why is it

why is it when we get older werid thing happen for instance

when I was young I could sleep anywhere...a friendd house, hotel ...didnt't matter

now I feel all panicky if I'm not in my bed at my house and I have to take a pill to knock me out or my off switch doesn't work...

I used to think all children were so sweet and when I saw them in a store I would think ahhh..

Now my nerves grate when I hear the screaming and fit throwing or I look at the small child and think boy that parent has no idea what they are in for in the teenage years...

I guess I have become a little on the pessimistic side..

Or I like to think of it as older and wiser....

what things have you notice as you have gotten older

 

 

the voice

Isn't is funny how we read one another journals and guess what that person voice is like..

I left a message on a journal friend my space...she sent me a e-mail and said wow you sound young...

I laughed...and wonder what did she think my voice would sound like...

:-)

school

There is only 3 days of school left.. I am glad.. I love having the kids around for a while anywaylol

Yes there will be fighting and whinning...and a little yelling by me on occasion...lol

I hope I get some work soon so I can pay 845.00 once again to take my stupid state boards......

We are going to a baseball game on thursday and I entered Camerons name on the jumbotron for his b-day I hope he is nicely surprized...

He is at that homonal age so I never know

better

today I woke up and I feel better...Still pissed about the test thing but the tears have stopped or have run dry....

alerts

I didnt get any journal alerts and I know you guys wrote are they down once again

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tears

HOw many tears can one person cry.. I'll let you know when they stop...Just when I think they have stopped I start up again. I feel so numb...If I hear one more ..WEll honey it could be worse from someone..... I will hit them in the face with my fist and say oh it could be worse I could of hit you with a hammer...

Empty assurances doesn't make it feel better it just F@@@ hurts...

test

So I got my test results back and I didn't pass. To say I'm upset would be a great big understatement...

There is a part on the paperwork were they try to trick you and of course nobody inform me of it and it cause me not to pass...

I want to take it again but who has 850.00 laying around and more money for the damn trip...

I cryed and cryed....

Lighting

The Colony: News 8 viewer Rod Mathes videoed a lightning bolt that struck just feet away from him and dangerously close to some children who were out in the storm Monday night around 6:30 p.m.

http://www.wfaa.com/video/index.html?nvid=143996&shu=1

stress is a funny thing

Stress is a funny thing...It really does a number on the whole body...It has taken me a week to recover from the trip and the months of stress. I apologize it seems I have been gone forever....My heart hasn't been in this journal for a while....

I miss everybody....and I am going to pull up my boot straps and start writing again...

It helps me and I have a bunch of conversations with the kids I need to wrtie down before I forget or they move out< lol lol> whichever comes first...

I have attached some pictures of teddy bears....

These teddy bears are made my a lady at my sisters works...

The reason they are so special is she makes them out of something that you give her..

These teddy bears are made from my grandfather jacket that he wore alot..

My pa paw as I called him  died in 1995...

they are 20 dollars a piece and my sister had 4 made for the family

I thought is was a very thoughtful gesture...

 

uts is finished

whewwwww weeeeeee!!!! ITs over and I am so glad...Yes it was stressfull but after having this on my shoulders for 25 years I feel free..

Thanks for all the prayers.....Paula I;m sorry I didnt get to swing by and see you It was a stressful weekend....

I find out in 7-10 days if I pass.....

I want to thank all of you for your prayers...I felt them the whole time...I prayed the whole 2 hours I was working on the girls....God was prbably really sick of me...LOLOLOL

Anyway I'll talk more later after I recoup

 

Love to you all

Donna

its here

WEll tomorrow morning I leave for San Antonio my State board test is at 8:00 am saturday morning,,,,Please send prayers

Donna