Sunday, October 31, 2004












It is the buttcrack of dawn..... and my 6 year old has snuck into our bed. I feel his little warm body snuggle next to mine. I'm sleeping quite nicely. I'll  let the conversation speak for itself



Zach: Momma

ME: <very asleep> uuhhh

Zach: is it halloween yet?

ME: yes zach its halloween go back to sleep


Zach: Momma

ME: <sleeply responding>What Baby

Zach: do I get to wear my spiderman costume?

Me: Yes baby you do but its too early.... so go back to sleep mommie is very tired.

Zach: OK


Zach: Mommie  what is that word I say is it.. twick or tweat

ME : Yes trick or treat

Zach: Momma

ME: <a little irated voice> What Zachary...

ZACH:  I love you!  <kisses me bad breath and all and snuggles up to me

ME:  "sigh"

Its great to be a mom!!!


Saturday, October 30, 2004


I can still hear Tammy Wynette singing the song ddd iii vvv ooo rrr ccc eee becomes final and little jjj ooo eee will be going away..  well  not sure if the last part is right but it rhymed.:-)

I remember singing to that song sitting in the back seat of my mom and dads car...I was a little girl just singing my heart out.. not really knowing what d i v o r c e really meant.


That word divorce has come to mean many things to me in my life. I have felt it as a child of divorce and I have felt it as an adult of divorce.  Both pretty much suck.

I was pretty hard on my parents when they divorce basicially because I was 17 and really didn't understand it.  I knew my world was changing. I was confused and scared and so I did what all 17 year olds are good at.........  I was a pain in the ASS....A big one.

I am 43 near the age my parents were when they divorced and I have to say in my heart I do understand why it happened.  I understand that my parents messed up because it just happens.  I don't blame them but for years I did.  I wore those wounds like jewelry but I Do Not now.

Marriage is hard ....being middle aged is hard...  dang it life is hard.  They don't teach you this stuff in school. There should be A University of Marriage and A University of Raising Kids.  Noone really teaches you those things your kind of thrown into it..Sometimes you sink sometimes you swim .I have done both.

My daddy called me tonight.. it is always good to talk to him. 

Mom is living with me right now.

When we are children we see our parents as all knowing god like creatures...... AS we age and become our parents ages back then we see they were just like us.....  They had there dreams,fears and vunerablities.  They were simply Human.

I love my parents and I forgave them long ago. I know they have forgiven me time and time in my life..I am there child and they love me warts and all :-)thats ok with me

I love you mom and dad,

your daughter,



Friday, October 29, 2004


You're a plotter!


You're a plotter, someone who carefully crafts an intriguing plot to keep the reader hooked from one scene to the next. You thrive on knowing exactly where your story is going, and what's going to happen along the way. Although you might veer off your original plan for the story, mostly you stick to your carefully planned outline. You're a born storyteller who enjoys sharing your stories with others.


Did this quizilla quiz but cant figure how to copy and past so it will put the link on it maybe someone could enlighten my brain


Donna in Texas


Thursday, October 28, 2004

weekend assignment from john

Weekend assignment to write your own rhyming epitaph.

and make it cute


Here lies Donna G

She couldnt handle not getting to pee.


Here lies Randy

he was so handy

at hogging the remote

you stinky little bloke.:-)


Well....I went on my little interview and OH MY GOSH!!! I leave the house early because it is a little bit of a commute and don't want to be late.  Dang it.....I got there at 9:08 so I sat in my car and thought ....hummmmmm what should I do.... I decided to go into the post office and ask where the interview will be and if there is a place I can sit and wait.

Some dude in a red vest comes out and I proceed to ask him about where I go.Goes like this

Me---Excuse me sir I have a interview for a possible job... could you       please tell me where that will be held??? It doesn't say on my paper.

Red Vest Man-<no emotion smile just stoned faced>  The postmaster office can sit in your car or walk across the street.

