Tuesday, May 31, 2005

tuesday

kids have been out of school 2 days..Both days we went swimming...me in a swim suit pretty scarey...

I saw on another journal wanting to know if our screen name means anything...

I got mine from putting my 3 boys names together

Landon,cameron,zachary..

if you take the first two letters of each name and you get the word Lacaza then the number 3 for the amount of children I have...

Kind of cool huh...

Friday, May 27, 2005

HAppy Pills

ok I'm really digging these corti slim wanna be pills I'm taking of my husbands...

They have helped my appetite tremendously but most of all my depression is virually gone..

How do these things make you feel happy..beats me...

I have an appt with a psychiratrsit sp?? on June 1..

I already filled out the forms guess I need to stop taking the happy pills so he can see the full blow me the sadness that eats away at me ...

Last night when we were at dave and busters...I was sitting at the table alone..I dont play games <arcades>I can't enjoyed dropping money in a slot and not getting something that I can't take home with me yep I'm werid that way..I dont like gambling...when I give someone my money I want something in return...if I'm not getting something in return then I might as well drive down the street and throw my money out the window...

Ok back to the subject...This really pretty woman walks by and in my head I think wow she sure is pretty and then I think and boy I look like shit right now...

Turns out that girl is engaged to this guy we know <we found this out later on in the evening>

So we were driving home and I asked my husband

<girls you know what I about to ask....the dreaded question..>

Honey didnt you think that girl was beautiful??

Honestly I dont care if he thinks so because I truly thought she was pretty and I like to know what men think..

My husband say she was ok..

I said ok???... I dont think so

I looked at him and said I'm sorry I havent been looking nicer for you..

He said I love you no matter how you look..<this is true he has loved me fat skinney etcc.. and has never said in 10 years a thing about my looks>

I said It makes me mad I should be a better wife..

He is quite and I push him for an answer

NOw my husband is a man of few words and it is hard to get him to talk sometimes but when he does talk....its meaningful

He said you piss me off...

I said what??

He said.You piss me off because you put yourself down to much donna you a good person and you beat yourself up with your own words..

I just sat there stund...

I said your right I do

He said I wish you could see what other people see in you..you have alot to offer your a great mother and wife and I love you..

I just sat there...

what could I say I'm my own worse enemy

 

 

 

Thursday, May 26, 2005

interview by celeste

Sorry celeste it has taken me so long to answer your questions

  1. What is one thing that you wish you could do again that is not possible to do? Be in my 20's again but know what I know now...
  2. What is one thing you have not done that you wish you could do? one thing there are so many..I wish I would of traveled the world when I was young with no kids or responsiblity but myself
  3. Someday you will have the daughter in laws. It is the holidays where are your boys? I hope that my daughter n laws and I will have such a great realtionship we me that they would want to all be here one big happy famliy
  4. Comfort is something that everybody wants. Describe your idea of a comfort zone. comfort zone for me is laying in my stepmomma bed next to her watching tv.. this doesnt happen often but when it does I charish it.she is the most loving and uplifting person I know
  5. What is the most romantic thing to have ever happened to you?When me husband who has a hard time expressing his feelings thank me for having our son cameron right after he was born...I could tell he was truley blow away at my strength and amaze at his love for our child..

my name

 

what is your sexy brazilian name

Mine was 

Your Sexy Brazilian Name Is
Ana Paula Ambrosio


yeah and thats my butt too....

I wish

 

http://www.blogthings.com/sexybraziliannamegenerator/

HAppy Birthday cameron

Happy Birthday my precious Cameron...

10 years old today...wow were have the years gone..

We took the kids to Dave and Busters...Which I Would rather have a whipping than go to a arcade..

I hate arcades but the kids and hubby love them so whats a girl to do...

Tonight I was talking to cameron..

ME::::Cameron do you realize that in 10 years you will be 20 years old

Cameron:::Wow how big will I big mom??? Will I be this talll < he jumped up really high>

Me: I don't know how tall you will be but probably taller than your ole momma..

Cameron:::SO how old will you be in 10 years momma??

ME::::gulp....53

Cameron:::53 wow that is really old....<he pauses and thinks> I hope you make it that long..

ME:::I laugh....Well lets pray  will ok

Cameron::ok

 

My kids are always thinking I have one foot in the grave...I'm starting to get a little paranoid lol

 

Happy Birthday my little man

I love you with all my soul....

Your momma always

my dad

Dad procedure went just fine..I talked with him a few minutes ago...

He says his chest already feels better ...

I got on to him for not telling us about the chest pain..

He said that he didnt realize it was angina he just thought it was indigestion..

He says he thought angina was suppose to feel sharp and his pains were dull...

so anyway he will be in the hospital overnight and home tomarrow sometime

Thanks for all your prayers and kindness..

