheard my parents talk and it was a given..mind your parents...

Well he look nice and smiled at me.
I thought I will run over there fast and get my quarter back no one will see and everything will be fine....
SO I did.....

I reached out to take my quarter and my hand touch the inside of this little boys hand.... I remember it was the softest skin I had ever felt in my life....

 At that moment I realized that these people I had heard about were just like me...they were human it was kind of a revelation for such a young kid but I was a very deep child.....

I thanked the little boy and smiled back at him.... That was the day I realized that what adults said wasn't  always right...

I realized that the color of the skin didn't matter that we were all the same ...just people   Of course I went home and told my mom and she made me wash my hand...<yeah stupid I know>

But deep inside me I smiled because I knew that the little boy and I shared a secret..... From that day on I was more skeptical of what my parents told me about other races... I knew that his skin felt just like my skin so that made us the same and that was good enough for me....   Donna

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Patricks saturday six

 

1. You achieve a high level of fame in your chosen career.  Calls begin coming in for interviews...if you could only appear on one of the following shows, which would you select?
A) Today
B) Live! with Regis and Kelly
C) The Daily Show
D) Oprah
E) David Letterman
F) Jay Leno
G) Jerry Springer

You forgot ELLen...who would want to be on Jerry Springer yuk.... This is a hard question because I like Regis and Kelly...but if I became famous I would want to be on Oprah...The interview would be longer and I think she is so funny...I like to see the real her without the cameras on
 
2. You have the opportunity to briefly become another person in another body, then spend 48 hours alone with the real you.  Would you do it?

I'm not sure if I understand the question but I will give it a shot...Yes I would like to see myself through someone elses eyes...I would probably be surprize to know that others arent near as hard on me as I am on myself
 
3. You have the opportunity to briefly become another person in another body and live a normal life for 48 hours.  Would you dare to spend two days as a member of the opposite gender?

Oh my gosh yes I want to see why guys think sex is so great...and I would love to pee standing up to see if its really so hard to not hit the rim:-)...

I would hope I would be a famous guy who hung out the other famous guys so maybe I would see them in the buff HA!!!
 
4. Compared to previous years, did you spend more or less money on Christmas gifts?  How soon do you think you'll have all of the bills for Christmas paid off?

Less
 
5. What is the first toy you remember playing with?

My jump rope in kindergarten...Some dopey boy broke it the first day I took it to kindergarten and I cried at nap time :-)
 
6. Have you ever downloaded a song or theme song for your cell phone?  If so, which one amuses you most?  If you haven't, but had to pick one, what would it be? I havent had a cell phone in 3 years it was a luxury I didnt need anymore since I was staying at home...

If I had one now yes I would download several to many to list
 

Is the alerts broken??????????????????

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Red flag

Day two:  sitting at my desk today....

and I get a strong feeling in the pit of my stomach.....

This feeling of I hate this job and what the Hell am I doing here.......

I dont have to work we can scrap by if I quit but I keep telling myself give it time Donna ...

Why can't I be happy just being a stay at home mom why do I feel I should work to feel validated...What am I afraid of???

I'm so stupid!!!!!

These people expect me to work 10 to 12 hour days eat at my desk working 60 plus referralswith no training are they nuts...

Maybe the title business has always been this way who knows....

I want to go in and quit but I feel bad...I shouldnt but I do...

I like my boss he is a nice guy...... but dang I have a family..I expected 8 hours a day but working 8:am-7:pm no break..eat at your desk. work every second of every minute.and then the commute home...

What was I thinking and why do I feel bad about this???

I will see how my day tomarrow goes

 

Donna

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Holy crap

Ok Call me stupid!!!!!

What is it with time it makes us forget things and I definitely forgot....  

What did I forget??? Glad you asked...  

 I forgot how tiring it is to work a full time job and then come home and be a mommy also....

Got to work at 8:00 Couldn't get into the system <go Figure>

Had no one with time to train me <go Figure>

The IT Lady can fit me in next week for training in the meanwhile wing it..<Gee people come on hire more help..>

 The guy teaching me today had been doing the job 1 week so it was the blind leading the blind..

Got off at 5:30 ...

Traffic sucked got home at 6:15...No I don't live that far just a lot of traffic at 5:30

Walked in husband was cooking supper Kids were very clingy with me...

