Happy Holidays from us.. Aren't we cute..

Can you believe is 2009 almost

I hope each and every one of you had a good Christmas. We stayed at home and I had all three of my boys here plus Ashley my daughter in law... my sister in law Debbie and Robin came.My nephew Clayton was her also
It was a nice Christmas no drama as I am not communicating with my sister..still...my mom decided to stay at her house 2 and half hours away and not fight the traffic which I understand.
I made a turkey and all the trimmings...I ask the family not to give randy or I gifts just the kids.
I was afraid the kids would be disappointed with not much from us...but they were not..in fact my middle son Cameron slip a 20 dollar bill in my stocking and said you keep it and use it for bills.
I thought that was so sweet but I told him I had gotten a few more jobs so I didn't need it just yet so he could keep it.. He said ok mom but if you do just ask..
He is growing up so fast and I am proud of him more and more everyday.
We still haven't heard if anyone will retire to save my hubby from losing his job in February..so we will see..
I told him that as long as we were healthy and together God would provide...
It was 70 something degree here today which I loved very much...
Randy and I will be celebrating our 14 wedding anniversary on New years eve...
wow I can't believe it...
I told him I was going to have to trade him in on a newer model...Ok I was just kidding lol lol
I wouldn't want to have to train a new man...He He
well my blogger friends it nighty nite for me

So frustrated

This has been a crappy year for us I don't talk much about it..but it has....Thanksgiving my friend brought us a turkey Why because we couldn't afford one... Somehow the economic crap ..me not getting a lot of jobs.because people aren't going to the dentist they can't afford it so there aren't many jobs for me to temp at.and things just going up and up has push us to a bad place...
We keep scratching our heads and doing our financials and cutting more and more...and somehow...it never ads up...
what is frustrating to me is we are middle class...I have too much pride to go to the help places because hell I have a nice house and drive a nice car and I was raise you don't ask for help unless your poverty stricken...Does that make sense.??..I don't feel good asking for help when there are others who are homeless or don't have a car...Damn its embarrassing...to say the least..
I looked at my husband and said OMG 50 dollars to last 2 weeks...Is this right... I feel bad because I did finally break down and get my hair done it had been months even my kids were remarking about my hair lol...it was a busy month..My daughter in law b-day her graduation and my son b-day and now xmas... I took my son and daughter in law out to eat for there birthdays and now I feel guilty...I didn't get my daughter in law anything for her graduation..Now Christmas...My husband and I never get each other anything...I told the kids you get one thing and it has to be under 50 dollars...although U don't really know where that is going to come from..
I do have a couple of jobs coming up but they won't pay until later...
I told me husband maybe we should let my car go back and I could just take jobs in town and walk to them .... I hate this feeling..

I am not writing this for pity... I guess I am in shock that this isn't getting any better... I think we were always just above the line and now we are below with everything that is happening in the world....
I feel so defeated... Part of me wants to walk away from the house and the car...those are our 2 money suckers...
I will shut up.. I just needed to feel sad about it.....I know God will help us make it through and I know there are people that are way worse than us...

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I'm sorry that I have neglected you guys. I have been so addicted to facebook...I have connected with old high school buddies and friends. You should try it ....It has mainley us oldies on it because it is basic nothing fancy.
Well my sister had told the family that I am the cause of her new marriage ending.. I am amazing like that you know I can break up marriages with out even being aware...(wink)
She always blames me for eveything.. I had no idea her marriage was over but not really surprized..she is so addicted to her Pain pills and pain patch and whatever else it has destroyed her mind...Makes me sad..She is not my sister anymore and hasn't been for several years..
Her husband said my sister said she wishes someone would kill me and I would die...
Pretty strong words if you ask me... Her husband says there is something wrong with her she is sick.mentally..I agree she is and has been for many years...
I guess I always felt badly and thought I could help but I don't now and haven't felt that way in a long time...
I know christmas is coming up and my mom will try and guilty me into letting my sister come over its not happening... I'm not going to do it.. My mom can go over to her house but I'm not being around someone that crazy...
I have been working cleaning teeth...I work for a temp agency....I have worked in some nice offices and some really crappy offices....
well it been so cold here..brrr I hate cold weather...I could live on a tropical island forever....
Have a good holiday

I think Denny Duquette on Greys Anatomy is so sexy...I tell you there is something about him..
So anyway I have been busy working and talking to old classmates from high school...My 30Th High school reunion is coming up next year.. I have been touching base with several people.. It's nice and refreshing to talk to them...In each other memory we are still young.. funny when I see pictures of them I forget that they also have aged like me..
Hope you all are doing ok..Christmas is almost here.. I broke the news to Zack that there is no Santa.. he is 11 its time to move on lol lol
He said he already knew he was afraid to tell me because he thought he wouldn't get anymore presents...funny kid :-)