Rest in peace Terri...I'm so sorry you had to die in such a terrible way...I pray you look down from heaven and give your mother peace in her heart that you are now free from your body and singing with the angels...
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.
* Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of
* Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.
* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably
* It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning
* Never buy a car you can't push.
* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't
have a leg to stand on.
* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
* The second mouse gets the cheese.
* When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
* You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to
* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.
* We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are sharp, some are pretty and
some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they
all have to live in the same box.
" A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today. . . .
. . . . . . I did
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
I found an interesting journal called the journal jar
This is what it is about
This journal is for my journal jar:
My sister gave me this journal jar, filled with 365 questions, one for everyday of the year. I started this journal for the questions... and probably many answers.
A life story - One Day At a Time
This celebrates something special - You!
if you follow a simple plan, you will find
before this time next year, you will have a
very personal history finished.
So... this is my life story.
What a cool idea I thought ......ok now I'm writing in pink why does this do this I didnt change it to pink...Even my dang journal is a people pleaser..it takes on whatever I copy and paste..
the credit goes to KAS at
She had it on her journal and I click on it to see..
Dang it I'm typing pink again...
Monday, March 28, 2005
I like this house...way out into the country where the kids can run crazy and so can the dog...So I'm writing a check as we speak...NOT!!!!!! are you crazy I can't afford a house this much but if you would like to donate to the give
Donna her dream house...credit,checks and of course cash accepted :-))))))!!!!wink wink
Great View of Gunter & Grayson County!
4 Bedroom and 3 Bath on 5 Acres. 2580 sq ft $ 349,000
On FM 121 between Gunter and Van Alstyne 350' x 610' lot dimensions. Gunter Texas.
From the front drive
View from the Front Yard
Nice Backyard Pond & View
Side garage and living quarters
From the road
Great View of the County
View from the Back
I'm looking at the new picture I put in my about me section and my gosh I look like I have horse teeth...My teeth do not look like that picture maybe I swashed it to much to fit the small area...
It's a beautiful day here 60 degrees or more...Still feeling somewhat depressed...It's been almost a year since I took my anti depressants and I had been doing really good.
Not sure what is up..I took some taurine today which is an amino acid that for some reason make me mentally feel better..
We had a great spring break at my Dad and Stepmoms..
My stepmom is a wonderful person so loving and caring...She makes you feel safe in just being who you are...I love her so much..I was sad when it was over..
I told my husband I dont really like where we live...The town is growing way too fast and its become so cold and uncaring like....
I want to move closer to family or out in the country away from all the traffic....
We have live in DFW for about 7 years and although there are things I like about it...I just have never felt connected to anybody that much...Dont really have very many friends and its so expensive to live here...I dont know maybe just getting older I feel my priorities changing...
Just want to be around loving family members...not the nutcase ones....
I have thought about stopping this journal because I feel my entries have become boring and mundane...
I feel like I'm very negative right now and dont really want to bring everybody else down with me....
Well I'm going to go sit outside and enjoy this beautiful weather because you know in texas it can change in 24 hours...
Sunday, March 27, 2005
I was born on a tuesday..who knew I guess I should huh
See how long you have been alive...
This is kind of interesting...
Watching tv while reading journals...watching Extra its about rich star kids...yeah that makes me feel better 14 year olds making more money in a year than I have made in my whole life
Cameron my 9 year old says mom please lay and read to me so I can sleep good...So we read mr poppers penguins...
I go take a bath zach my 7 year old sneaks into the bathroom
begging to lay in my bed..I say no he says 1minute I say no...
Daddy needs his sleep for work tomarrow...
I send him to bed...
I get pjs on and go into zachs room I tell him ...turn on your lamp and we read some of Treasure Island together...
Hubby comes into the room and say mommie can you read to me and laughs while walking out of the room.