Me- Ok thank you very much Coit<I noticed his name badge and thought I'd be polite and acknowledge he had a name>

Red vest man-- He grunted some kind of acknowledgement kind of a cross between a grunt and a un huh

SOOOOO I walk across the street had coffee came back still 9:35

dang 25 more in car listen to KIDD Kraddock on the radio got out at 9:55 walked in..There were 15 people in line for the same interview.

Wasn't really feeling the love in this place but what the heck I'm a tough old bird ......working 16 years at SBC made me that way so I took a deep breath and followed everybody in.


We got into a room and a older lady came in and said

Ok make sure everything is fill out on your application if one space is not filled in or a zip code is missing we will toss your application.

<ok do we need a group hug here :-)>

Next she said I not going to sugar coat this and she proceeded to tell us the bad and ugly of working for usps.

Most of it .. I was pretty much  used to working for ma bell but what really gave me a giggle was the part where she said you may have to use your own vehicle.... if you do your expected to drive from the passenger seat.

Now I understand there reasoning behind this...really I do but <youknew there was a but :-)> Why don't you just cut off my arms and let me drive with my mouth....that would be just as easy.

We had just got though listening to a spill about driving correctly with good driving wreck etcc.. soo which part of driving from the passenger seat is good driving habits.  

I'am I the only who sees the irony in this????

There was one lady to interview all 15 of us and if you do the math YES I was there 4 hours give or take..  I once asked to go to the bathroom and she said we don't have one you can use....I looked at her and said ok and went and sat back down.  5 minutes later she said well... I'm feeling benevolent today so you can use the postmaster bathroom.

Come on did she really expect us to sit there for 4 hours and not pee I just had two freaking cups of eyeballs were floating

Should of bought some depends:-)



When she got to me and guess wasn't a interview at all it was just her looking at my application and seeing if I missed any spaces thats it.

Wanted to know if I had any questions and proceeded to say she would pass my info to human resources.

Why didn't they just let me mail it back and they could of gone over it and then give me a ringey dingy if they were interested  me .  What a waste of my time and gas....

In the end I ended up taking my application with me because I couldn't remember the exact date of a speeding ticket 6 years ago.  Said I needed a date or they would consider me withholding information. So tomorrow I have to take it back to her whew I exhausted

The Moral of the story.......THIS puts a new spin on going postal to me.. Those poor people ''no wonder they snap :-)

Here is a big hug to all our postal workers

PS I got that picture from a postal worker website hummm maybe there is something to this not going to the bathroom

In the womans defense she ended up being a little nicer than she made out so who knows.  Next time your in the post office say a nice word to these poor stressed out people


Did I sleep at all

Grumpy..Grumpy look who's grumpy  MEEEE!!>>>>So why doesn't AOL... give you more choices in the mood section ....or here is a thought.... let you fill in it with your own mood.  It's like you can be in these certain moods but no other.:-) Happy.... thats there anxious .....thats there also but sleepy aaaack nope, tired aaack nope cant have that mood either.:-)  Control freaks thats what they are yep yep yep.  We also really need a AOl review button to see what our entry looks like before we send it to be read.I have to see the big picture to proofread better....

Now I know these things because I'm a perfectionist and control freak myself..... oh my gosh did I just admit this ?...where is that delete button.

Watching tv with the kids this morning .......very tired dreamed all night about my job interview today.<the one at the postal service> 

Why do we do that!!  I dreamed I couldn't find the place and car wouldn't work etc.....You know the dream...  When I finally get to the interview <in my dream> it's not a interview with the postal service but a waitressing job at Benningans.. then next I'm in a chapel on my knees with monks all around and were praying... 

So I woke up exhausted  go figure.

These cartoons are a little crazy ed edd eddy  did the cartoon makers studder ...... crazy things......... give me the jetson or the flintstones  yep I must be getting old:-)

Ok now there is a comercial for a gun called the stink blaster that blows stinky gas in someones face.  Humm ....who needs a gun when you live with all guys.... Well as you can tell I'm not really a morning person my humor is borderline groucheyness <Come on aol lets get spellcheck my brain in tired>


Coffee coffee must have coffee.


