Friday, December 31, 2004

Happy new year/anniversary


 Wow!!!!! what a beautiful day is nice and warm in the 70's I loved it...  

 I worked today but Randy was off....I'm so glad to have the kids home...they ad so much love to our life...

~~Got a big surprize today~~~~~~

I got off at 2:30 today....I walked to my car and randy and the kids were hiding in my car... I walked up to the car and saw them crouch down in the car.... I laughed and got into the car and said ...what are you guys doing in my car???

The boys pulled out flowers, cards and a gift from behind the back-seat.

They yelled ""Happy Anniversary momma ""

I was floored totally caught me off guard... I was very touched<sigh>   My life would be so empty without my family I love them so much..... Wow 10 years that's a long time.....

Happy Anniversary Honey I love you .. Life is a journey and I'm glad your taking it with me.... your wife and best friend,Donna  


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Thursday, December 30, 2004

yadda yadda yadda


Got off work at 3:00 today lots of scanning merchanise....mark downs.... blah blah yadda yadda yadda....

Randy went to Wichita Falls to pick up the boys after he got off work and should be back late tonight.... it's kind of lonesome by myself...

I got out earlier to look around...stopped at stein mart and dsw fun shopping without my hubby along..

Nothing but crap on TV tonight..think I will go take a hot bath and cuddle with a book...

Tomarrow is our anniversary  10 can't believe it....

OH last night I had the creepiest dream..I was jogging down the street <ok the jogging part is werid because I never jog..ever.... only walk fast>  suddenly I feel someone behind me I turn around and this big man grabs me and throws me on the ground....I remember not being able to move at all and then getting this feeling of a strong intution that I was about to die...I was about to be killed and then I woke up....It was so real I woke up grasping for air..

maybe someone can analyse this for me




Monday, December 27, 2004

It is finished

I was playing with my dads webcam and ask my hubby to come in and take a picture with me of course when I pushed the button he had to make a goofy face...ticked me off so I'm posting it anyway...I think he looks like a possesed creature HA!!!!! Men always got to be funny!!




Sitting here in the quite....Seems odd not having a child run into the room every 5 minutes.... Christmas Day we drove the kids up to Wichita Falls to visit the in -laws and my dad and step moms   On the way up there we heard from our 7 year old

Are we there yet????

How many more minutes????

How far do we have to go??? <Repeat these questions about 50 MILLION get my drift HA!> In The middle of all the question asking I heard Zachary say to his brother  

Zachary: Cameron I saw Santa Clause last night..

 I immediately looked over at my husband as he looked over at me..... We both had a puzzled look on our faces wondering just here this line of conversation was going....

I smiled at randy and turn my head towards zach and said

 Me: So what did Santa look like Zach? Zachary: Well he was fat with a black belt and I saw Rudolph too!!!

Me: Did Santa see you? Zach: NO  I hid from him

Me: That was good thinking because if he saw you then he wouldn't of left all the gifts : zach smiled like the cat that ate the canary :-)   Now I don't know if Zachary dreamed this or if he was trying to impress his big brother cameron..nevertheless it was quite comical  


 WE spend the night with my dad and step moms.... My stepmom is a very loving and warm person ...I truly enjoy her presence in my life....When you stay at her house you leave feeling filled up with love and acceptance ... The kind of acceptance of being OK with who you are... The kids are staying at my in-laws for the week....I have to work all week and since they are out of school on Christmas break I thought my husband parents would enjoy spending time with them... They are always wanting them to come down so..I didnt feel too badly letting them stay... Well, I must get ready for work..... Hope all had a joyous Christmas.... Donna In Texas

Saturday, December 25, 2004

ho ho ho

  So............ all the presents have been opened.....The look of excitement and innocent belief in my children's eyes brought a tear to mine......The yelling look mom Santa knew Santa knew!!!! I told my husband cherish this feeling because they are getting older and one day....well you know <sigh> As the children opened there presents my husband looked over at me and smiled.....that smile of the deepest love for our children and each other... And I thought yeah boys Santa came and I love him so much.... I love you Randy!!!  

Friday, December 24, 2004

Merry Christmas

I want to thank all my j-land friends for their friendships......I hope your families have a happy holiday and a merry Christmas..... Keep your loved ones close and warm.... For those who don't have there loved ones near I pray for there safe return ..... The children are now setting the cookies out for Santa clause...there excitement is contagious.. Love, Donna Guerrero  

Thank you

Thank you for all the honest and kind comments......

My family....cant wait to get a digital camera so the images will be better


Its funny but the comments I got being overweight werent near as harsh as when I got thin.... There were coworkers who said some pretty ugly things to me after I became thin........I realized it was jealousy rearing its ugly head.....Not really jealousy of me but what I had accomplished..... I expected some of it....however it was a very very hard surgery.....scary..painful...

at one point I had I think if they knew all I went through maybe they would of had more compassion.....or maybe not.......

Gastric bi-pass has given me a better quality of health has improved....I'm able to do kids have a  mom who can run and husband has a more healthier wife who will be around to grow old together with him <God willing>

What gastric bipass wont do for you....

1. It won't improve your marriage or can acutally make them worse..because has you get thinner you take less crap from people.....If people are used to dumping on you they won't like the new attitude.....I've seen patients get divorced because husband or wives can't handle the new changes..