My DAD

The phone rang last night it was my step mom whom I love to bits....

I had called her earlier to tell her I pick up some flip flops for her...

Her call was a little unsettling...

she said your dad is going into the hospital..

This is always nervous for me because dad has diabetes and had heart bi-pass surgery at age 50...he is now 64..

My step mom says he has blockage and will need a stent...

Sigh...so please remember my dad Don..<yes I'm named after him>lol

Any prayers or well wishes and thoughts for him are appreicated...

Thanks

Donna

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

sorry

I may not be writing often for a while...

Been really down lately...

Not sure what is going on with me

Please forgive me...

Need a break right now...

Love Always

Donna

Saturday, May 21, 2005

conversations with cameron and zachary

I layed down on my bed to read the newspaper...the kids come into my room to get into the bath by my bedroom...

I never know when there little minds are going to throw out these little questions...

NO I'm never prepared...

Ages cameron 9 and zachary 7

Cameron: momma does God makes us die...???

Me: Well, I'm not really sure that God makes us die its just our bodies that holds our spirit gets old and worn out.then our spirit go to heaven

Cameron:To be with God

Me: yes to be with God

Cameron: then will we die in heaven also??

Zachary: momma if I see you in heaven I will give you a big old hug..

Me: no cameron we don't die in heaven we live forever with god...thank you zach I will be excited to see you in heaven..

Zachary:momma we can be together in heaven ok momma..<he always repeats momma alot  lol>

Cameron: when you die and go to heaven will you be an adult or a child??..

Me: I don't know for sure honey

Cameron: I guess I need to ask God that question...<then he drops to the side of the bed and starts to pray..>he says dear god when we die will we be a child or and adult...then he pauses to wait for an answer

I kind of sit there in awe to the faith he has that he will be answered...

a minute goes by he gets up..

Cameron: momma I didn't hear an answer from God

Me: well maybe he isnt ready to tell you yet..

Cameron: ok he can tell me later...I'll be around

zachary: momma when you get to heaven will you give us a sign that you are watching us??ok momma

Me: yes baby momma will tried her best to give you some kind of signal from heaven..

Zachary: momma I love you....ok??

Me: ok  I love you too

Zachary: momma I love you to infinity and infinity and infinity....

Me: I love you to infinity also

Cameron: <yells from the bathroom>You can't love momma more than I do..

So the I love momma more war continues

lol lol lol

sigh...If I could bottle this love to last me throught the teenage years..

got this in a e-mail cute story

Viagra Coffee
This elderly lady went to the doctor for a check-up. Everything checked out fine.

The old lady pulled the doctor to the side and said, "Doctor, I haven't had sex for years now and I was wondering how I can increase my husband's sex drive."

The doctor smiled and said, "Have you tried to give him Viagra?"

The lady frowned. "Doctor, I can't even get him to take aspirin when he has a headache," she claimed.

"Well," the doctor continued, "Let me suggest something. Crush the Viagra into a powder. When you are giving him coffee, stir it into the coffee and serve it. He won't notice a thing."

The old lady was delighted. She left the doctor's office quickly.

Weeks later the old lady returned. She was frowning and the doctor asked her what was wrong. She shook her head.

"How did it go?" the doctor asked.

"Terrible, doctor, terrible."

"Did it not work?"

"Yes," the old lady said, "It worked. I did as you said and he got up and ripped his clothes off right then and there and we made mad love on the table. It was the best sex that I'd had in 25 years."

"Then what is the problem, ma'am?"

"Well," she said. "I can't ever show my face in McDonald's again."

Friday, May 20, 2005

Happy birthday MeeMaw

 

So meemaw how old are you going to be on your birthday...??

Meemaw::: 85

Me::how do you feel about being 85??

Meemaw: Actually I never thought I would make it to this age considering my family history...

Me:Well I glad to still have you around..

Meemaw: I'm glad to be still around..

 

I love you meemaw...Enjoyed shopping with you today...

Happy Birthday!!!!

Thursday, May 19, 2005

men are just happier people

Men Are Just Happier People - - What do you expect from such simple creatures?
  • Your last name stays put.  
  • The garage is all yours.
  • Wedding plans take care of themselves.  
  • Chocolate is just another snack.
  • If you cook a meal you expect praise even if it was not edible.
  • You can be president.  
  • You can never be pregnant.
  • You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park.  
  • You can wear NO shirt to a water park.
  • Car mechanics tell you the truth.
  • The world is your urinal.  
  • You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky.  
  • You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.  
  • Same work, more pay.
  • Wrinkles add character.  
  • Wedding dress $5000.  Tux rental $100.  
  • People never stare at your chest when your talking to them.
  • The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected.  
  • New shoes don't cut, blister or mangle your feet.  
  • One mood all the time.  
  • Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.  
  • You know stuff about tanks.
  • A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
  • You can open all your own jars.  
  • You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
  • If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
  • Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack.  
  • Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.  
  • You almost never have strap problems in public.
  • You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes.
  • Everything on your face stays its original color.
  • The same hairstyle lasts for years,  maybe decades.
  • You only have to shave your face and neck.
  • You can play with toys all your life.  
  • Your belly usually hides your big hips.  
  • One wallet, and one pair of shoes, one color, for all seasons.
  • You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look.  
  • You can "do" your nails with a pocket knife.  
  • You have freedom of choice concerning growing a moustache! .
  • You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.
No wonder men are happier.

mental health day

 

so the kids and I took a mental health day...