I felt I had to really watch my mouth not to snap at them.... Laid down to watch video with them and

 Cameron said..... mommy I don't really like you working all days

 Me: Well your at school so you don't really know I'm gone

Cameron: But your really good at being my mommy your the best est mommy ever.. Me:<sigh>

Thats my day ugh.... Have to getmore organized....... I don't have all day to do everything now have 2 to 3 hours after work. Until next time...... A frazzled Donna in TEXAS        

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

It's here

 

 

Tomorrow is the big day of work at the new job.....I worked last night at the hospital so foggy headed today. I let the kids stay at the after school program today to get used to it..... They had a great time...of course when Zachary saw us then he made a sad droopy face just for my benefit..<typical> The lady said Zachary had started to ask when he momma and daddy were coming to get him.... Cameron was playing football with his friends.... I was feeling anxious today about leaving them in the program..but after they said they had a good time I felt better. I think I'm trying to get a cold...... scratchy throat...head stuffed up Go figure...

 Well got to get to bed no staying up late for me anymore got get my sleepy sleep or momma is a gripey bear HA!  

 Kind of excited about getting back into the working world full time.....I will enjoy the adult conversations....You stay at home moms know what I'm talking about  

Donna In Texas

Saturday, January 8, 2005

Patricks Saurday Six

  1. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #38:  If you could live in a foreign country(or city) for one year, which would you choose and why? Somewhere tropical Bermuda, Hawaii...I love the ocean and the lull it brings to my soul Ok wait now that I think about it with the tsunami not sure about it now kind of scary

2. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #39:  Did you have a security blanket, stuffed animal or toy that you were attached to as a child?  Do you still have it?
Well I did have a pretend friend named Nece

3. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #40:  Favorite alcoholic beverage?
I like bloody mary  or red draw
<red draw is a beer and tomato juice in a ice cold mug>  Taste better than it sounds

4. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #41:  What was your favorite cartoon as a child?
Jetson's

5. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #42:  Is there a chore you enjoy doing?
Taking a bath oh wait that's not a chore Ha!!!! hummmm....lets see I guess cleaning the toilets...

6. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #43:  A time machine will let you travel 10 years into either the past of future.  Which would you choose and why?
DUH   10 years younger..... I want the younger face back and body  yeah baby

Friday, January 7, 2005

Got some New news

So I was offered a job today at Texas United Title as an abstractor....

.I was pretty excited about it. I started figuring childcare and looks like it will take half my salary to pay for that....I only need 2 hours a day after school care so depending how I go daycare or after school program. I will have to do some figuring..  

Not sure what I will do yet....Would be nice if I could find a nice nanny/housekeeper....That way I'd get a cleaned house out of the deal ....The kids are old enough 9 and 7 that they are easy just not old enough to stay by themselves...

Sooooooo......  

 Came home and told the hubby and ask how he felt about it .....He said whatever you want to do honey....I said I want your honest feelings... So here they are in a nutshell

He said----

 -Don't think I will make enough $ after daycare to make it worth my time..  

 -Feels more comfortable with me watching the kids  

 -Will miss coming home and me being here  

 -Wont be able to call and talk to me during the day  

 -will miss the nice hot meals everyday and clean house etc...  

 Here is the shocker one .....he said do you think I'm going to leave you? Is that why you want to work your feeling insecure ..... I laughed and said no way why would you leave a hot babe like me< me striking a pose !>

I said do you think I'm getting a job to leave you??????  he laughed kind of nervously.... I said why would I leave you I just got you broke in...   I have a great husband so I know he is concerned. He is also very spoiled to me being home and taking care of all the kid stuff and home etc.....I have only been at home about 2 1/2 years but I guess I have been doing a good job Ha!

So we will see what I decide.....

You get the drift.....

I was actually shocked that he really felt this way....I didn't realize how much he appreciated me giving up my career and staying home..

Not sure what I will do.....I accepted the job and it starts next Wednesday..... It will be fine from 8-5 but when the kids are out of school in the summer I know it will bother me not to be home with the kids.....I will just pray about it ....  Off to journal surf

Donna In TEXAS -  

Thursday, January 6, 2005

This was on John Scalzi journal

Okay, here's what kind of day it is:

I'm sitting here, doing a big fat pile of work I have to drag through, and while I'm doing it, I take a big swig of my soda. And immediately grimace, and think, man, there's something really wrong with the way the Coke tastes. And then I look down and I see why: Because I'm actually drinking a Sprite. Yes, I'm so discombobulated at the moment I don't even know what I'm drinking. Good thing I don't keep the Dran-O in the office fridge.

