Hello all Today Cameron is having a rock 80's concert tonight.. can you believe he will be 15 on May 26...where does the time go.I wil start at TWU the first week in June.. NOt sure were I'm going to get the money to pay for it but I know God will provide as long as I follow the path he has put before me...I gave up my car last week we couldnt afford it and it was eating our lunch.. It was the house or the car.. so of course the car...
I have been involved in a neat church close to my house..it has made a big difference in my life.
I will be 48 this summer opps I mean 49....ekkk I am close to 50... senior citizins center hear I come... lol
does anybody know if we had a AOl private journal did they transfer them over as well when we transfered over to blogger...
Bye for now

AVON

AVON

So I have decided to start blogging on my blog again..I miss everybody...hope you all are on face book...I know alot of your are..so much has happened in my life lately that I will have to do several entries to talk about it all..
I recently went through a class called discovery-training.com and it literaly changed my life. I recommend it for anybody.
Next week I will be going to the head of Social Work At Texas Woman's University because I am finishing my bachelor's in social work and getting a masters in social work counseling
I am very excited about it...
Well its Sunday and I must get things done....
love and laughter to you all
Donna

rain rain go away

Me in High School

Kind of got the blues today.. Don't know what is up with me. maybe the fact that my hubby is working 10 hours day 7 days a week for over a month and it is getting old. I'm two years away from 50. the rain that just wont go away. frustrating. Cameron was suppose to have a choir concert last night but he didn't pass English so he wasn't allowed to sing. He did go up and help them set up without me asking him.. There was some lady there that was apain in the ass..she needing to be slapped..Cameron was telling me about her I told him people like that have issues. you just have to walk away and not speak or tell them what you think... Either way..she has issues and to not take it personnel..he laughed.. I told him the pains in the ass in high school grown up to be pains in the asses as adults...


He thought that was funny.. I took a long term job at a pedo Dr office one and half days a weeks. It's a nice office and I get to work with kids...Although I have to say some of them kids need there butts whooped...spoilt rotten and disrespectful...


It is 2 weeks away from my reunion I have been scanning pic from the yearbook so there is my pic above I don't know how to make it show up down here.
Well I better go and start my chicken and dumplings for my hubby... he has been working all day in the rain
Love to you all
Donna

a few weeks until

Hello all..
Don't faint I am actually writing in my journal . It is a few weeks until my 30th high school reunion.. I am really excited to reconnect with my buds...Life goes to fast and it will be nice to talk about old times and laugh.. You know the laugh the gut wrenching laugh...or belly laughs..
Cameron is in High school now a big 9th grader.. and Zachary is in 5th.. seems like yesterday they were so small when I started this journal of all there conversations..
Oh we still have conversation but its more of a yelling match of teenage attitudes..lol
My oldest son and his wife were in a car wreck ..t boned there car. Luckily it wasn't there fault however my son rotator cuff is bothering him so he is doing PT for it.
I am still doing Dental hygiene although I pretty sick of trying to find a permanent place of employment so I have been temping..
I have thought of going back to school and maybe doing nursing..counseling something more challenging and rewarding... well I know this is short but got to go to bed..
Hey how is Russ doing I check out his blog and he hasn't wrote in it since his dog passed away..
Hey Pauline love ya girl...

Hello all

I haven't been on here in so long....I don't know maybe my heart isn't in it anymore. The kids are growing and I originally started it to record all the cute conversation with them.. Cameron will be starting the 9th grade next year...along with his teenage attitude lol..Zach will be in the 5th grade...I have been working in Dental hygiene off and on but honestly if I never did it it wouldn't bother me. I love cleaning little kids teeth but not adults...
I have always wanted to be a counselor. but never did it I thought you had to be perfect to be a counselor...the other day I was texting my friend about her upcoming divorce and I said out loud my text to see how it sounded...My 11 year old said mama you would make a really good counselor...I really couldn't afford to go to school again...seems selfish...
I'm a caretaker always have been...
I am enjoying facebook alot I have connected with people and friends..and I really enjoy the social aspect of it...
I am hoping that ATT doesn't go on strike but it isn't looking good. The company always tries to take benefits away...we will see.
I feel badly that I haven't read you guys blogs lately ...Some on you guys I still stay in contact with because you have facebook accounts...
I am so ready for the summer...
love to you all
Donna

Geesh Sorry

I have neglected you guys for quite a while...I am been addicted to my Facebook.. Mainly because is connects me with my friends from high school.. I say that like I just graduated but it will but 30 years this year..