What is a mental health day you ask...????

Its where I dont make the kids go to school and we go and do something fun all day together..

so its starts out...

 first a quick trip to the eye Dr to check out my eyes for a check up since the lasik..

then we stop at chick fil a for a quick snack before we go to the park...

driving down the road we pass something that smells like a gas line was leaking..

of course the kids start yelling wheww what is that smell .!!!!

momma did you fart...???

No I didnt..thank you very much...

so I look down and my nephew had left some cologne in my car so I spray it...

the kids say oh that smells good what is it...

I say cologne...

zach says oh that makes you hot..

I say what do you mean hot...????

Isnt that waht you said momma

no...I said it makes ya sexy silly willy!!!! lol

so we go to this park that is like a forrest with hills and a lookout point...

The kids start out so enthustastic....we play at the play ground..

I meet a momthere... she says oh do you homeschool??

I tell here no were taking amental health day lol...

I always feel like less of a mom because I dont homeschool...alot ofwomen in the dfw homeschool..I personally dont have whatever it takes to do it...

So we start walking the trails ..up and down hills...the kids start dragging...

I tell them about the bees and how they make honey ....the wildflowers...

we talk about how walking is good for the heart

that the heart is very happy when we exercise..

It goes yipee evertime we walk...

we go to the lookout and point out interesting buildings we see far off...the clouds...etc..

so on the way back..I notice the kids are dragging again...

I said cameron are you ok

he says well..<.he sighs> I'm not very happy to be walking but my heart must be really happy

about now.....

I laugh goofy kids...

we go to the library...read about dinosaurs...

now we are home watching brother bear...

SIgh...I love days like these...

me and my boys   nothing is nicer...

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

conversation with meemaw

 

I try to call my meemaw at least once a week if I can...

she is special to me...had a interesting conversation with her the other day...

I will try to remember it best I can...

I have slept since then lol

Meemaw::::: I read your journal the other day

Me:::you did...did you see my entry about you

meemaw: yes I did....I enjoy reading your writing

Me: That's sweet thanks

Meemaw::: Your a good writer

Me: well, your suppose to think that your my grandma

< I laugh>

Meemaw: I'm serious you write really well you could write a book

Me: Laughing....Oh I don't think its that good in fact some parts I think are really boring..

Meemaw:  Well I'm 85 and I have read a lot of books I should know!!!. I enjoy your writing its interesting down to earth..

Me:::<blushing>wow thanks meemaw what a compliement....Maybe someday I'll write a book but first I'll need to brush up on my grammer <I laugh>

I think she got a little tiffed at me because I laughed...lol

I love you meemaw ..you rock!!!!

If all my critics were so kind HA!!!

 

Sunday, May 15, 2005

extreme makeover

SO I sit down to watch extreme home makeover its about a man with 3 kids whose wife died of cancer...

I didnt really think anything about it just watching....

so they are talking about the woman<age 28> ok ok...

I just tuned out...

so ty talks about ann marie<the woman who died> about her best friend having something to show him...

Still I'm not really tune in just surfing the internet and watching...

ty puts in a video the best friend had from her recent wedding...

so its... start and you see her so beautiful with no hair and a bandana on her head...

still not bothering me much...

then I look up ann marie is smiling so big ..I think what a beautiful woman  and she hugs her friend who is getting married you see the sadness in her eyes she knew she was dieing and was hugging her freind so tightly with that look....

That look I started bawling...that look I remember that look....

my really close friend cecy died of cancer at 32

2 years ago last month

if you want to read my entry about her go here

http://journals.aol.com/lacaza3/sweepingthecobwebsofmymind/entries/550

then here

http://journals.aol.com/lacaza3/sweepingthecobwebsofmymind/entries/553

anyway about the look

when cecy came home to die she scoop up her then 8 month old child...  I watched her....she said I will miss you my gavin please know how much I love you...

then came the look....the desperate look of knowing its coming..

I wept as I watch her hug her son like she would never hug him again....

she died 24 hours later...

I miss her still..

I love you  my cecy.....

