Lost loves

My mother comes into my room tonight tells me she has something funny to tell me...Long story short she mentions my old high school sweetheart

Yes hummmm Paul Borgfeld.........or Now DR Paul Borgfeld......

AAGGHH first loves......makes your heart flutter just to think:

The way I loved holding his hand walking to class

kissing him in the halls....sitting by him in his car..

the smell of his colonge..warmth of his breath

all the dreams we had......kinda of brings a tear to my eye thinking about it

 

I wander sometimes.... dear paul of mine...Do you ever think of me??.....do you wonder how my life turned out??    If I'm happy........If I loved again??Do you ever want to just pick up the phone to here that voice from the distance past and remember??? Yes paul I loved you ....with a love that only a person can have for a first love 

I hope your life was everthing you wanted...I hope you loved again and somewhere deep in my heart... I guess I would hope.... for a small moment if by chance someone mention the name Donna Ray your heart would go back............to the good times..........to the high school dreams..and you would smile....a warm smile of contentment .... just remembering.

Maybe things didnt end the way you or I wanted but end they did.

Paul  you were my first love and first kiss....special times

.....but even though its been  23 years if someone mentions your name by chance.....

I smile.... close my eyes and   ...remember