3.You lose your best friend <food>

4. Your weight is not the problem  or the resons you life is the way it is a result of you not handling your problems and life with food

5. Losing weight with gastric bipass is not magic you have to exercise, eat a certain way.....for the rest of your life.

6.Gastric bipass is a tool to help...You do the hard work its there to help

7. You can gain all your weight back it is not fool have to be willing to follow the rules

8.Psychotherapy will really help....It helped me because as I got thinner I would sabatage my eating because I didn't know how to handle some of the new changes and emotions I was going through......


####I'm speaking for myself only.........This is my

experience and some of the lessons I learned....I share only because some of you have shown an interest in the surgery. I have lots of other information if you would like e-mail me personnally and I will answer any questions you have..... I hope everyone has a great christmas....... I'm listening to a song my Mercy Me called word of GOD speak and the words are so beautiful.... so I leave you with a few of the lyrics.....   Word of God speak would you pour down like rain Washing my eyes to see your majesty To be still and know ....your in this place...... please let me stay and rest your holiness Word of GOD speak   Donna In TEXAS

Thursday, December 23, 2004

just me

Some people have requested to see me so here I am in all my glory in 1999 250lbs

yes very fat...This is me before gastric bi.pass surgery....If you saw me on the street would you look the other way????? would you snicker or make fun...

If you were honest with yourself and me the answer maybe yes.....

or maybe no....            but you see underneath the fat is a person......a beautiful person who is just like everyone......someone who needs love .accepctance,,understanding..Someone who needs to be seen not for the outer shell but for what is inside and what can be.....I dont speak for all overweight people only myself...... Below is a picture of me at my thinnest.... 113lbs......I am no longer this thin..I'm about 145 yes you can gain weight with gastric bipass it is not a cure all..Soory for the quailty of the pictures my scanner is not the best.... The man in the picture is my DR

lawerence barzune...a wonderful man and human being...

So there you have it me.....the good the bad and ugly......


Wednesday, December 22, 2004

IS that Snow???

Well hush my gosh by's snowing here in Dallas Texas area....I sure was hoping they would be wrong it was 70 degrees yesterday so go figure it's TEXAS:-)..

This kids are thrilled and got all dressed up to go out in the snow......Zach had on shorts and sandles..HA!!  I said noway jose it's cold outside you need pants a sock hat and big jacket...

ZACH: No I don't momma I wont get cold I'm a army after 5 minutes of arguing I said alright go on out......I figure the best lesson was in the learning.....

Yep  2 minutes he was back...

ME: why did you come back in?

Zach: Its cold out there momma  <I laughed>

Me: I guess army men need big jackets huh

Zach:<blushing> Yeah momma

I have too work tonight at the hospital overnight..I hope the traffic isnt too bad when I get off tomarrow morning...

I'll let you know

Monday, December 20, 2004

baugh hum christmas music

I am sick sick too death of christmas music....Which if you know me is strange having a background in music.....

Let me explain....

You see its like this..... kohl's has musiak a station which plays in every dang store in this town.....So not only do I get to hear the music at work but every dang store I shop in....

I have the whole thing memorize..

Hey oh the missieltoe hung for you to see somebody waits for you who gives a crap not me...oooppppsss thats not how the song goes...

I love making up my own words now...I will be putting product out on the shelf singing away kind of tweaking the words and people will walk by me with that strange look....You know the I'm from another planet...

Hey I have to humor myself...or the songs will drive me crazy heres a few examples of the songs:

There is the boy george disco christmas song

the funky christmas carole by who knows I guess ......beyonce

some britney spears sounding song

It's really the messed up funky ones that bother me the most the traditional ones don't bother me as bad....Think about it I've been hearing them for over a month now non stop at work and away from work...

Sometimes when I'm out in the dock loading merchandise I"ll dance a littl jig....Something just comes over me ......

I think there is a subliminal messages in the music.......Cant you hear it.....It's saying Donna

dance a jigg ...donna sing stupid words...Donna stand on one foot....I hear them the voices they call to me.....

So if you see me running out of kohls naked well the voices you see they got to me   Just kidding  sort of....:-)

Hope everyone has a great christmas

Donna In TEXAS


Friday, December 17, 2004

rudolph oh rudolph


I was watching T.V. tonight.....I noticed Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer was coming on....HUUMMM I thought this is great I will ask the kids if they want to snuggle on the couch and watch it with me.....

I love watching videos with my kiddos with the fire going and a big soft blanket.....

I hollared at the kids and it went like this....

Me:  CAMERON and ZACH come here

Me: Hey guys...are you listening come here

CAMERON: What momma...

ME: Hey guess what is coming on TV??

Cameron:<silence>  What???

ME: Rudolph the RED nose reindeer do you want to watch it with me??

Cameron: Which one?

Me: What do you mean which one Rudolph the Red Nose reindeer

I thinking gee what the heck ..I loved rudolph>

Cameron: which one mom the Classic or the 3D..

Me:  Laughing out loud....Classic <boy do I feel old>

Cameron:  Naugh I like the one with rudolph and the the island of misfit toys

Me: thinking<what the heck is that..  Oh well I didnt want to watch stupid Rudolph anyway :-)


There 3 more questions from step..

 If you could anywhere in the world, an all expense paid vacation for a week, where would you go?