I go into my room and ask hubby if he needed anything..he says naugh just cant sleep unless your snuggling with me...
aagghh!!So I got everbody to sleep and now I cant sleep
I'm feeling very sad today..... empty...It's easter and my oldest son didnt call me to say hey or anything ...IT has been a month since we spoke. He hung up on me on that day which he always does when he knows I'm right and he is wrong...
I did break down and call him finally I decided I would go ahead and call ...Wished him happy easter and told him I wasnt working anymore...of course it was left on his voice mail because I always get voice mail..
How did I raise such a selfish child....I give up..
My heart breaks...and I can rest assured he does not care...
I do not understand.. It is my hope that Cameron and Zachary will turn out to be different..
Being a parent is harder especially when you children are in there 20's...
Saturday, March 26, 2005
The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test
Just call me Saint Donna .......whatever!!! nice picture
Yep this is me..I stress and over-analyzes everything...
I'm intellegent...Some people might argue with this one HA!!!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
This may be the most creative 10 minutes on the web. Art can be found in many
forms and this is amazing.
My dad showed me this man making art out of sand on a piece of glass..It is so cool...great of kids also
For your viewing pleasure...
Friday, March 18, 2005
This morning I woke up the kids...Told them it's friday and you start spring break next week..
9 year old complains and grumbles something about stomach hurting..
I said oh you will be ok get up...
No mom I really feel bad I have stinkey burps...<gross>
I said get up and I will get you something for your stomach..
Now I'm not a mean momma but kids will be kids...
So I gave him something for his stomach and in 10 seconds I hear
I turn around to see my son running to the bathroom...with a trail of throw up on the carpet.
I said hummm ok maybe you are sick...My bad
Poor kiddo I felt bad for not believing him...
So I got to cleanthrow up off the carpet and toliet this morning.<happy happy joy joy>
An hour later cameron got dressed and said I feel better I'm ready to go to school..
I said hold up buckaroo...I don't think the other mommies would appreicate me letting you go to school and spreading throw up germs all around..
He had a sad face but cartoon network solved that...
He got his cast off this wednesday but his ankle is still weak so has to walk with the crutches still...
Maybe one day we will all be well
She says while crossing fingers..
So how was your morning?:-)
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Hello sunshine...beautiful sunshine it was 60 degrees today...
I love sunshine makes me a happy girl.
Open house at school tonight...
Spent the day doing laundry..cleaning baseboards,dishes...
What a life I lead such excitement..
Watching Ellen Degeneres...Love her
Hey Ellen Call me we will do lunch....<ps dont bring portia:-)>
Wish these allergies would subside..sneezing my head off..
Happy St. Patricks Day....Went to the mall didnt wear green..Not a soul pitched me darn:-)
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
In the background....
Man voice.......Boys ITs Time to go to bed...
I heard a pitter pater of little feet coming my way....
Its my youngest....Zach
He says...Mom why do you get to stay up???
Me: Because I'm a big person..
ME: I'm the boss
Zach:Oh bosses get to stay up
Zach:OH MAN!!!<gives me the little sad face>
Me>>>.Snickering....That's right I'm the bosess uh huh...uh huh... uh huh!!!
This answer is still NO.. Yes I remember our first kiss, your touch.. but we can never be <sigh>.... Stop waiting for me for I am now taken by another love...I will never forget you but please stop with the begging..its breaking my heart!!!!!
Your memories always remain with me,
Monday, March 14, 2005
So its my first day home...I've been pacing the house all day feeling like I should be doing something....
I'm so ADD....I do dishes, some laundry<not too much cause I hate laundry> I even make the bed < dont pass out mom>
You would think I would fall back into being a sahm..but I do not I need STRUCTURE..someone to tell me what to do.
SOOO I go to Mcdonalds and get the kids some chicken nuggets to take up to the school...That's it I will go up and have lunch with the kids...
I'm eating with the 9year old and he say MOM your the best mom ever...My heart melts..GOD knows I love this kid...
