tuesday

kids have been out of school 2 days..Both days we went swimming...me in a swim suit pretty scarey...

I saw on another journal wanting to know if our screen name means anything...

I got mine from putting my 3 boys names together

Landon,cameron,zachary..

if you take the first two letters of each name and you get the word Lacaza then the number 3 for the amount of children I have...

Kind of cool huh...

HAppy Pills

ok I'm really digging these corti slim wanna be pills I'm taking of my husbands...

They have helped my appetite tremendously but most of all my depression is virually gone..

How do these things make you feel happy..beats me...

I have an appt with a psychiratrsit sp?? on June 1..

I already filled out the forms guess I need to stop taking the happy pills so he can see the full blow me the sadness that eats away at me ...

Last night when we were at dave and busters...I was sitting at the table alone..I dont play games <arcades>I can't enjoyed dropping money in a slot and not getting something that I can't take home with me yep I'm werid that way..I dont like gambling...when I give someone my money I want something in return...if I'm not getting something in return then I might as well drive down the street and throw my money out the window...

Ok back to the subject...This really pretty woman walks by and in my head I think wow she sure is pretty and then I think and boy I look like shit right now...

Turns out that girl is engaged to this guy we know <we found this out later on in the evening>

So we were driving home and I asked my husband

<girls you know what I about to ask....the dreaded question..>

Honey didnt you think that girl was beautiful??

Honestly I dont care if he thinks so because I truly thought she was pretty and I like to know what men think..

My husband say she was ok..

I said ok???... I dont think so

I looked at him and said I'm sorry I havent been looking nicer for you..

He said I love you no matter how you look..<this is true he has loved me fat skinney etcc.. and has never said in 10 years a thing about my looks>

I said It makes me mad I should be a better wife..

He is quite and I push him for an answer

NOw my husband is a man of few words and it is hard to get him to talk sometimes but when he does talk....its meaningful

He said you piss me off...

I said what??

He said.You piss me off because you put yourself down to much donna you a good person and you beat yourself up with your own words..

I just sat there stund...

I said your right I do

He said I wish you could see what other people see in you..you have alot to offer your a great mother and wife and I love you..

I just sat there...

what could I say I'm my own worse enemy

 

 

 

interview by celeste

Sorry celeste it has taken me so long to answer your questions

1. What is one thing that you wish you could do again that is not possible to do? Be in my 20's again but know what I know now...
2. What is one thing you have not done that you wish you could do? one thing there are so many..I wish I would of traveled the world when I was young with no kids or responsiblity but myself
3. Someday you will have the daughter in laws. It is the holidays where are your boys? I hope that my daughter n laws and I will have such a great realtionship we me that they would want to all be here one big happy famliy
4. Comfort is something that everybody wants. Describe your idea of a comfort zone. comfort zone for me is laying in my stepmomma bed next to her watching tv.. this doesnt happen often but when it does I charish it.she is the most loving and uplifting person I know
5. What is the most romantic thing to have ever happened to you?When me husband who has a hard time expressing his feelings thank me for having our son cameron right after he was born...I could tell he was truley blow away at my strength and amaze at his love for our child..

my name

 

what is your sexy brazilian name

Mine was 

Your Sexy Brazilian Name Is
Ana Paula Ambrosio

yeah and thats my butt too....

I wish

 

http://www.blogthings.com/sexybraziliannamegenerator/

HAppy Birthday cameron

Happy Birthday my precious Cameron...

10 years old today...wow were have the years gone..

We took the kids to Dave and Busters...Which I Would rather have a whipping than go to a arcade..

I hate arcades but the kids and hubby love them so whats a girl to do...

Tonight I was talking to cameron..

ME::::Cameron do you realize that in 10 years you will be 20 years old

Cameron:::Wow how big will I big mom??? Will I be this talll < he jumped up really high>

Me: I don't know how tall you will be but probably taller than your ole momma..

Cameron:::SO how old will you be in 10 years momma??

ME::::gulp....53

Cameron:::53 wow that is really old....<he pauses and thinks> I hope you make it that long..

ME:::I laugh....Well lets pray  will ok

Cameron::ok

 

My kids are always thinking I have one foot in the grave...I'm starting to get a little paranoid lol

 

Happy Birthday my little man

I love you with all my soul....

Your momma always

my dad

Dad procedure went just fine..I talked with him a few minutes ago...

He says his chest already feels better ...

I got on to him for not telling us about the chest pain..

He said that he didnt realize it was angina he just thought it was indigestion..

He says he thought angina was suppose to feel sharp and his pains were dull...

so anyway he will be in the hospital overnight and home tomarrow sometime

Thanks for all your prayers and kindness..

My DAD

The phone rang last night it was my step mom whom I love to bits....

I had called her earlier to tell her I pick up some flip flops for her...

Her call was a little unsettling...

she said your dad is going into the hospital..

This is always nervous for me because dad has diabetes and had heart bi-pass surgery at age 50...he is now 64..

My step mom says he has blockage and will need a stent...

Sigh...so please remember my dad Don..<yes I'm named after him>lol

Any prayers or well wishes and thoughts for him are appreicated...

Thanks

Donna