Make me feel better. Tell me a story of your own recent discombobulation.

SO here is my discombobulation story...<say discombobulation fast 5 times  :-)>

One day I was shopping at Walmart... <this was a different Walmart than I usually shopped at but they all are pretty much  set up the same....Or are they?????> I had to go to the bathroom so I took Cameron hand and said lets go to the bathroom... I walked in and saw urinals and a stall and thought well this one they made a unisex type that's interesting.....So.... I did my business and was walking out of the stall and a man walked into the bathroom...Yes as you might have guessed I had walked into the men's bathroom unknowing.... I saw the man and thought poor guy does he doesn't realize he is in the woman's bathroom.... I took Cameron hand and walked out and the blood ran out of my face...I turned around and saw men's on the door...I thought no wonder that guy had a funny look on his face Boy did I feel like and idiot!!!


 

I love these chips

I absolutly love love love these chips....

I cannot eat just one and I only allow myself one bag per supermarket trip...WHY?  Because I'm a pigg and will eat the whole bag in one sitting...oink oink

I want to thanks the terra chips company for all these wonderful flavors

This commerical brought to you by the makers of my big ole butt......

Wednesday, January 5, 2005

Thank you

    Many thanks to all the kind words from all...I was in such shock earlier today like someone socked me in the stomach.... I will be going to the funeral services at 2:00 Saturday and I'm sure it will be a beautiful service because they are a wonderful family so full of life and have such belief in Our lord and savior......I want to share one of the beautiful comments that was sent to me ....... I want to thank Tara for her thoughts and bringing me back to what its about....< I hope you don't mind me sharing Tara..>   Comment from: pollysci
"It's always hard to lose a young one.  My cousin died at 18.  Of all things, the priest's homily at her funeral mass helped the most...  during it, he explained that we're all here for a purpose and that we're here until we finish our missions.  When someone young dies, they accomplished their mission much earlier than the rest of us...and that they should be cherished for that.

It doesn't make it any more easy to deal w/ the loss...but it does bring a small sense of peace in that I stopped focusing on what she'd missed out on.. Instead, I focused on all she'd accomplished in only 18 years.

~tara "

I wanted to write an entry today but I cannot keep my mind on it....I found out that my friend <Wilna> daughter died this weekend..

She was 18  I'm at a lost for word today..My heart feels such sadness for her...

Losing your child I can't wrap my mind around how broken her heart is.....

Plus all the loss in world right now......

Donna

Sunday, January 2, 2005

tlyquestion

Question:

Does anyone know why my pictures I put in my journal are ok for a few days and then turn to a red x after a few days....

I put them in corectly but after a few days they turn to the dreaded red x

 

Saturday, January 1, 2005

Picture from Hometown

 

1. Where were you when the clock struck midnight?  With whom did you ring in the new year? I was sleepingin my bed...boring i know

2. Do you have any foods you always eat on New Year's Day, and if so, what do the foods signify for your family? nope none..

3. Do you believe that these "superstitious foods" work? nope

4. Did you make any New Year's Resolutions this year, and if so, which of them do you honestly expect to have kept by December 31, 2005?

Not really maybe to let go and let GOD

5. What is the most enjoyable DVD you purchased in 2004?  What's the most enjoyable DVD boxed set you purchased in 2004? none always by dvds for the kids non for me

6. What would you most like to see change in AOL Journal-land in 2005? well my list would be probably too long to mention...I have lots of ideas...


  Well, its the first day of 2005....I must say that its been a crappie day so far...Husband not feeling well...kids fighting....me not feeling well......I'm hoping that this isn't an indication of the whole year.... Kind of feeling sad...another year and still stuck with what to do with my life...I hate this feeling kinda of lost like falling in slow motion and never hitting the ground..... I'm not getting any younger that scares me knowing time is slipping away.... I guess I felt when I was young I thought I would grow up to be something special but now I see I grew up to be nothing special at all.... Oh well.....what can I say..... I don't mean to be a downer its just sometimes things hit me and starts me to thinking about my life..   I hope everyone had a good new years....Had no crazy dreams last night so that was good. I'm very thankful that my family is healthy. It is my hope that Randy, Landon, Cameron and Zachary feel my love for them always deep in there hearts.    Donna