Sunday, May 15, 2005

extreme makeover

SO I sit down to watch extreme home makeover its about a man with 3 kids whose wife died of cancer...

I didnt really think anything about it just watching....

so they are talking about the woman<age 28> ok ok...

I just tuned out...

so ty talks about ann marie<the woman who died> about her best friend having something to show him...

Still I'm not really tune in just surfing the internet and watching...

ty puts in a video the best friend had from her recent wedding...

so its... start and you see her so beautiful with no hair and a bandana on her head...

still not bothering me much...

then I look up ann marie is smiling so big ..I think what a beautiful woman  and she hugs her friend who is getting married you see the sadness in her eyes she knew she was dieing and was hugging her freind so tightly with that look....

That look I started bawling...that look I remember that look....

my really close friend cecy died of cancer at 32

2 years ago last month

if you want to read my entry about her go here

http://journals.aol.com/lacaza3/sweepingthecobwebsofmymind/entries/550

then here

http://journals.aol.com/lacaza3/sweepingthecobwebsofmymind/entries/553

anyway about the look

when cecy came home to die she scoop up her then 8 month old child...  I watched her....she said I will miss you my gavin please know how much I love you...

then came the look....the desperate look of knowing its coming..

I wept as I watch her hug her son like she would never hug him again....

she died 24 hours later...

I miss her still..

I love you  my cecy.....

I know you are watching over me

Donna

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

omg how terribly sad....my aunt has breast cancer =(
I needed a good cry...sometimes i just hold all my feelings inside
and a good cry helps...28 and 32...way to young to die...i guess God needed some wonderful angels....i gotta go now... Hugss ~Terri~
P.S. Keep the faith and know she IS watching over you Donna....

Anonymous said...

                   ::Sniff Sniff::
I'm seriously sitting here with tears in my eyes...
I DVR'd Extreme Makeover tonight (can't miss Contender
and Survior Finale) so, now I know I'll need some klenex
when I watch it... I'm sorry you miss your friend so much.  
I'm sure I'd miss my best friend if she were gone too!  
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings on this...
                    ((((HUGS))))
                     ~Jennifer~

Anonymous said...

Awww man, I just FINISHED crying and now I am again!!  I watched the same show as you did and sobbed and sobbed!!  I am sorry that you lost your friend at such a young age.  But, like you said, I am sure she is watching over you and her family.
Hugs and love,
Lisa

Anonymous said...

Yes you have an Angel watchin over you now and her family   they really never leave us, just their bodies   thank you for sharing this...god bless!~kbear

Anonymous said...

My heart aches for your loss. Sincerly, Brandie

Anonymous said...

Nice to be back and able to read your journal again!(even if it is a sad entry)

Anonymous said...

So sorry you lossed your friend like that. I watched it also, since it was filmed here on Long Island (where I live) It hit close to home. Since I've heard the story before.  I cried for the whole 2 hours.
Ellen
http://journals.aol.com/eml625/Onedayatatime

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. I too saw that show and boy did I cry my heart out. *Louise*

Anonymous said...

It must be hard to know you are going, and I know it is hard to know that someone is going.  And it is hard letting go once they have gone.  And very odd and funny the things that can make it all come rushing back long after they left. - Barbara      

Anonymous said...

How beautifully bittersweet.  Thank you.

Ana

Anonymous said...

I remember back within your first few entries telling the story of your friend.  It's so sad to think about but I do believe she's looking down on you too.:)
Steph

Anonymous said...

It is so sad to lose someone and to watch them slipping away....and especially when they are so young.  Beautiful entry.  
Thanks
Michele
http://journals.aol.com/samnsmile5/lettingitallsinkin