A cruise or somewhere tropical
2) When was the last time someone (outside of your family) did something nice for you?

My friend Michaela

 And what was it they did?Gave me all her old christmas decorations which were beautiful
3) What is your all time favorite movie?

Humm thats a hard one...I'm not a big movie watcher but I liked

Somewhere in time with christopher reeves

Thursday, December 16, 2004

warming those buns

OOOhhhhhh....... how I am loving having a car that's not over 10 years old..

sometimes I forget I have a newer car......  it has only been a week since I got it.....brain cells are slow on the uptake...

I open the door to the garage and go ........Oh yeah that's right I have a new car   un hu un hu un hu <doing the happy dance><Not literally new acutally 2002 but new to me so that counts right>

Whats so special about my car?  Glad you asked!!!

IS it because I look so good driving it???  NOPE

Is it because it so nice and silvery???  NOPE

Is its because everything smells so clean??? NOPE

Is it because it acutally runs beyond 1st gear hummmm well thats a plus put nope wrong again.....

It's because are you ready.........Drum Roll please


Can you believe it...... a dang bun warmer I love it....I didn't even know it had that when I bought it....I really didnt care what extras it had because being a used car I knew...... what I got was what I got.......

I was just happy with a car from this century:-)

yepper ree....My buns are nice and toasty all I have to do is hit a button and in 30 second volia!!! Toasted buns <minus the butter> HA!!!...

Ya know I didnt know how warming your butt could make the rest of you feel so warm....SO I am a happy women warm butt and all    NOW  one more thing..........

Do you think if I crank that baby on high it would burn the fat cells off my A@@ :-)  Hey was worth a try....


ok more questions......

Comment from: luvinmythreeboyz
"1. What is your worst fear?

hum I would think drowning is my worst fear.....Because if your trap under water holding your breath you know the next breath you take will be water and if you dont take a breath you will die also so there is no way out...Does this make sense?

2. What is your biggest regret in your life?

Not living my dreams instead I listen to others and lived like I thought they wanted me to or what was expected of me..

3. What are you most proud of yourself for?

My ability to love people and see the beauty in them even when they dont see it in themselves

~ Heather"


Wednesday, December 15, 2004

more 3 question

questions from celeste  her journal is mydayandthoughts

"1. What is your favorite cartoon?

hum you didnt say at what age  Ha!!!..when I was a kid I loved the Jetsons

2. How old were you when you got your first real kiss?

16 or 15

3. You are given the choice of being bald or having bright green hair for the rest of your life..... which would you choose?"

Green hair I could always die it another color with no hair your stuck unless you buy wigs hummm well I think I would still go with green hair....;-)

donna In TEXAS

3 questions

Thank you Judith for being the first to ask me 3 questions

everyone should check out Judith's artwork very beautiful.

Judith HeartSong


1. What is the funniest thing you have ever seen in your life?

wow only one?? when my sister and I were in elementary school we move into the country. Rumour had it that the next door neighbor had a mean dog so we were scared..Late that night my dad made my sister and I go out to the moving van to get something out..My sister thought she would be a smart ass and scare me..She said wooo I hear that dog and she started running for the door of our mobile home...Welllll the front door was a sliding glass door that my mom had closed a few minutes before my sister decided to pull her little stunt,,,,SHe was ahead of me and ran up the three steps and BAMMMM ran flap dap into the glass door...She hit it so hard she bound about 2 feet into the air missed all the steps and landed on her ass in the grass.... I started laughing so hard I actually started to cry...Servers her right the spoilt little turd  :-) To this day all I have to say to her is woooo that big dog is coming and she starts laughing......
2. What person (living or dead) has been your greatest inspiration?

My friend CECY ...Watching her die of breast cancer at 32 with such bravery and strength. Never heard her once ask why me or complain...I wrote a entry in my journal about her back in october but I dont know how to link back sorry
3. What is your favorite treat?

It changes but most likely anything with cream country gravy all over it :-)  Puts a new meaning to lard Ass  Ha!!!!!

whaaaa I'm tick


So kids and I are at home...not feeling well...      Zachary has a runny nose and sore throat...Cameron has headache and sore throat...and me  I feel like my head is a overblown balloon...

I just medicate the boys so I figure in 15 minutes they will be sleeping ZZZZZZZZ.

I probably could of sent them to school but why infect everyone elses kid....... plus when I was a single mom I didn't always have the option to stay home with my child.

Hope everyone is having fun shopping for there christmas...I still havent shopped....... I work better under pressure :-)

I'm too ADD if I have too much time and too much to choose from I freak and can't choose....If I have 2 days and a limited supply I just pick and dont antalize it to death..Yeap I'm weird....


I'm so enjoying my car its such a relief to have a car that runs and has a good heater. I'm so thankful that God watched over us as we looked. We could not of afforded this car brand new and to find a used one in such a good shape is a blessing.

I told my husband the other night

Me: Thanks so much for my car its such a relief

husband:  You deserve it..I'm happy if momma's happy

ME:  Whatever you goofball

Husband:  Thanks for being my wife

Me: awwhh honey that so sweet <smile>

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

ok I'm game

This is probably making it’s rounds, I found it at Heather’s.


So, here’s a chance for some fun, I think.


And maybe I’ll get some of my more quiet readers to speak out.


I’d like everyone to ask me three questions, no more no less.