I meet up with about 3 of my band and choir friends from high school around new years eve..

I can't explain how much fun that was and how nourishing it was for my soul..

Here in DFW people do not know who to be good friends only fair weathered friends..

Your lucky if they pencil you in for a quick coffee..Kind of makes you feel disposable..

I will post the pictures of our meeting

Susan Ralph and ME

Carrie and me.... Not sure why this pic came out small oh well..

WE laughed so much ..

Carrie with her double knee surgery

Ralph with his reading glasses

Susan with the death of her hubby

We just looked at each and and said Damn are we getting old or what lol

Happy Holidays from us.. Aren't we cute..

Can you believe is 2009 almost

I hope each and every one of you had a good Christmas. We stayed at home and I had all three of my boys here plus Ashley my daughter in law... my sister in law Debbie and Robin came.My nephew Clayton was her also
It was a nice Christmas no drama as I am not communicating with my sister..still...my mom decided to stay at her house 2 and half hours away and not fight the traffic which I understand.
I made a turkey and all the trimmings...I ask the family not to give randy or I gifts just the kids.
I was afraid the kids would be disappointed with not much from us...but they were not..in fact my middle son Cameron slip a 20 dollar bill in my stocking and said you keep it and use it for bills.
I thought that was so sweet but I told him I had gotten a few more jobs so I didn't need it just yet so he could keep it.. He said ok mom but if you do just ask..
He is growing up so fast and I am proud of him more and more everyday.
We still haven't heard if anyone will retire to save my hubby from losing his job in February..so we will see..
I told him that as long as we were healthy and together God would provide...
It was 70 something degree here today which I loved very much...
Randy and I will be celebrating our 14 wedding anniversary on New years eve...
wow I can't believe it...
I told him I was going to have to trade him in on a newer model...Ok I was just kidding lol lol
I wouldn't want to have to train a new man...He He
well my blogger friends it nighty nite for me

So frustrated

This has been a crappy year for us I don't talk much about it..but it has....Thanksgiving my friend brought us a turkey Why because we couldn't afford one... Somehow the economic crap ..me not getting a lot of jobs.because people aren't going to the dentist they can't afford it so there aren't many jobs for me to temp at.and things just going up and up has push us to a bad place...
We keep scratching our heads and doing our financials and cutting more and more...and somehow...it never ads up...
what is frustrating to me is we are middle class...I have too much pride to go to the help places because hell I have a nice house and drive a nice car and I was raise you don't ask for help unless your poverty stricken...Does that make sense.??..I don't feel good asking for help when there are others who are homeless or don't have a car...Damn its embarrassing...to say the least..
I looked at my husband and said OMG 50 dollars to last 2 weeks...Is this right... I feel bad because I did finally break down and get my hair done it had been months even my kids were remarking about my hair lol...it was a busy month..My daughter in law b-day her graduation and my son b-day and now xmas... I took my son and daughter in law out to eat for there birthdays and now I feel guilty...I didn't get my daughter in law anything for her graduation..Now Christmas...My husband and I never get each other anything...I told the kids you get one thing and it has to be under 50 dollars...although U don't really know where that is going to come from..
I do have a couple of jobs coming up but they won't pay until later...
I told me husband maybe we should let my car go back and I could just take jobs in town and walk to them .... I hate this feeling..

I am not writing this for pity... I guess I am in shock that this isn't getting any better... I think we were always just above the line and now we are below with everything that is happening in the world....
I feel so defeated... Part of me wants to walk away from the house and the car...those are our 2 money suckers...
I will shut up.. I just needed to feel sad about it.....I know God will help us make it through and I know there are people that are way worse than us...