I know you are watching over me

Donna

Saturday, May 14, 2005

do you do this

Do you ever get so mad about something that happened

your in the car and you start saying what you should of said to the seat beside you but noone is in that seat.

Sometimes my brain gets so mad I starts spewing words out just like that person is sitting next to me...

this is fine if your alone in the car.

but sometimes my kids are with me and they will say

What did you say mom????

who are you talking to mom???

I say nobody just talking to myself...<very loudly>

why do I bother

So I invited my sister her kids and my oldest to come over and have supper...

I say about 6:00 or so....oldest son showed up on time ..

Landon and I ran to walmart to pick up something I forgot and who is in walmart my sister..

I said are you not coming over for supper...she said yeah after my pictures get developed...in an hour..

well she is already feaking late...

So I go back and work on supper they come over...

AS always doesnt help with much...she will ask what she can help with and I will tell her and she somehow always ends up not doing it...

My oldest son is sitting on his ass watching dumb nascar..

SO we finally sit to eat...nobody helps clean the kithen...

they sit for about 30 minutes and then leave...

so me and hubby clean up the kitchen...

Why do I bother....Assholes...

I wont do it again....

I have some of the most selfish family members....I wont bother with them again..

Do they ever bother to help with the food nope...nothing nada..

Who is the dumb ass here me.....<sigh>

Donna

Friday, May 13, 2005

damn it

I had my meeting with the advisor yesterday..I left excited at maybe getting to pursue something I enjoy....

Reality sat in though...

He told me I lack 33 hours to have my bachelor<I have an assoicates and am partway to bachelor> which could be done in an year

That was good I thought...

I asked how much it was costing these days to go to unt in Denton...

Get this.. Around 600-700 a class or per 3 hours...which doenst include books or anything else they tack on...

Yeah do the math    5670.00 for just the classes and books well they cost more than the classes sometimes..

Once I finish my bachelor then to get a masters I have to go to a different college that is even more expensive..and that will take 2 -4 years...

SO it's not going to happen unless I win the lottery or a rich realitive comes along .....we don't have any rich realitives..

I feel like a loser.....

I have a degree in Dental Hygiene but I dont use it because I'm to afraid to take the test for licensure..

And I don't want to be a dental hygienist ...it was something I picked at 20 because of my boyfriend<yeah I was young and dumb>

Yeah I was a stupid bitch...never doing what I wanted to do always doing what other people want...so I have 150 colleges hours and what does it get me

nothing but a pretty little piece of paper to put on my wall

Let me rephrase that an expensive fancy piece of paper..

I'm very down about this....

I suck always spinning my wheels but never getting anywhere and its my fault.....

Donna

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

conversations with a nine year old

Cameron<9y ear old>mommie

me:    what baby??

Cameron:    did you have eye to eye contact with daddy??

Me:    what??      what does that mean

Cameron: did you love him when you first saw him..

Me:Yes I did,,,, why are you asking me that??

Cameron: I thought maybe you married him beacuse he was rich...

Me: almost spiting my coke out of my mouth..

I knew your daddy wasnt rich....lol

Cameron:;;he isn't??? oh...

Cameron:::mommie you know I am nine

Me:  :::yes I do

Cameron ::::it means the older I get the more I love you...so at nine I love you 9000.00

Me:wow thats a lot...I love you more

Cameron: no I love you more.

Me: Your a silly goose

Cameron: I know.<.giggles>

tuesday

Tired today couldnt sleep last night my sleep is off..

I didnt go to sleep until 4:00am and got up up at 7:30.. I will stay up though to try and level my sleep habit out..

Youngest is home he somehow stepped on something that put a bad gash in his foot...

poor baby.. he came in screaming and blood running down his foot...He should be ok...

Tomarrow I go talk to the professor at UNT in denton concerning working on getting a master in social work...

I just want to see what would be my quickest route since I alrady have a degree.It's something I have wanted to do for years..

so thats it ...not much to talk about right now...my head is still cloudy..I'm not a morning person...

so off to drink coffee

 

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

watching the news

so I'm watching the news and its says it is trying to require all principals to be required to speak and be fluent in spainish..because the hispanic people cant understand english...

Ok this pisses me off...

The hispanic lady says I would like the principals to speak spainish so I could speak to them when it concerns my sons..

Well here is a update lady you are in america we speak english...

You decided to live here...you knew when you came here 'this was an english speaking country..

So learn english...

now before you comment know I have friends that arent from the united states and all of them speak english along with there native tongues...

they are not citizens they are over here working legally and payint taxes etc.....

This also pisses them off..

they say if you want to live in a certain country your learn that countries language.....

simple as that...

I think it is great that people are bilinqual..

I speak spainish...not well but I try...

We give free english lessons all over in the

places schools,colleges etc....

hispanics are catered to in all kinds of way in this state...