Ask me anything, and I will answer.


Then, play along by asking your readers to do the same with you.


Okay, bring on the questions…



I copied this from danielle's journal  Everybody knows...  I liked her font....but I have seen it on many other journals including heathers

ps dont ask unless you want to know wink wink nudge nudge


Happy birthday Landon

Yes I remember Dec. 14 1981 4:30 am so very well......

My first son was born and I was barely 20.....but I thought I was so grown up Ha!!!! I was laying on the labor and delivery bed by myself because back in those days no one could come back to see you....yep there were no tvs ....telephones.... anything in the room just you the walls and the pain.....Did I mention pain.....Now I'm no dummy and I knew it would hurt but this was beyong pain this felt like something inside of me was trying to kill me HA!!!! <now remember I was only 20>

My husband at the time was there with me but sleeping in the chair which only added pissed off to the pain I was having...

I thought I would have this baby natural nothing to it.....Well I changed my mind quick so after several hours of labor and dilating to an 7 I received an epidural aaahhhhh!!!  Now thats more like it .....kicking back sleeping letting nature take place without pain.

He came out in all his glory and I remember thinking yuk he isnt very cute and I dont feel anything but relief what is wrong with me...:-)  Yep did I mention 20 and a little dumb...

nevertheless I grew to love this cute little rolly polly and we basically grew up together......

Now my baby is 23  dang it 23  were have the years gone....In some ways I feel badly that I dont remember alot of his childhood because it was a struggle raising him and growing up myself...

I wish I could of done so many things differently but I was young and dumb myself I did the best with what I had to work with..

of course there were things I did do well ...........

So Landon I just want to say I Love you sugar came into my life and blessed me like no other person ever could....

For so many years it was me and you kiddo.....I love that you are grown and I grieve that you are grown not a sad grieve just knowing that those years have gone and time moves on.....You have grown into a fine young man I'm proud of you.....

Thank you for allowing me to be your mom....and loving me . I look forward to sharing the many changes you will have in your life.

hugs and kisses


All my love,


Monday, December 13, 2004

cute pictures

Saw these pictures on Just one girls head noise journal and had to share..This is one hungry baby:-)

Sunday, December 12, 2004

YOu want me to eat that


Still feel like jet lag working deep nights at the hospital.....

Next week no hospital work so yeah...

Husband wanted to go to the mall this afternoon...I really didnt want to go but what the hey....Big crowds and screaming crying children crammed in a room isnt my cup of tea....gee I must be getting old

I cant really enjoy shopping trying to avoid being run over by strollers or people walking forward but looking backward...WEll you know what I mean.

I ran into a friend of mines daughter....I remember when she was in 6 grade and now here she is with a 2 year old....I really was feeling old and dumpy Ha!

Tryed to see santa clause the line was way too long  no not for me for the boys.....

WEll. came home thought I would journal hop for a while dear husband comes in and conversation goes like this

Randy: Honey do you want some supper?

Me: not really babe I'm not hungry thanks anyway

Randy: its really good

Me:no thanks maybe later you go ahead and eat.

about 15 minutes go by and dear husband is chowing down

ME:that smells really good honey

Randy: you want me to make you a plate?.

Me: what did you cook?

Randy: Sausage and baked beans..I'll bring you a plate

Randy:You want beans also?

Me:  Welll,,my question to you is do YOU want me to eat beans...because you know you wont like me much later..

Randy:chuckles and says well I ate beans also you better eat some just to save yourself HA!

Donna :Ok give me some just do say I didnt warn you


Dude where is my car?

So glad to have a day off....

Randy the kids and I decide to go get groceries at Wal Mart.

Walmart wasnt too crowded which is not usual for a weekend.

I'm still dragging a little from working deep are a whinning dont touch me.stop looking at me..the usual 


so anyway while were checking out I tell hubby that I will take the kids to the car because they are being a pain and I figure the walk will maybe calm them down.....So we walk out and I immedialty realize I don't remember were we parked the car...

Cameron<mister know it all> says mom we parked on the other side so...we go sashing across the parking lot all the while I'm thinking now was my car light silver blue or silve.r..???? I have had it one day so the memory is a little hazey.

Well..... we found every passat in the parking lott but ours even a few jettas...I'm looking quite the fool clicking my remote hoping the car beeps...The kids are running around going over here mom here it is


nope not even close is was a beemer...had to go into the whole lecture of different types of cars to the kids HA!....

Meanwhile evertime the kids ran to a car someone thought we were leaving and was stalking us hoping to get a parking place.

FINALLY..I said boys I think you guys are wrong lets go to the other side and sure enough there is was  but no Randy....

I thought on no he has had enough time to find the car I wonder if he is running around like us with the groceries.

SO I hop in the car and decide to take off to look for him....

I make a loop and see him going to were the car was..... and of course its gone....He has a funny look on his face..I honk and he gets in

I said sorry we got lost ...where are the groceries honey?  He said I all ready put them in the trunk ...I put them in andwent to look for you guys when I got out and saw the car was gone I thought oh no I put the groceries in somebody elses car and they took off with my goroceries.../..... We both laughed.....


I said Randy you wouldnt have the keys to someone else's car he says you never know...He is such a goober....