Facebook

I'm sorry that I have neglected you guys. I have been so addicted to facebook...I have connected with old high school buddies and friends. You should try it ....It has mainley us oldies on it because it is basic nothing fancy.
Well my sister had told the family that I am the cause of her new marriage ending.. I am amazing like that you know I can break up marriages with out even being aware...(wink)
She always blames me for eveything.. I had no idea her marriage was over but not really surprized..she is so addicted to her Pain pills and pain patch and whatever else it has destroyed her mind...Makes me sad..She is not my sister anymore and hasn't been for several years..
Her husband said my sister said she wishes someone would kill me and I would die...
Pretty strong words if you ask me... Her husband says there is something wrong with her she is sick.mentally..I agree she is and has been for many years...
I guess I always felt badly and thought I could help but I don't now and haven't felt that way in a long time...
I know christmas is coming up and my mom will try and guilty me into letting my sister come over its not happening... I'm not going to do it.. My mom can go over to her house but I'm not being around someone that crazy...
I have been working cleaning teeth...I work for a temp agency....I have worked in some nice offices and some really crappy offices....
well it been so cold here..brrr I hate cold weather...I could live on a tropical island forever....
Have a good holiday

I think Denny Duquette on Greys Anatomy is so sexy...I tell you there is something about him..
So anyway I have been busy working and talking to old classmates from high school...My 30Th High school reunion is coming up next year.. I have been touching base with several people.. It's nice and refreshing to talk to them...In each other memory we are still young.. funny when I see pictures of them I forget that they also have aged like me..
Hope you all are doing ok..Christmas is almost here.. I broke the news to Zack that there is no Santa.. he is 11 its time to move on lol lol
He said he already knew he was afraid to tell me because he thought he wouldn't get anymore presents...funny kid :-)

mom you know what

Cameron:MOM
Me: What
Cameron: You know what would be weird?
Me:What?
Cameron: If dad wasn't my dad
Me:( laughing) That would be funny since he is your dad
Me: Where do you come up with this..
Cameron: Well you could have somebody else's kid
Me: NO I couldn't I can't have any more kids...
Cameron: Oh that's right your old lol
Me: yep and your making me older ever day ...so get!!

who did you see?

So I have gotten to work for a couple of days I worked with a Kid Dentist...that helped...although I don't see myself doing Dental Hygiene forever... it takes a tole on your neck and back and wrists.. The office was a very nice office...great Dr and fun girls to work with.. I was filling in for a sick Hygienist...
Today is cloudy and dreary which I hate...
So guess who I met yesterday...and I must say I was very impressed with what a kind and sweet man he was ...also his wife...
I met Chuck Norris ..Yes the Chuck Norris I can't say what the circumstances were but met him I did and he was very gracious and kind so was his wife...My oldest son said why didn't you get an autograph ??Chuck Norris is the coolest guy ever!!! I laughed and said....I said I can't do that its unprofessional lol lol ....I'm not really a fan of his work because I really haven't seen his work just know him from Texas Walker..and that he is a big tai kwan do person.. I talked with him for a while and he was so nice I treated him like he was Joe blow down the street...I figured
they probably get people acting stupid all the time with them...They are no different then the rest of us..After meeting him I now am very interested in him as a person..and he does a lot for kids...
So the election is over an I am so glad...Got so sick of all the Ads and stuff..
I voted for McCain but he did not win...it will all work out in the long run Obama has got some big shoes to fill..alot of stress has just been added to his life....
I find it interesting to watch someone once they become president and the look at them 4 years later....It really ages them...So it will be interesting to see how he handles everything....
The president doesn't really have that much power anyway its the House and the Senate so will will see...
Hubby is off on Wednesday now and it is nice to have him all to myself...
Housework is waiting on my so I must go..
Have a nice cup of tea or coffee...

How close is homeless

They say being homeless is just a paycheck away...I guess that is true.. I went on this system called mint.com where you connect all your accounts and it gives you a read out of were your spending your money etc..
I have let my hubby take care of the bills for years... I did this because when we got married I had been a single mom for so long it was nice to hand it over...
I'm not saying its all my hubby fault I of course take much of the blame...
We just couldn't figure out why we kept coming up short...
After doing the program we are about 2000.00 short on income just to break even well probably not even. but close..
I'm so tired at my age...I have even thought of giving my car back cutting off the tv internet no more eating out...hell sell the house.... This sucks and it's our fault ...
Money is just basic math and why do we stick our heads in the sand and not face it...
Hubby is asleep and tomorrow I will sit him down and say you want the good news or the bad news first( there isn't any good news per say but it sound good huh lol)
We have got to cut back...I probably need to work more but even then we need to cut back..
you know we are really frugle people compared to most... its just everything has gone up and we need to manage better...
You don't think your spending a lot until it's there in front of you and its 5 dollars here 10 dollars there...
Does anybody know of a good bridge we could live under... not really but heck at least there is no house payment....ok just kidding sort of...