Tuesday, October 26, 2004

So tired tonight.....Hope all was well in your world today...

Take time out to say one nice thing to the person you love. We take the ones we love for granted I know I do..

My peace is in GOD...Find your peace wherever your faith may be....


Donna In Texas

Monday, October 25, 2004

Save your drama for your mama

Ok I'm watching the Swan tonight.  I enjoy watching mainly because I work contractually for a Plastic Surgeon and I kind of know the real story so to speak.  I only work maybe 1 -4 shifts per month strickly as needed but it provides us with a little extra money and its overnight..

I must first say they really downplayed the pain factor but hey.... its TV right! I'm glad this year they haven't started with the big boob implants

thing.  I think the girl with the burn scars turned out very nicely.  The other girl look good also but needed to can the attitude. Hey chickey!!!! your getting a free surgery, physical trainer etc.... and your bitchin come on.

I was like kick her butt off there...I'll go ......I'll eat fried squirrell if I can to look pretty:-)

Give me ...Give me......Giveme..... my 20 year old body back I'll be good I promise.  I want to strut my stuff......especially if is all firm and not flubbery.

Well .......were down to the part where they are going to announce the winner and I hear a blood curtling scream... Reconizing that it is my 9 year old and knowing he is a drama queen I sit there for a minute.  I figure that the kids are I let the hubby get up and go see.

SO...they annoucnce the two ladies and I here owwwww aahhhh it hurts it hurts aaaaggghhhh.  Ok.... time for mom patrol...... Cameron had accidentally poured shampoo in his eye and he is jumping around and Randy is tring to get him to settle down.  Actually when I think back its was kind of comical watching them two except the part that cameron's eye was burning. So in my mommie soothing voice I got him calm down ,eye drops in eyes and tucked into my bed...I know  I know   but somehow if I promise 10 minutes in my bed its like instant calm.

Both boys are asleep and the drama is over. Whew! Now I need a valium  just teasing.... So anyway I thinking hey I want some free plastic surgery. I looked on the website to see what you have to do. It says you have to have medical insurance I'm thinking what for who is being cheap the DRs or the hospital....humm you decide.  Well  time for bed.


Donna In TExas

PS Gerry is a big poop poop head

My sister says she reads my journal I dont think she does so I'm planting this message to see......I know I'm evil  Ha!!!!!!!!! 

Saturday, October 23, 2004

walmart surprize

So look at this little cutey in this picture... Not bad for a young thing.

No its not my husband...NIce of you to think so:-) Just kidding

I'm probably old enought to be his momma  You think!!!!

I'm not a soap opera fan but those of you that are know this is Donn Swaby of Passions.

Well eat your hearts out girls I was about 2 feet from him today.

This picture actually doesn't show how really cute he is in person.

Me Hubby and kids parked at our walmart and there in the parking lot was a big top that said people live.  Of course I had no idea what the heck that meant..... but it had music and my boys were like lets go see what it is momma.!! I said ok lets go. It had a bunch of booths with freebie stuff and a place you could get a make over stuff like that.

One of the girls in the booth said do you like soap operas? I replied I dont watch them why? She replied that guy is from the soap opera Passions.

I was like huh ok. I walked over about 2 feet from him and watched him take pictures with some little young girls. I thought about getting my picture taken with him to show in my journal

but dang if I looked pretty sad with no make up and hair all funkyfied <ok not sure if thats a word>

Anyway for you gals that watch and like him well nana nana boo boo to you.:-)

I do have to say he was looking pretty cute with his hair all fixed in a cute hairstyle and his shades smelling all nice.

garsh do I feel old....

Donna in Texas 



Johns weekend assignment


Assignment:  What gone, but not forgotten, TV series do you miss the most?

........Wow this is hard I have to use my brain cells ....