Donna In TEXAS

Saturday, December 11, 2004

isnt she pretty

There she is in all her beauty

2005 Volkswagen Passat Sedan GL 3/4 Front Driver Side of the Vehicle


I have a car that actually runs <sigh> I got a volkswagon passat 2002 and I love driving it..We didnt spend a lot of money so that's even better..My wonder ful husband gave up his jetta and got himself a cheaper car a acura rsx 2002 for him to drive to and from work...His car is cute kind of a guys car..I feel so much better having a car that I know will run  hewwwwww!!!

Got to leave for work just wanted to show her off....

My poor 93dodge daravan putted into the dealship in all her glory...

I sure she is going to the scrap heap...but he rduty is over.


Good bye little van rest in piece  opp I mean peace..pardon the pun Ha!


Donna In TEXAS

Friday, December 10, 2004


Good moring to all..well it's really afternnoon but I worked last night

and came home went striaght to bed.....

I went to the Dr yesterday to get a refill on some a flue shot

my arm feels like I have had a frogg match....Your remember when you were young and you and your sibiling would frogg each others arm...oh well maybe you don't nevertheless it's sore...

My mom is on vacation next week which means she will be back in Wichita Falls at her house the whoooolllleeee week....Yehaw!!!

Sounds tacky but I like having my house to myself with my family.....and I'm sure she will enjoy being in her own domain..

Well the car is still puting along in 1st gear so I drive slow and people cuss me as they pass :-)....I'm just happy I get 1st gear.

This weekend we are going to look for me a car....Not sure what I will get..right now all I want is one with a engine that works Ha!!!

I dont think I want another minivan ......although I like sitting up high when in traffic...I would love a honda I am a honda person but I'm sure they will be too high in price.

My husband said he would trade his car in and drive something cheaper so we could have 2 decent cars...I know he is a good guy...couldnt tell it on my deleted entry....

I'm typing this at our library which has the fastest computers alive...they could part your hair with there speed...:-)

I apologize for my entries having little graphics I havent had time to download new ones since the laptop crashed....


I hate to admit this but I will and we just let this be our little secret....sshhhh

something is going on with me mentally and I can't put my finger on it....I'm having alot of panic feelings and a undercurrent of sadness.

I have been so proud to be off my antidepresants since june..and doing quite well...until last week....

I know working at the hospital makes me a little anxious because it is the hospital I had my gastric bipass surgery at..sooo I'm thinking perhaps it brings back those scared feelings I felt laying there in that room thinking I was going to die and noone would be with me...I had some complications and being I had hospital experence..I was aware that with the vital signs and pain and stuff something wasnt right with me.

Not to mention one of the nurses I had was on drugs and had to be escorted out of the building the night he took care of me..yeakks

I remember I was so scared I looked at him and said your not going to let me die are you..I mean it I wasnt joking... Well I'm off to pick up the kids at school and go makes some plano drivers mad by going 30 miles and hour  HE HE!!

Love from Texas

Donna in Texas

Wednesday, December 8, 2004

Quick hello

I'm sorry for the confusion but I deleted the last entry....I felt it was very angry and bitter.......Just got off at kohl's my boss changed my hours to days so no more nights except at the hospital ocassionally...that will help a lot...If the days don't work I will quit after christmas....My family is more important than ending up in the corner rocking like a psychotic zomie...

I very tired havent slept yet couldnt sleep today after I got off work this morning..I got a couple of winks at work last night but not restful or very long....

Husband is looking into getting me a car..meanwhile the 93  van sits in the driveway in all its dead glory:-)

I lost all my graphic when My computer crashed so when I have time I will download somemore.....

Hope everyone has a great christmas...

Donna In TEXAS

Monday, November 29, 2004

mexican christmas

The Chipmunk Song

DAVE: All right you Chipmunks! Ready to sing your song?
CHIPMUNKS: I'll say we are!
ALVIN: Yeah!
DAVE: Let's sing it now!
Okay, Simon?
SIMON: Okay!
DAVE: Okay, Theodore?

Christmas, Christmas time is near
Time for toys and time for cheer
We've been good, but we can't last
Hurry Christmas, hurry fast
Want a plane that loops the loop
Me, I want a hula hoop
We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas, don't be late.


I remember when I first heard that song I was in the 3rd grade and had full blown mumps....I hurt so badly.My mom bought alvin and the chipmunks record to cheer me up ...Yes high scrilling voices that will make my ears feel better

Even time I hear that damn record I cringe with pain Ha!  Bad memories ..... must breathe ....slowly donna in and the out must breathe....

There much better...

So My living room offically looks like a mexican restaurant.......My husband gets very festive and decorative at christmas time...

First he puts up lights around the windows   Then...oh how about some garland...Looks nice honey I like that ........thennnnn how about around the fireplace..... ok now the doorway, and how about around into the other room....Oh my gosh he is a runaway lights and garland train.......


Meanwhile...... angel kitty is scoping out the tree...... circling ever so slowly....... just waiting for the first shiny thing she can pounce on....

Finally Randy gets finish and says with chest puffed out.... there honey what do you think..I look up blinded by the light...HUMM dont you think its a little much....ok he starts to look deflated..I'm begining to hurt his feelings so I say well now that I look at it I think I like it yeah kind of cool 

Looks great honey.... where is my margarita,chips and hotsauce..




Sunday, November 28, 2004

Back to School

Hi ho Hi ho its back to school we go......