This and That

I got to work in my favorite office today so that was good...I also got gasoline for 2.17 a gallon
Took the kids to eat pizza tonight I was a lazy mom... oh well...
My sister did send me a text thanking me for being her sister and friend...
That is her way of apologizing...
Yes my family is strange...(sigh) I know...
Me personally I would rather talk it out.. Sometimes I think I'm adopotedlol

Wedding

I went to the wedding and it was really fun.. My sister had a melt down bawling her eyes out.. Yes I walked over and gave her a hug... It made me sad to see my sister in so much pain.. Doesn't mean I'm forgetting what has happen...but it was that gut wrenching cry...you know the one..
I sat at the table will all my family...
I really enjoyed Pedro family I tried to speak the best Spanish I could.. I suck but my step sister Kristy said I was so cute that I tried to communicate. I have always love getting to know other people from other countries...
It interesting because there is always some common themes in every culture..
To love and be love
To matter to somebody..
music and dancing
kissing and you know (wink)
food..
alcohol lol lol
an many more
We are more the same than different...
My oldest son requested the song we dance to at his wedding... called MaMa's song by Boy's to Men..
I just love dancing with my oldest son Landon... it doesn't happen often...
I just love my kids so much...I truly can say I would die for them...
Overall my sister Gerry's wedding was beautiful for her...
Her husband came up and said you happy for me...(remember his english isn't the best)
I hugged him and kissed his cheek and said I love you(I said in Spanish I can't type Spanish) Pedro your a keeper in this family..lol lol
There is still tension with my sister and once this blow over we probably wont talk much...
I'm glad I went.. though

Better

I had my cry and I feel better... sad but better. I have to realize that my sister will always be who she is and wish as I want I will always probably be a only child really .

She will never be there for me she will always be an angry hateful, vengeful person who spits hatefulness. She has been taking those pain pills for so long that there is no part of her left that I know...

I like her new husband to be but I figure he really doesn't know what he is getting into...

I'm tired of being assigned the peacekeeper in the family...

I quit I keep trying to believe in her but its not working for me anymore...emotionally I can not do it anymore...

I wish we could move away from her... We did once but she followed us...She has ruined all her kids but It will be a cold day in hell before she hurts my kids...I may be a caretaker at heart but when it comes to my kids...I will protect them with my life...

OK so tomorrow is the wedding and I do not want to go and I would not go but Pedro her fiance begged me to go for him...

So for Pedro I will because it would break his heart....

I did go over to her house after my last posting to meet Pedro's family in from Mexico..Very nice family. He ask me too so I did it for him

I tried to talk to my nephew and tell him I was sorry that I let my anger get the best of me but he was crossing the line and being cruel ..

He looks at me and says SO...

I said don't you think you should apologize for your behavior.. He rolls eyes and says NO with that look like.... what you going to do about it bitch...but this time I just walked away...

Yeah he did....did my sister do anything of course not..because she thinks its my fault

Hell would freeze over if she took responsibility

She wil regret this one day....

Its offically

So got in a argument at hobby lobby with my sister.. It takes a lot for me to lose my cool but I did. I'm not proud of it but I did...
My sister teenage son is very arrogant and disrespectful.. He was cruel and mean to my son and I don't tolerate that...I jumped on my nephew about it and my sister yells at me don't talk to my son like that.. yeah the son that knocks holes in your walls cusses at you throws thing at you...
I'll talk to the little Ass anyway I want because he will not be abusive to me or my children..

Why was my nephew mad and being hateful??...because he wanted us to take him to eat and we had wedding stuff to you so since this 15 year old didn't get his way well then he thought he would be mean and cruel to my sister and me and my mom and my son..
What makes me mad about this is that I always have to defend myself and everyone just stand there and stares nobody comes to my aid ...they attack me for even rocking the boat..
Dysfunctional Assholes...
Yeah I'm pissed....more than you can every know.. Too much history here..
If I never saw then again it wouldn't bother me at this point.. after 47 years of this crap... I am done

Its offically