But there was a time...when this child was young his behavior embarssed me on a daily basis....Never a dull moment<he is ADD/ADHD >
I was shopping at Wal Mart I'm not sure how old cameron was maybe 5...maybe smaller he was in the basket so probably younger..
anyhow...I was in the milk aisle...it was a very busy day..lots of moms out..Cameron kept wiggling and trying to stand up in the basket...
I was getting so frustrated because he wouldn't set down...
I finally said out of desperation CAMERON what is your problem!!!!
In a very loud voice he said MOMMA my weiner is sticking up and won't go down.... <GULP> I felt like everybody in the milk section turned around and stared at me...I heard moms snickering under there breath
My face turned red and I tryed not to seem embarassed but my face was about 5 shades of red...
In a calm and quite voice I said Well honey.... leave it alone and it will go down on its own... I quitely scooted out of that aisle...
I told my husband and he laughed his butt off....HE said YEP that cameron...speaks his mind....
I called my mom and said I'm sorry if I ever embarssed you when I was young...She just laughed and said You pay for your raising....Thanks for the curse mom
Sunday, March 13, 2005
here is the website
You said your birthday is 8 / 29 / 1961
which means you are 43 years old and about:
44 years 10 months younger than Walter Cronkite, age 88
41 years 3 months younger than Pope John Paul II, age 84
37 years 3 months younger than George Herbert Bush, age 80
29 years 11 months younger than Barbara Walters, age 73
27 years 9 months younger than Larry King, age 71
21 years 7 months younger than Ted Koppel, age 65
18 years 2 months younger than Geraldo Rivera, age 61
15 years 2 months younger than George W. Bush, age 58
10 years 1 month younger than Jesse Ventura, age 53
5 years 10 months younger than Bill Gates, age 49
1 year 0 months younger than Cal Ripken Jr., age 44
4 years 10 months older than Mike Tyson, age 38
8 years 11 months older than Jennifer Lopez, age 34
14 years 4 months older than Tiger Woods, age 29
20 years 10 months older than Prince William, age 22
and that you were:
40 years old at the time of the 9-11 attack on America
38 years old on the first day of Y2K
36 years old when Princess Diana was killed in a car crash
33 years old at the time of Oklahoma City bombing
32 years old when O. J. Simpson was charged with murder
31 years old at the time of the 93 bombing of the World Trade Center
29 years old when Operation Desert Storm began
28 years old during the fall of the Berlin Wall
24 years old when the space shuttle Challenger exploded
22 years old when Apple introduced the Macintosh
21 years old during Sally Ride's travel in space
19 years old when Pres. Reagan was shot by John Hinckley, Jr.
18 years old at the time the Iran hostage crisis began
14 years old on the U.S.'s bicentennial Fourth of July
12 years old when President Nixon left office
10 years old when Alabama Gov. George C. Wallace was shot
7 years old at the time the first man stepped on the moon
6 years old when Martin Luther King Jr was assassinated
3 years old during the Watts riot
2 years old at the time President Kennedy was assassinated
Saturday, March 12, 2005
1. Have you ever called 911 for an emergency?
I might have but don't remember
2. Do you spend more or save more?
spend but I do save some just not enough
3. How many live plants do you have in your home now? none Do you give them enough attention?real plant I am criponite to them I kill them I only do silk
4. What was the last thing you did to exercise? I walked on the treadmill How often do you exercise?I try to eveyday but not always success....does flipping the remote count
5. Where do you compare with regard to your parents: do you feel like an adult, or still like the "kid?" If you feel like an adult, when did you first feel that way?
I feel like an adult...I guess I started feeling that way about 35..I am now 43
6. Who is the last person you received a personal card or letter from that wasn't sent to mark a special occasion?
Hummm that a hard one...I cant remember I guess nobody loves me...my step mom always tell me how much she cares for me for no reason so that counts right....
my memaw always tells me I'm a good sister to my sibling ....I count those because I like words more than cards
A lesson to be learned from typing the wrong email address!