Yes it's that dreaded conversation I have with my children every sunday night....

Zach: <my 7 year old>Momma what days is it< he always puts "s" on things that shouldnt have "s"

ME: IT's sunday baby

Zach: do we have school tomarrow?

ME: yes

Zach: NOOOOOO!!!! I told you momma I'm already smart..

Me:Yes you are but you have to get smarter...

Zach: I'm already smarter..I told you....

Me: GO get your but into the bed..night  night  I love you!

Zach: huffing off ....whining the whole way

Tick tock tick tock tick tock

20 minutes later~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Zach: Walks into living room...Momma I dont feel good

Me:why are you out of bed young man?

Zach: momma I'm sick I can't go to school tomarrow because I'm sick.... ok momma

Me:Where do you feel bad at????

Zach: I dont know I'm just sick so I can't go to school when I'm sick... right momma

ME: Your butt's fixing to be sick after I get the belt so get to bed......

yeah I said fixin  its a texas slang laugh all you want:-)

Zach: ok momma...<A pause and I can see the wheels a turning in his little mind.....> can I sleep in your bed for 1 minutes<smiles and looks at me with those sweet doe eyes...>

Me: ok 1 minute tell daddy I said it was ok

<yeah I'm a big push over I know>

I go back to typing my journal and in comes the 9 year old cameron

Cameron:<my 9 year old> momma.....

Me: What!

Cameron: I need my toe nails cut..

Me< laughing on the inside wandering how long he sat in his bed thinking that one up.>

Me: Let me see those toes....Dang son those toe nails are gross hand me those clippers....

ME: Don't ever let your toe nails get this long its not good for your toes

Cameron:<looking at me wide eyed> Really what will happen?

ME: Welll I'm not sure but you never know ......

its just not give me a kiss and get your hiney into that bed..

Cameron:  Thanks mom I love you gives me a big kiss and a hug...


IF only all there problems were this easy to fix <sigh>


Saturday, November 27, 2004

Saturday Six - Episode 33 Picture from Hometown




These question come from Patrick's Place journal go and check it out

1. How long do your Thanksgiving leftovers usually last, and at what's the first non-Thanksgiving item you begin to crave when you tire of turkey?

oh a day or so the stuffing is the first to go because it is my I eat it all up

2. Of the following, which would you most prefer to be located:
a) Interstate highway traffic jam
b) Slow-moving checkout line
c) Dentist's chair

I'd have to go with patrick on this one and say my car because I have the radio to listen to

3. What is at the top of your personal Christmas gift wish list this year?
I would love to have dsl or cablem modem internet
4. What improvement would you most like to see added to AOL's Journal software?

a way to preview your journal before you send it...spell check ..and I easier way to put graphics in or better yet aol journals have a whole graphic library to use

5. What seasonal movies do you most look forward to this time of year?

ITs a charlie brown 's christmas

Tara:  What is your favorite classic 80's video game?

galatica sp?  or centipede..or ms pac man

Friday, November 26, 2004

hippy rah rah

Well I thought I was going to sleep but can't'.Today wasn't really eventful......Last night my sister e-mailed me and ask if I wanted to get up at 5:00 and fight the crowds...i thought what the heck why not..I'm kid free and husband free right now...

Well I woke up at 9 am and call her to say hey you didn't call me  she didnt get up either Ha!!!  It was wishful thinking on our part to think we would get up that early anyway....

We did go the the mall later that day...I went in that store Hot Topic with my neice  scarey scarey looking people in there.....but nice salegirl though.. I must of look funny because the salegirl said mam what store were you looking for...I said humm do I look out of place here or what ...she laughed and I laighed..

<I started to tell her just take me to the back room shave off half my hair.... black eyeline my eyes and put a couple of rings through my lips and nose...yeah that should do it >  Naugh second thought dont' think the hubby would go for a goth loooking wife  its probably againist home owner rules somewhere:-)

I told her my neice was looking for a tongue ring....

Now I just dont get this having a hole in your tongue me uncool but damn it hurts when I bite my tongue why would I want a piece of metal shot through my tongue with a big ball on it....

I just don't see the payoff for a hole in your tongue....Nobody sees it....Its damn annoying when I'm trying to talk to someone who has one and thier constantly clicking the metal ring with thier tongue while you trying to talk to them...

Oh well...such is life..I think randy and the boys come back tomarrow..I have to work tomarrow evening.....I'm getting bored with my job. I get bored easily I need constant change I'm too ADD

I have been trying to reach my oldest for several days not sure whats up with him....probably to busy for mom..girls to date parties to go to etc I remember the 20's

Sorry if the journals been a little bland lately not feeling funny la


Ate too much thanksgiving  go figure.....the picture above is what my butt is going to look like if I don't stoppppp!!!!

Well Its off to bed to snuggle with the cats and the dog...

Heather I got your message miss smarty pants:-)

your welcome down here in TEXAS anytime

Your husband can overdose on cowboy memorbila Ha!!




Donna In TEXAS


Happy Thanksgiving

I hope you all had a good thanksgiving....I am tired tonight so I am going to bed early....

Monday, November 22, 2004

Lost loves

My mother comes into my room tonight tells me she has something funny to tell me...Long story short she mentions my old high school sweetheart

Yes hummmm Paul Borgfeld.........or Now DR Paul Borgfeld......