I'm all for helping others but when they start demanding  and whinning..I draw the line...

i say make it mandiatory for that lady to learn english at the same time the principal learns spainish....

 

help wanted ad for a mom

MOM - Job Description

This is hysterical. If it had been presented this way, none of us would have done it!!!!

POSITION:
Mother, Mom, Mama, Mommy

JOB DESCRIPTION:
Long term, team players needed, for challenging permanent work in an, often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities. Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required.

RESPONSIBILITIES:
The rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs $5. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf. Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets and stuck zippers. Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars and coordinate production of multiple homework projects. Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks. Must be willing to be indispensable one minute, an embarrassment the next. Must handle assembly and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys, and battery operated devices. Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the quality of the end product. Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.

POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT & PROMOTION:
Virtually none. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you

PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE:
None required unfortunately. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.

WAGES AND COMPENSATION:
Get this! You pay them! Offering frequent raises and bonuses. A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent. When you die, you give them whatever is left. The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and this wish you could only do more.

BENEFITS:
While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays and no stock options are offered; this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth and free hugs for life if you play your cards right.

why I hate tuesday

tuesday is trash day....i'm glad the trash is pick up..

but my damn dog has barked at the trash truck every tuesday for 5 years..

I yell at her..Hollie stop that damn barking its the trash truck you know that...

She looks at me and barks louder..

She is a sheltie and her bark is very loud and stong...

first comes the trash truck bark bark bark

then comes the recycled truck bark bark bark

bark bark...

I open the door she wont go out just barks even louder...

I told her today

hollie you are a stupid bitch

<yes she is female so I can call her that since is it the correct term for female dog>

You bark at the trash truck...where is heck was your bark the other night when someone broke into our car.

huh huh huh...

stupid dog..

She looks up at me with that you know you love me look...and walks away...

pffttt..

Grandma and step mom

This is my stepmom and meemaw...

I love them very much..

My grandmother is 85 I think and I have decided that she is going to live forever...

I told her this and she laughes....She is amazing

She mows her own lawn

drives herself still and a very good driver

very independent

I used to spend summers with her and paw paw sometimes...

I remember as a little girl I used to brag about her it my friends..

I would say I went to spend the summer with my meemaw and she is the treasure of city hall...she has a office and can type really fast...she is the boss of everybody...

My freinds would say ohhh and awwhh and I would puff my little chest out and walk away....

I thought she was the smartest ,bravest,kindest meemaw in the world....

I grew up and I still brag about her...she amazes me...

she thinks I dont notice things but I do...

I noticed how she took care of my pawpaw with alzehimers

never once did she put him in a home eventhough we begged her to...she loved my pawpaw and belived in her vows in sickness and health...

she moved from her home that she lived' in for about 50 or so years<Im guessing not sure on the exact years> to be closer to my dad..

She did this at age 78...

Funny Story about meemaw...

she fell one day and hit her leg on the concrete porch we took her to the ER...got xrays on it

The er doctor was very good looking...

I made a comment to my stepmom about the Dr being good looking and my meemaw said

uuuhuhh!!!!     in agreement with me about the DR being good looking..

I laughed...she said I may be old but I'm not dead ...or something to that effect...my memory fail s me to the exact words...

I tell her all the time she needs her a feller....she laughs and says that would be nice but all the guys my age are in bad health...

I said well get you a younger feller.....we laugh..

I call her everyweek...we talk...... well ok I talk and she listens..

I blab about stupid stuff that probably bores the hell out of her..

She justs listens...I love her for that...

everytime I see her she thanks me for calling her and tells me to send her email because she love to read them...

I will miss her when she is gone...I tell her that it will be her jobto watch over me from heaven...

She says you know I will so you better act right!! lol

I am flattered to have someone who loves me so much

I hope that when I 85 I can be as wonderful a person as she is...

 

I love you meemaw...

Call you later

Love your grandaughter

Donna

Monday, May 9, 2005

Big whiney baby

So I have to go to work tonight at the hospital..

I do not want to...I don't work that much maybe 2 or up to 5 nights a month...

I don't really have any excuse to whine..

Some people would love to work so little..

I am lucky I know this...I used to work fulltime so I know I am blessed..

I don't feel like being trapped for 12 hours in a O.R. suite..I will get over it...

I enjoy working with my friend<The RN>..

I hope the patient is easy and sleeps...

Your never know......

I dont mind taking care of the people and the RN does all the meds and charting and stuff....

I just hate when we have patients who confuse me with what I call the maid syndrome..

They think I'm some low life uneducated bimbo there to hold the tissue when they sneeze...

You know the type..who think I'm dirt under there feet...

I want to scream hey there ms princess ..I do this job to help my family..I'm not uneducated..I went to college...

I choose this...