A Minneapolis couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a
particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel schedules. So, the husband left
Minnesota and flew to Florida on Thursday, with his wife flying down
the following day. The husband checked into the hotel. There was a
computer in his room, so he decided to send an email to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her email address, and without
realizing his error, sent the email.
Meanwhile, somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister who was called home to glory following a heart attack. The widow decided to check her email expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she screamed and fainted. The widow's son rushed into
the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen
To: My Loving Wife
Subject: I've Arrived
Date: October 16, 2004
I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here now and you are allowed to send emails to your loved ones. I've just arrived and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing you then! Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was.
P.S. Sure is hot down here!
Went with the hubby and middle son to eat ice cream while youngest was at a birthday party ...
I'm not supposed to eat ice cream...Guess what ?????????
I ate ice cream...made me sick ..I do that everytime ....Bad Donna..
I hate going to little kid birthday parties..There I said it...Its out in the open my secret is known...
I guess because I have kids with ages so wide apart .... 23,9,7..I've done the going to other Little kids birthday parties with the oldest and then 13 years laterwith my middle son and now I get to do it again with my 7 year old again....WiIl it never end.....Just shoot me now!!!
I give my kid parties but only for immediate families...I don't have hundreds of dollars to spend on all the neighborhood kids..apparently some parents do....
So I have become uncool I guess...
Oh well ... I'm a cranky old woman so what I earn it HA!!!!
Yeah I'm big talker aren't I????
Wait until the grandkids come
I'll be like you are going to give them a big party...Yeah buddy I will probably be eating my words big time... but for now...I say ..NO MORE PARTY INVITES This old woman needs a rest
Why in the bygibbers did my body decied to get up so early....
Thats what happens when you get in your 40's your body starts telling you what to do...
-walking in the mall body says go pee now and you go or else
-Bending over your body say uuuhhh no..... and you cant get up
-drinking a alcohol drink your body says nope you had plenty when you were young so bam...you feel like caca
When I was young I was the boss of me now My bodies organs have taken over its a mutuny...I am losing this battle
Friday, March 11, 2005
SO I went to Rosie O'Donnels blog and read..
I like rosie always have I dont care what people say...I like people who are funny and take the crazyness of the world and find humor,,,A day without laughter is a day not worth living to me....
People forget that the famous are just regular people with the same type problems like us except the whole world is watching...yaakkeess...So glad the world hasnt seen some of my faux pas...<sp>
I was thinking....Just wandering what it would be like to have all that fame and fortune...Just pondering in my brain..
My 9 year old comes up and says
Cam::::Mom if somebody came up to me and said you can have a thousand mansions I would tell them no...because I would never want to have anything unless I have you to share it with me...
God this kids comes up with some good ones... He puts it in perspective...
However a day of shopping without finiancal limits sounds tempting..but no amount of money can buy what I have with my family..
husband is watching a show called The Contender..I hate boxing watching people beat the pulp out of each other...not
my cup of tea...
Hum maybe we could put Cat Lady and me in the ring..naaugghh.. revenge is never really sweet...
So I had my last day today....Kind of sad to leave the people I liked....
I start feeling anxious when I don't work...strange kind of vunerable...I hate the isolation part of staying home I think..
My husband came home and said did they do anything for you leaving I said nope nothing I even ate lunch by myself...
My good friend and coworker left early and others were at different work locations today so no biggy..Of course my e-mail pal sent me a funny e-mail.
I wanted to say bye to my other coworkers but cat lady was standing there with her big butt flirting with the giys and I didnt want to give her the satisfaction of seeing me leave..She is evil....
I feel relief..I wish I could of told her off but its not my nature....She is sad and lonely...and I pitty her..I guess.
Now I have to stay busy while the kids are at school so I will give it my all..