AAGGHH first loves......makes your heart flutter just to think:

The way I loved holding his hand walking to class

kissing him in the halls....sitting by him in his car..

the smell of his colonge..warmth of his breath

all the dreams we had......kinda of brings a tear to my eye thinking about it


I wander sometimes.... dear paul of mine...Do you ever think of me?? you wonder how my life turned out??    If I'm happy........If I loved again??Do you ever want to just pick up the phone to here that voice from the distance past and remember??? Yes paul I loved you ....with a love that only a person can have for a first love 

I hope your life was everthing you wanted...I hope you loved again and somewhere deep in my heart... I guess I would hope.... for a small moment if by chance someone mention the name Donna Ray your heart would go the good the high school dreams..and you would smile....a warm smile of contentment .... just remembering.

Maybe things didnt end the way you or I wanted but end they did.

Paul  you were my first love and first kiss....special times

.....but even though its been  23 years if someone mentions your name by chance.....

I smile.... close my eyes and   ...remember


Sunday, November 21, 2004

Shelby cat

Good morning!!!

I have a question about my cat that is 15 years old.  He has never been sick and is a great cat but lately he has been peeing in places other than the catbox  yukkk!!!!  He has never I repeat never ever done this before so I took him to the VET they ran blood test and stuff told me he had kidney disease and there was nothing they could do but give him anitbiotics.

We gave him the antibiotics and started him on special food.  He did pretty good for a while...but now he is peeing even worse.  I hate this more than anything...yuuuukkkkkk

Has anybody dealt with this before with thier cat?

He doesnt seem to be sick that I can see.... he still eats and drinks etc.... and is not having problems urinating:-)

I would defintley but him to sleep if I thought for a minute he was suffering.... but he doesn't seem to be except he will do that howling meow occasionally.  My mom says its because he is in pain....but I don't agree because as soon as I say his name he stops with the meowing....I think he is looking for me


Of course my mom is always doom and gloom anyway!!!

Just wandering if anybody has any input on this.


Below is a prayer request from a Christian Talk Radio Man I listen to on KLIF here in Dallas Fort Worth.  I will copy and paste his e-mail.  It speaks for itself...


Wednesday 17 November 2004, 9:00pm -- An hour ago I was kneeling at the foot of a hospital bed.  Crying and praying with a friend whose son lay there on life support.<?XML:NAMESPACE PREFIX = O /><O:P> </O:P>

During the show this afternoon, Lauren and I received wordthat the 19 year old son of a friend of many years had been involved in an automobile accident and was in the hospital.  As soon as the show was over, I went there.<O:P> </O:P>

As I stood and listened to my friend Bill talk about his son -- as he talked about needing a miracle -- when he said, "I will take him anyway I can get him.  We really need a miracle" -- I was speechless.  Even as am writing this there is a huge lump in my throat.<O:P> </O:P>

I am asking you right now to pray for a miracle for Brandon Smith. <O:P> </O:P>

Whatever you are doing, would you please stop right now and pray that his body would be restored and God would heal him? <O:P> </O:P>

We know we are always to follow our requests with a prayer that Gods will would be done.  And we know that there are many things we cant understand.  But selfishly, I am praying that Bill and Lissa and their family will have a chance to take Brandon home and care for him.<O:P>  And I am asking you to do the same.</O:P>

I have never begged you before, but I am begging you now.  Pray for the miracle that Bill and Lissa and their family are praying for...the miracle that Brandon needs.<O:P> </O:P>

I know that I would not get through one sentence of this on the air.  It is just too much.  So I wanted to humbly ask you for this thing that is the least we can do and the most we can do:  PRAY.<O:P> </O:P>

Thank you so much for reading this and for your faithfulness to do what the Lord prompts you to do.  <O:P></O:P>If you would like to jot a note of to Bill and Lissa, click here.

God bless you,<O:P>  

Scott Wilder

Donna in TEXAS

Saturday, November 20, 2004



1. Other than news, sports, editorials and weather, which specific features or columns of the newspaper do you always read?

obituaries  I'm obssessed with death I guess :-)

living section,society section..I pretty much read the paper  from front to back

2.  When do you normally do your Christmas shopping?  Have you started this year's, yet?  Do you intend to spend more, less or the same this year versus last year?

I usually wait last minute having less time makes it easier I just pick the gift and go ...I dont think a lot because I know I dont have time to mull over for days about what I want to give.

3. You're having a true "TV Dinner," made by a classic character:  who would you rather have in the kitchen:
A) Aunt Bee from "The Andy Griffith Show"
B) Alice from "The Brady Bunch"
C) June from "Leave it to Beaver"
D) Edith from "All in the Family"
E) Claire from "The Cosby Show"

Aunt Bee of course I agree with patrick good southern cooking  hummm

4. What topic are you most sick of hearing about in J-Land? the's over let go on

5. What company is annoying you most with junk mail?Those crappy coupon stuff envelopes who give you coupons on stuff you would never buy

Chantal:  What cheesy sitcom (from any era) most describes how you grew up? Your family, location, dynamics, details...

i dont know it there is one disfunctional enough to protray my family :-)

Thursday, November 18, 2004

FYI-watch out

 I got this from a journal I read called American Ride  I though tI would pass it on you can never be too careful


CBS Report Date: Fri, 5 Nov 2004 08:57:21 -0500 (Eastern Standard Time)

"Keep a watch out for people standing near you in the checkout line at retail stores, restaurants, grocery stores, etc., who have a camera-cell phone in hand.  With the camera-cell phones, they can take a picture of your credit card, which gives them your name, number, and expiration date. CBS reported this type of identification theft is one of the fastest growing scams today. Be aware of your surroundings, forward to all your friends and family." WOW!

tired tired and more tired

WEll went to work at the hospital yesterday and it was a hum dinger...