That's right I choose this so I can be home and raise my kids....Unlike you who probably spends more money in one day than I make all year

..a nanny to raise your kids...and now your getting a big face lift so hubby wont leave...

But I'm not bitter now am I lol lol

Actually In  reality most of them are lonely...

kind of sad....

But hey I'm here to help...

Need me to hold that tissue for you sweetheart..

<smile>

donna

longest distance in the world

What is the longest disatnce in the world???

Don't even try to guess because you wont guess it...

 

The kids and I went to eat lunch with the hubby....

Evertime I took a bite of something it felt like eating nails...

I told hubby..I'm not feeling so well today

kind of tire and puny...but I will live...

The kids and i got back into the car to head home...

 

So back to the longest distance in the world...

the answer....................................

drum roll please

The longest distance is when your sitting in your car and  you feel a terrible stomach ache/poopy attack coming on..

<also know as diarreha>

and its miles back to your house..

YEp stuck in traffice squezing the ole butt cheeks together hoping all the lights are green...

Did I make it..hummm sort of :-)

monday monday

I hope everyone had a good mothers day...

I only spent about 30 minutes with my mom...I wont bore you with the details...

She just irates the hell out of me.....Lets just say she had other plans with her church that were more important that being with her children...

NO Im not knocking church..I went to church myself with my dad, stepmomand grandmother...

I bought her a CD of the mommas and the pappas...She just to have the album many years ago and somehow lost it...She accused me of taking it ....whatever.... I dont own a record player ..What an I going to play it on my head...

I spent Saturday with some old work girlfriends I hadnt seen some of them in 7 years is was great fun..We talk about all the stupid stuff that used to go on at old Southwestern Bell lol

 

Kids are off school today and we are fixing <yeah I said fixin>to go eat lunch with my hubby...

I have to work at the hospital tonight....

Donna

Saturday, May 7, 2005

joy

joy...

what is it?...

it comes when you least expect it...

What is joyful to me may be hell to you....

we are all different....

I love the feeling of laughter...the type of laughter that comes so hard your sides hurt...

I love people who are understanding...secure in who they are so you can be who you are.....

I am weak many times...I hide this well....

I am angry many times I hide this well....

I must learn to show angry in a respectful way...without watering down my true feelings..

That is hard....

I feel guilt....stupid guilt but never the less it effects me.....Like a dropping faucet.....

drip drip drip

My goal is to not be afraid to be me....not just the pretty parts...but the ugly parts also...

joy....what is it...????

Its whatever you want it to be...

I cannot save the world....I can only save me...and by saving me...in return I can save someone.....If only one person....

Saving me enables me to be something..

what I'm not really sure..

But for now....I just sit here.......

joy.....Is just being me.........whatever me is.....

 

 

Friday, May 6, 2005

Mother's day gift...

My oldest son Landon...<23 year old> called me tonight..

Ask me if I was going to be home he had a mothers day gift for me...

This is the child that never even remembers my birthday...so you can see that I was thrown off guard a little

I said really.....That's nice..

He said ...ITs a rose bush..I want you and I to plant it together...

all together now...AAAAAWWWWHHHHHH!!!!!

YEs I was touch....

so

he came over showed me the bush and even bought rose bush food...<.I hope I dont kill it I know nothing about rose bushes so I'm open for help here>

So me the hubby and all three boys go to bennigans to eat...Were eating chatting and I ask the big question like the typical woman..

SO landon what made you get me a rose bush???

Well <HE paused>They were on sale and we had a bunch....

I looked at him and I said son you just screwed up a chance to make some really big points with me.....

He smiled....That smile that says ah ha I got you mom.....

Yes he was playing with me as I was with him by asking the question....

Motherhood......so much harder when they are grown....but I've said that before...

 

Donna

can you do this map

http://www.rethinkingschools.org/just_fun/games/mapgame.html

I got this from kas at hestiahomeschoolfor youngwildwomen

http://journals.aol.com/hestiahomeschool/HomeschoolingJournal/

I did crappy I knew where  none of these countries. were located.

My husband on the other hand knew almost all of them

 

Go honey...yeah you

What kind of tree are you?

 

what kind of tree are you? click on the journal below and find out

http://journals.aol.com/terra19728/8ISENOUGH/entries/1040

 

This is me Pine TREE

 

 

 Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and
> > > harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write
> > > poetry, no t fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all,
> > > falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to,
> emotionally
> > > soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

 

yep this is pretty on target with me


I going whoop your Ass

I'm going whoop your ass!!!!

That is what I should of said to that wrinkley old prune face bitch.....

I cant stand people who are rude to kids for no reason....

come on lady were you not a kid once...

Why do people forget this....

This lady was so rude to my children at this store..They were very polite to her...

I was so caught off guard....

I 'm more pissed at myself that I didnt call her on the carpet..

I have a hard time with mean people..