I havent gotten responses from my e-mail sent to the college profsessor...It's been several days..A simple short answer would of been ok but no nothing...
I guess I will truck my butt up to there offices and force them to give me an answer to my question...I hate when people dont play the game right...Does it always have to be a teeth pulling just to get people to do what they are supposed to.....
my allergies are getting the best of me today so I will go and stop griping
Rudol[ph red nose signing out <aaaacchheeww!!>
Wednesday, March 9, 2005
SO today I finally sent my boss a e-mail to confirm my last day at work..I went into this long e-mail about why.. He basically already knew from talking to my co worker who filled him in.
<She is his right hand person..
I just felt I should tell him myself ..He is in California so I cant really talk to him face to face right now..
So I write this long e-mail and his responsewas..
OK Thanks .....lets make your last day this friday instead its the end of pay period...
I just set there and thought HUMMM OK...Not sure if he was busy or maybe a little upset..
I broke this news to one of my favorite coworkers whom I work through e-mail with a lot we have met once but mostly talk over e-mail at work...
This young man is so funny everyday he makes me laugh with funny e-mail responses..
I told him about my leaving and hadn't heard from him for a while.l SO the next day I sent a e-mail saying ...hey dude whats up.... you ok ??? I'll be sending work your way soon.....he sent me this funny e-mail<of course I should say he was joking just in case you dont understand the humor>
I'm giving you the silent treatment. You are just like every woman! You come into my life, laugh at me jokes, compliment me, make me feel special, tell me you will cook, etc, etc, etc . . . and then you tell me you will be leaving soon. Have you no heart? Maybe it's my fault. I let this happen every time! Ouoaueo u[paimetnm app[r q8u t820u re a oi[u ab argugq[3j34n[j-]-PJATJ(&*4 1 oiuoa 4au g8 a4u4hjqr 048u5qn4t j va0 nau0unt4uq0=nu4tb b4t08 08n *7uqu34t . . . <?s
sorry about that . . . I was cleaning the tears off of my keyboard
I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants...This young man cracks me up I told him I was adopting him as my son his response good whens dinner....
I love working with fun people....People who just make you laugh at life and you feel better for having known they..For that I say thanks to Jeremy...
I fell such relief leaving...wheww!!!
Tuesday, March 8, 2005
So told boss my last day would be March18...Daycare is eating up my paycheck so its not really paying me to work at the place I'm barely breaking even. I guess I should of thought it out more
With summer coming on I would have to pay 800. per month for childcare...I wouldnt even break even.....
Hubby is thrilled about me quiting never wanted me to work anyway. He thinks I'm great as a momma...AAHHH!!!
I did get up the guts to e-mail the colleges around here for information about Social work degree...
My husband thinks I would be a good counselor he says I counselor friends and family all the time for free HA!!!
What a sweetheart he is...I just enjoy people and there lives...If I can help them by listening or giving tools to help them along..I feel very satisfied..I really enjoy working with the elderly..They are awesome!!
Does anybody know Step her journal is called The Redhead??
I was concerned because I can't get her site to load so I am hoping nothing has happened to her...I havent gotten any alerts lately but who can depend on alerts...
Sunday, March 6, 2005
SO our company decided for us that all ongoing prescriptions can only be filled by mail order...
You can fill it through the pharmacy but you pay full price...So the choice is a no brainer...
I had all kinds of question about this process such as
What happens if they screw up?
how do I know they didnt hire an illegal immigrant who does reada or speaka english to fill my medications..:-)
How so I know my medication isnt tampered with in the process of getting to my door.....
But I bit by tongue and said nothing when the union agreed to this...
I know the game with corperate isnt fun or pretty and concessions have to be made to get other stuff..
Well I took my kiddo to get his meds refilled...they fax it in to Caremark with all the information the company needs.
Hubby gets on the website today and says Houston we have a problem..I said what??
He said they sent Camerons medicine to an address we havent lived at in about 6 years..