Usually when I go in the operation is over and patient is recovered and sleeping so....when I went in and they were still operating on the day surgery patient and the overnight patient was in recovery I knew this wouldnt be a good night.

The day patients husband was very funny...His wife was being very demanding and loud<she was in for breast enlargement and nose job>....When we gave him instructions on what to do with her when she got home he looked at us with a pitiful look on his face and said I have to take her home can I leave her here?

RN and I laughed...Sorry pal she is all yours now:-)

I found out that I have to work another overnight friday  Dang....

I'm so tired working 40 in 3 days ugh!!! That doesn't include my Kohl's hours..It doesnt matter how much sleep I get during the day its never restful and lots of interuptions. After about two days of it I feel very dumb drum like I'm moving in slow motion..

Of course while I'm out working nothing gets done at home....Then I think soooooo.... this is why I don't work fulltime anymore.

Momma becomes very cranky.......Don't know how I did it all those past 20 years when I work fulltime.

I went ahead and changed my password and we will see if that keeps the scumbags from my account..

Off to get the kids to bed and tuck my tired bones in the tub.

Wow nexts week in Thanksgiving ..I havent bought a thing so I have done my duty as a pro procrastinator...Sighhhh My job is done.

God Bless,

Donna In TEXAS

Wednesday, November 17, 2004


Don't have a lot of time on the way to my job at the hospital.  I do have a quick question.

I'm so mad about this and need to know what to do.  Somehow when I send e-mails to people and I go into check my sent to delete excess sent stuff .........someone is sending hundreds of e-mails or spam to people via me.  I believe they call it a trojan although I 'm not up on the lingo.....

I have 2 types spyware system and norton antivirus ....Its the same place that does this it says something about saving thousands on your mortgage.

If someone could tell me how to get rid of this or even find it on my computer....

I wish they would send people who do stuff like this to jail I feel like its an envasion ...if they hopped in my car and took it for a joyride without my permission they would arrest them

All ideas welcome

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

How to give a cat a pill

How To Give A Cat A Pill


If you have ever tried to give a cat a pill you know

how difficult it is. The following instructions are fool proof!


1. Pick up the cat and cradle it in the crook of your left arm
as if holding a baby. Position right forefinger and thumb on either
side of cat's mouth and gently apply pressure to cheeks while
holding pill in right hand. As cat opens mouth, pop pill into mouth.
Allow cat to close mouth and swallow.


2. Retrieve pill from floor and cat from under chair. Cradle cat
in left arm and repeat process.


3. Retrieve cat from bedroom and throw soggy pill away.

4. Take a new pill from foil wrap. Cradle cat in left arm holding
rear paws tightly with left hand. Force jaws open and push pill
to back of mouth with right forefinger. Hold mouth shut for a count of ten.


5. Retrieve pill from goldfish bowl and cat from top
of wardrobe. Call spouse in from garden.

6. Kneel on floor with cat wedged firmly between the knees. Holding
front and rear paws, ignore low growls emitted by cat. Get spouse
to hold cat's head firmly with one hand while forcing wooden ruler
into mouth. Drop pill down ruler and rub cat's throat vigorously.

7. Retrieve cat from curtain rail, get another pill from foil wrap.
Make a note to buy a new ruler and repair curtains. Carefully
sweep shattered figurines from hearth and set aside for gluing later.

8. Wrap cat in large towel and get spouse to lie on cat with it's head
just visible from beneath spouse's armpit. Put pill in end of drinking
straw, force cat's mouth open with pencil and blow down straw.

9. Check label to make sure that pill is not harmful to humans. Drink
glass of water to take taste away. Apply band-aid to spouse's forearm
and remove blood from carpet with cold water and soap.


10.Retrieve cat from neighbor's shed. Get another pill. Place cat in
cupboard and close door onto neck to leave head showing. Force
mouth open with spoon, flick pill down throat with elastic band.

11. Fetch screwdriver from garage and put door back on hinges. Apply
cold compress to cheek and check records for last tetanus shot.
throw t-shirt away and fetch new one from bedroom.

12. Call the fire department to retrieve cat from tree across the road.
Apologize to neighbor who crashed into fence while swerving to avoid
cat. Take last pill from foil wrap.

13. Tie cat's front paws to rear paws with garden twine and bind tightly
to leg of dining room table. Find heavy duty pruning gloves from garage.
Force cat's mouth open with small trowel. Push pill into mouth followed}
by large piece of fillet steak. Hold head vertically and pour 1/2 pint
of water down throat to wash pill down.

14. Get spouse to drive you to emergency room. Sit quietly
while doctor stitches finger and forearm and removes pill remnants
from right eye. Stop by furniture store on the way home to order
a new table.

15. Arrange for vet to make housecall.


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