They scare me....I turn into a child myself

I'was a coward and I am ashamed...

The damn woman had a dog in her purse all my kids wanted to do is look at it..

.she wrinkled up her face and raise her voice and said...This dog doesnt liiikkkeeee kids and it will bite your kidsssss....She said it like the dog made this descision..the damn dog weight one pound and looked petrified to be in her purse.

I tryed to talkto her and say thats ok..Ya know try to calm her down

She just stuck her nose up in the air and walked away as I was speaking to her like I was dirt on her feet...like I was her hired help...

I looked at her husband...he gave me those I'm sorry she is a bitch looks...

The more I thought about it the madder I got...I just stood there and glared at her as she walked around the store...

I would of liked to of grap her by the hair on her head and say well I don't like wrinkled prune face bitches so I'm going to whoop your ass right here...

But I didnt

SIgh

Iam a coward... 

 

Thursday, May 5, 2005

words from a 7 year olds mind

Let me set up the scene..

I sitting in my chair with laptop on what else my lap...

zach<my 7 year old> comes into living room with playmate...named Tripp....

Zach:::<looking at tripp> Guess what?

Tripp::what?

Zach:::my mom has a dad.....

tripp::::really

I chime in...Zach everybody has a dad...

Zach:::<walks over to picture of my dad> See here he is....

Me:::Honey everybody has a daddy

zach:::yeah but your dad is ollllddddd...

Me:::Laughing..

Zach::: my dad is not old like yours..

Me:: Well daddy will love you for that...

goofy boys....

yesterday

Yesterday I went over to the kindergarten room mothers house to help with tie died t-shirts for field day...

This chick kind of freaks me out...something about her..can't put my finger on it...

She is very controling and talks to us like were stupid...

Talks to us like were her pupils...

Yes she used to be a teacher  ...go Figure...

SO anyway we were all standing around the tub...most of these women are a few years younger than me...

There was one women who show up dressed cute full make, up..heels...

i thought this rather odd but she seem nice..

I told her she look very pretty today...all dress up..

She blushed and said thank you...

Room mom spoke up and said oh she always looks nice..

I said well you girls are in luck today because...

I wore a bra today....its undergarment day for me today...

They cracked up laughing...

I didnt think it was all that funny unless maybe they could relate....

hum I didnt ask....lol

Donna

Corey corey corey

SO I have been thinking about this american idol expose thing about paula and corey...

Even thought I think it was a bad descison by paula I think it speaks volumes about corey...

I mean think about it..

Paula helped him she bought him clothes,haircuts,food,etc...

Gave him ahheemm..

Basically she was kind to him and he thanks her by writing a Tell all book and playing the victum

right when his CD is coming out...

This is the way he thanks her..

Oppornuitist ASS.....

I dont think it was a good descion by paula...

but come on corey no one forced the stuff on you....

gheesshh!!!

Pissed Pissed and more Pissed

My husband woke me up saying you have to take me to work..

I said why...whats wrong with your car..

He said someone tried to steal it last night and the dash it all tore up..

I am pissed....

I'm more mad at my husband for not listening to me...

You see night before last my husband said that he thought someone had broke into his car..but he wasnt sure...

When he got in the radio was asking for a code which means it was messed with...also he had a cup of Quarters which were gone...

Other than that everything look ok...

I told him last night put the car in the garage because they will come back and try to finish the job..

Did he listen NO..

So they came back...

I hate this feeling..

I said time to move...

This used to never happen but since Frisco is growing it happens...

Assholes.....

Called police...

 

I think I will call alarm companies to start a montior for our alarm in the house..

I hate living where I dont feel safe...

 

Damn dog barks at everything..vacuum,trash truck,sirens,,,,,does she bark last night

 

Hell no....

Donna

Wednesday, May 4, 2005

Paula paula paula

Wacthed Primetime live about the contestant on American Idol Corey CLark..

Paula got two words for you

Your Busted!!!!!

 

Paula my dear don't call the dudes cell phone and leave a recorded message people will keep it...

I don't think she really helped him in the big picture.....

He had a decent voice...

But she slept with him.....

ok he is not that cute...

She must like the bad boy look I guess who knows

 

Moral of the story...celebrities are humans....

YA THINK

 

Donna

bad cinnamon roll

Proud of me I have walked 6 miles this week......

Go me....

My hubby made cinnamon rolls a while ago...I ate two..

bluakkk!!! Bad me

Watched oprah yesterday with DR OZ it was funny but very informative..

Talked about healthy intestines..pooping,farting,eating right etc..

It was funny but got me to thinking...

Now I'm not a everday kind of girl ...but what the DR said was that...... I should be a everydaykind of girl so..I took things into my own hands

 

I decided I would try some benefiber ..I read the directions says drink three times a day...

Dang no way so I take one serving..