I said what the HEll...I said how did they even get that address because we have never used mail order before this year...
Hubby says Plus they have been sending us stuff throught the mail at this address for quite a while..... ok I was blowing smoke out my ears...
Hubby said ok you sit down and send them a e-mail...I said why me? He says because you are really good at belittle people in professional but to the point way...
I said Well Thanks <I think>... SO I wrote a e-mail
I wish I would of printed it because it was good but I did not. I can't remember it because when I'm mad my mind just takes over and the words spew out...It's like I'm in a different zone...
My husband say you should be a lawyer you argue people to death and whatever you say people have no comeback... I said well if being an lawyer was only about arguing then yep I would be good but its not...
The truth is I have been in customer service for most of my career so I know good verbige thats all...
So long story short the meds are going to North Richland Hills which is in fort Worth.. WE live about an hour from there...
This just confirms my fears of the online pharmacy's stupidity...
They better correct this screw up in a timely manner without any addition costs or the caremark upper management will hear about this....
Saturday, March 5, 2005
I am trying hard to start up walking again...I used to walk 2 miles a day for several years...Once I stopped working outside the home hummm well....... I just got out of the habit
Now I'm 30 lbs heavier ....and mad at myself.I am trying to modivate myself to walk once again
My husband in all his smart ass glory said one day..well..... since you like to be on the laptop so much.. prop it up on the treadmill and read your journals while you walk..
I said ok mr smarty pants.....That is a good idea if .....I knew it would work..
Well it worked I walked a mile and read journals at the same time....dang it wasnt that hard either...
SO kudos to the hubby...
6. Let my mother live with me for a year at the age of 43 and lived to tell about it HA!!!
7.Had a 9lb 3oz baby completely natural...not... one drop of anything....<had a crappy DR>
8. Had gastric bipass surgery and lost 120 lbs
9.Won a metal for playing the flute in high school
10.Got a musical scholarship for college but didnt take it because I was in LOOVVEE and thought my boyfriend was more important....Yep I was a dumb ASS...
ok there you have it this was hard...
Friday, March 4, 2005
1. Chipped my front tooth on a swing set in the 3rd grade
2. Was at a Dance club <in my 20's>came back to table from dancing unaware that someone had set there cup of tobacco spit in front of my chair ...it was the same type cup I had my drink in..I took a drink BARFF....I went to the bathroom and threw up.
3.Was pregant before I got married both times..I always got it backwards HA!!!
4.Allow my son to go live with his father when he was a teenager..even though in my heart I didnt want to...<it was what he wanted>cryed my heart out for many years about that descion...
5.Did a Hula on stage in hawaii...
That's 5 I need to think of 5 more...sorry I dont lead an exciting life
Wednesday, March 2, 2005
WEll we went to the Doctor..Zach has the beginings of an ear infection and yes I have pink eye in both eyes...I also have some kind of congestion ..achey crap in my upper respiratory part also he said...
Well he didnt say it exactly like that I just translated:-)
Waiting for the Pharmacy to fill precriptions...
Feeling rather poorly right now need to go lay down..Head hurting feeling heavy...Must be my tremendously large brain HA!!!
Love to all
Woke up this morning not feeling well.. I think I have a bad case of Pink eye in both eyes...My head hurts rather badly..
Youngest is sick with congestion and cough..SO its off to the Dr we go this morning..Will check in later
Thank to all for all your comments..You guys rock!!
Tuesday, March 1, 2005
In a pissy mood Blah blah blah
got to quit this stupid beneath me job
blah blah blah blah blah
I'm a crappy mom blah blah
I'm a crappy person blah blah
I'm so negative blah blah blah
I cant stand myself blah blah
Sick of my sisters families drama blah blah blah
watch out for mood change in 24 hours blah blah blah
Hate my life blah blah blah
Who the hell am I blah blah blah
Such whiner blah blah
Outta here going to bed can't stand myself right now blah blah