I always like gilligans island  I wanted to be ginger the movie star


Extra Credit:  If you had to be on a game show or reality show, which one would it be?"

I would love to be on Starting Over I really enjoy that reality show and think it would help me a lot to figure out what I want to be when I grow up ...wait  I'm grown up already well....Maybe it could give me direction in my life.


Friday, October 22, 2004

Boring little old me

Ok guys some of you have requested a little info on me....So here ya go.

My name is Donna I have 3 sons Landon 22, Cameron 9, and Zachary 6.  NO its not a typo there is a big age spread in my children.

I was very young when I had my oldest. I remarried in my 30's to Husband Randy and then had Cameron and Zachary.

Being a mom again to small children has been more of a blessing this time around because I'm older and more appreciative. Older and wiser :-)

I turned 43 in August and somedays I really feel it and other day I think I'm too young to be this old!! 

My husband thinks I have all the answers with our kids together but I remind him I have already raised one so I have had a little practice.

When my 22 year old does something that frustrates me I have to remind dear husband that I have never had a 22 year old so everything I experience with Landon is always a first for me.

Landon says I'm not as strict as I was with him.....he is probably right I have more patience and understanding at this age. Then I tell him I love him and he will always be me baby boy he gets embarassed and shuts up :-)

Ok there is a little bit about me I'm a pretty boring person I think ... I love reading other people journals....Some of you guys are so funny and awesome writers. I enjoy all the feedback you give meon my journal and have started to develop some really nice freindships.

Talk to you guys later

Donna in Texas

I reply----- Honey do we have anything sweet in the kitchen?

husbands reply---- ME I'm sweet

Me- sorry honey can't handle that much sweetness

<my husband is such a dork but he is my dork and I love him>

Families can't live with can't kill em :-)


Its Halloween so here is my scary story.


You know the old saying you don't just marry your husband you

marry the whole family.? aaaaggghhh!!!

Well why didn't somebody tell me this.

Where was I.... when this tidbit was being talk about?


This whole marrying the whooollleee family NOOO!

This is very scarey be afraid be very afraid

They should of said run for your life:-)


Here is some scary thoughts that I ponder on daily.

I have yet to figure out the answers so if you have any please feel free to share them with me.

-How to get along with your mother at any age without scratching your own eyes out.

-How to talk your husband into giving up the remote.

Fat Chance!!


-How to get your mother in law to openly criticize you in front of your husband instead of behind his back so he believes you...  Do I here a amen on this one!!

-How take a poop with an audience.....<once kids come into the picture you never get toliet time or bath time alone for a long time :-) Someone always needs you..

-How to talk back to your mother in law when she is being psycho without losing your cool and looking psycho yourself.

Wait wait I think my heads doing that 360 thing again!


-How to hold your breath for long periods of time...this one due to the fact I live with an all male population the flatulent smells could curl your toes.

-How to ignore an aging body your boobs hang low and  and do they bobble too and frow  oh wait I think its about ears oh wellbody parts are body parts. 

Sorry I'm getting off the subject where were we????  oh yes In -Laws


-How to keep your mouth shut when the loser of the family <who still lives with his mommie and daddy at age 33 and still doesn't work or get up before 4pm> tries to give you advice on he knows anything ugh!

-How to not choke the living daylights out of your sister in law when she says  Well your ass ain't so small these days..And any human or animal can see she is wider than she is tall.

She is just jealous yeah thats right so there :-)


-How to be careful and not call your husband's family ...your pet name for them to thier faces <I call them the adams family from the tv show>because you have forgotten there real names...... Just kidding I didn't forget thier real names mama and papa adams oh wait wrong again..who are they again????

Ok I better stop before the in -law police come and get me.  You know these people don't you..... we all have some in our families.

They're creepy and the kooky, mysterious and spooky, they're altogether ooky…The Adams Family"Sing the chours now...Dud dud dud dud click click

                           dud dud dud dud click click

                           dud dud dud dud ....dud dud dud dud.. ...dud dud dud dud click click

They are put into our lives to drive us crazzzzzyyyy!!!