So now what nothing just a bloated gassy girl I am...

blah...

insert cinnamon rolls...

So maybe I will be a sweet smelling girl you think????LOL

sharing info

Got this off a group I belong too..I looked my name up yaakkees

 

Good Evening All:

The Internet is becoming too powerful as far as I am concerend. I checked on myself ,  Ruth, and our
children, etc., and all are listed.

I am sending this to everyone in my address book, and I urge all of you to do the same.  Check to see if your name is in this Zabasearch database, which also includes addresses, phone numbers and birth dates.  If it's there and you want it removed, send them an e-mail at info@zabasearch.com to request it.

They will be launching this site in May for EVERYONE to see!!!  I don't know how our names are appearing there, but I checked my own and a few other random ones, and they are all in this database!  Please send this on to all your friends and family ASAP!

To check, log on to www.zabasearch.com.

After opting out at info@zabasearch.com by

Details

Its about a group of people who live in Colorado City in Arizona...

They were taught the moon landing never happened....Dinosaures didn't exsist..

There are two young girls who escape this

They are scared because they can never see there moms anymore...

They aren't allowed to have much education

They pulled them from the outside world..taught not to show emotion..At a very young age they would put the kids underwater if they cryed..

They have been taught that if they leave the group they will burn in hell forever....

Poor girls are brainwashed...

Makes me sick what people do with children...

Donna

http://www.drphil.com/

Did you guys see this

Did anyone see Dr Phil yesterday??

That is so scarey that they make these girls marry old men and have a bunch of kids..

For these men to have a bunch of wives...

The girls are taught that men are higher than them...

yakes....

I dvr it....

 

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

Seen this before forgot how funny

Work vs. Jail  

 

Just in case you ever got the two mixed up, this should make things a little

bit clearer.  

 

IN PRISON ........... you spend the majority of your time in an 8X10 cell.

AT WORK ............ you spend the majority of your time in a 6X8 cubicle. 

IN PRISON.......... you get three meals a day

AT WORK .you only get a break for one meal and you have to pay for it.  

 

IN PRISON........... you get time off for good behavior.

AT WORK . you get more work for good behavior.  

 

IN PRISON.......... the guard locks and unlocks all the doors  for you.

AT WORK........... you must carry around a security card and open all the

doors for yourself.  

 

IN PRISON ......... you can watch TV and play games.

AT WORK . you get fired for watching TV and playing games.  

 

IN PRISON.......... you get your own toilet.

AT WORK ........... you have to share with some idiot who pees on the seat.  

 

IN PRISON........... they allow your family and friends to visit.

AT WORK............ you can't even speak to your family.  

 

IN PRISON.......... all expenses are paid by the taxpayer with no work

required.

AT WORK........... you get to pay all the expenses to go to work and then

they deduct taxes from your salary to pay for prisoners.  

 

IN PRISON.......... you spend most of your life inside bars wanting to get

out.

AT WORK ........... you spend most of your time wanting to get out and go

inside bars.  

 

IN PRISON .......... you must deal with sadistic wardens.

AT WORK............ they are called managers.  

 

So ...... someone please remind me why we work?  

 

Some days you're the windshield, and some days you're the bug.

**********************************************************************

Sorry Stuart

HGTV stands for Home and Garden TV..

YOu know I love you stuart :-)

I forget your an ocean away....

Donna

show I love

 

Do you ever watch Crafters coast to coast????...

They find people who do a crafts and then the people tell how they do it...

I love it but makes me feel very uncrafty..These people come up with the coolest stuff

Its on HGTV several times during the day.

 

Off to have lunch with an old work mate...

whoo hoo I get to get out of the house....

A real treat for me..

AGGHH is this what life has come to lol

Monday, May 2, 2005

dvr

I have a new lover and his name is DVR..

We are in love...everyday and evening we run away for a quickie..

Who is DVR...It is my new dish network with DVR I don't really know what it stands for but it works like tivo..

I love it...I now watch TV and fast forward through commericals..

I watch when I want..can pause to pee..can pause for just about anything..

I've got to where I won't watch my shows when they come on..I just dvr them and watch them later because no commericals and an hour show only takes about 30 minutes to watch...

Makes me realize how much of our time is wasted on Damn commericals...

The more I get used to this contraption the more I love it..

You can even pause live TV...

This is the coolest thing ever..It gives me my life back I'm in control....

I watch my shows on my time..

Best part is that it costs less than cable..

Ya hoo....who knew???

Doesn't take much to make me happy huh?

 

I watched the show Riding the Bus with my Sister...I didnt know what to expect..I liked it I didnt want it to end..

I wanted to see how the rest of there life went...I thought Rosie played a good part..

Was it me or did Annie Mcdowell<I think that is her name> look pregant in a few parts of the film...

Donna