Thats my halloween story and I'm sticking to it

Thursday, October 21, 2004

You want fries with that?

This was originally put out over the internet as being said by Bill Gates, however; it came from a book called. Dumbing down our kids by Charles Sykes... its about how feel-good politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world... That said... my take was... I thought it just was typical teenager thoughts they don't always live in the real world.<Teenagers that is>

:-)  I know this because I raised one and I was one..

even though it was a long time since my teenage years I still remember my smart backtalking mouth getting me in to trouble  Ha!!...Thought I knew it all now I'm old enought to know........ I know nothing....Nevertheless; I thought it was funny and to the point


Life is not fair; get used to it.

The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with a car phone, until you earn both.

If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He
doesn't have tenure.

Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping; they called it opportunity.

If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parents' generation, try "delousing" the closet in your own room.

Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades; they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

Television is NOT real life. In real life, people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

I especially like Rule 11

Should of been nicer to the nerds:-)


Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Big Letter in the mail

Ok ....about 3 months ago I got a wild hair to apply a few places to work.  Cameron and Zachary are in school all day and I have been bored and eating way too much.<I've got the big butt to prove it>

SO I applied at the Post Office took thier crazy test ....hummm I guess it was in MAY.  I passed and got the usual Thank you for your time your name is on a list <with a half billion other people> dont call us we will call you blah blah blah blah Z'sZ'sZ'sZ's

Well today.. low and behold I got an envelope from USPS saying we want to interview you.  Dang little old me who would of thought ...I figured they forgot me ...because I wasnt feeling the love.  So we will see what happens.... I hope if I do get offered the job that I don't regret it.

I would like to go back to college maybe do social work, counseling or nursing. I have a college degree I got in 1983 never used it. I'm such a numb nutt I know.

Well guys, I'm really tired OH just one more thing

Thank you for the kind words on my friend cecy.  Yes I do miss her ....some days not so bad some days I think about her a lot.  Today I went up to the school to help the teacher and saw her son Jaxon. He ran up and hugged me so hard and said I love you Donna.  It kind of took me back because he has never done that before without me hugging first.

My first thought was ....I wish cecy was here to see Jaxon and then I smiled and thought oh but she is ...she is watching right now.:-)

Much love,

Donna In Texas

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Cecys story

In my last entry I dicussed us discovering cecy having breast cancer...but you know .....really didn't seem real.  She didn't look sick and she didn't act sick. Chemo went fine so did child birth and the mastectomy.  Our lives just went along and this blip in the road was over.

In April things changed she complained about her arm hurting a little ...thats all... I said probably your nerves growing back and she agreed.

WIthin a month we lost her so fast no chance to breathe just gone..... one minute here next minute nothing.... just gone

Daniel cecy's husband set up a group where we could log on and see what was going on with her so we wouldn't have to call him all the time.  He needed time to be with her. I will share a few of the last entries.


4/8/2003 1:08 pm entry by daniel

 To both Cecy and I it is becoming pretty obvious that things are getting worse. Cecy and I had some really wonderful talks yesterday about some of the hardest things you could ever talk about with your wife.  She is really tired and wants to come home and be comfortable with her family and is not sure she wants to continue with treatment if it is going to affect the quality of her remaining life. She really is ready to go on to her real home…Heaven. We talked about her last wishes, where she wants to be, who she wants to be with…all sorts of things. Cecy is the most amazing individual that you or I will ever meet. Her courage is incredible and her faith is undying.

4/13/2003 3:55 PM  Posted by Daniel H
So much love for Cecy.

It was a great day at the house. All of Cecy’s friends showed up in force and finished her arbor and garden in one day! It is almost as beautiful as Cecy! She has really felt everyone’s love some much these last few days that I think that is the only reason she hangs on. Cecy has been really too sick to even cry this week but when she was wheeled out to her garden she was moved to tears. I will never forget that…..completely wonderful. I want to thank eveyone so much for all there hard work and money to get that together. With her condition getting worse by the day It will really be nice to have a sanctuary right in her back yard.  

   4/14/2003 4:18 PM  Posted by Daniel H
My Dearest Cecy went to Heaven this morning a 2:30...

Thank you for letting me share a small part of CECYS journey.. CECY  I MISS YOU!!  You are my hero!!

Monday, October 18, 2004


This pictures looks like a typical family picture but it is not. This is my friend Cecy and this is the face of breast cancer.

I would like to share with you cecys journey she would want me too.  I must say this is very hard for me even after a year and a half. In fact I feel a knot in my throat as I type. I loved her so much and still do...

I remember when Cecy mentioned a DR's appt. about a knot in her breast and wanting to check it out. We talked about it being nothing since she was pregnant and hormones do crazy things to your body.  Besides she is only in her 30's.. still young.  WE were wrong boy were we ever wrong. 


This month is breast cancer awareness month..For some people it doesn't mean much except people fighting cancer more of a abstract thing.

I have given this some thought and even though I would like my journal to be on the humorous side, I feel that If I can help others by these next few days of entries then it is my responsiblity. Please join me in the next few days as I share with you the details of a beautiful life..

And please ladies self exam and get those mamograms!!!


Sunday, October 17, 2004

Longest distance in the world

What is the longest distance in the world?  Think about it....huh huh huh huh huh ..what is your guess?  Hummmm from here to the sun you say nope

Guess again come on come on. From here to eternity and back nope wrong again  give up give up

OK OK  ready got a pencil to write down the answer<yes there will be a pop quiz later>

The longest distance in the whole wide world issssssss drum roll please  The distance that it takes to move a dirty dish in our sink to the dishwasher HA!!!

It is only 2 feet thats right 2 lousy feet!!!! Now I dont have a problem with the distance oh no but the rest of my family are distance challenged.

Dont they make medication for this... surely the FDA is aware of this massive problem. Get the batphone alfred alert the press.:-)

What I am proud is they can pile those dirty dishes as high Mount Everest. Yes Sir REEE!!!

If piling dirty dishes in the sink was a jinga game my family would win. I can see it now....OPPPs there is an empty space if I stuck that bowl just right  very carefully ok dont breathe it will fall now run run before mom gets here.  Now I don't have the proof this happens but I'm psychic you know all moms are psychic.  :-)

I have eyes in the back of my head in fact hold on yeah I knew it my head just went completly around. 

Got To go load the dishwasher ugghhh!!

Donna in Texas

Picture of my youngest in kindergarten

He is the 2nd on the left .

Saturday, October 16, 2004

I'm offically commented

I big Thank you to all who have made me feel welcomed in J-land. I big hug to Steph for her support....I ran home and said yeah I have comments..... yup I'm a geek its official. This should be interesting. ITs off to bed for now .

Donna In Texas

Just a quick note




I must admit it I'm a little apprehensive about this journal thing...Kind of like when I was a little kid on the high dive and everybody is saying just jump it will be ok and I'm thinking yeah right after they pull my limp body out of the water:-) I also have one disclaimer.. I am not the worlds best speller and I dont see spell check on this journal thing so please no e-mails on my spelling I know its awful I will try my best ok...ok

I have been a journal reader for quite a while now and have enjoyed following the laughter and lives of fellow journalers <ok there is that spelling thing already rearing its ugly head:-)>

It is my hope that you enjoy this journal journey as I clean out these cobwebs and try to figure this thing called midlife out. Ok now I feel a little better whew!!! So until tomorrow or whenever more thoughts escape my cluttered mind.

Donna In Texas

Ps.The picture above is from I encourage you to visit her wonderful site

I'm new to this and I'm trying to learn all rules however if I make a honest mistake in my postings Please let me know I encourage your feedback many thanks