Today is our 12th anniversary...Wow can't believe it.
Hubby: Happy 12 anniversary honey
Me: <laughs> will there be a 13th?
Hubby: I don't know 13 is an unlucky number
Me: Oh really?
Hubby: Yeah lets just skip and go right to the next year
Me: ok LOL LOL
Well we finally did it we swtich to high speed internet I feel like I have gone to heaven.
Its called roadrunner I haven't figured out how to get to my e-mail with this carrier but I still have aol so...
The dial up had been so bad this last year that I haven't even been on line much it would take me 30 mintues to log on and then it would freeze...
I hope to never experince dial up again.
I will now get the joy of seeing your videos and hearing your music etc...
I took over taking care of a patient for another sitter debby and we both got this e-mail form her...
So nice I have never had a patient say thank you.. most just take us for granted...
I got up the other night to let the dog out to pee...
I guess it was about 2 am or so...
I pretty much have my house memorized so I don't even have to open my eyes much...
Well my husband decided to close our bedroom door part way after I went to sleep
YOu guessed it I hit it hard with my FACE...Damn it hurt...
It hit on my brow bone between my eye and nose...one more inch and I swear I would of broke my nose I hit it that hard...
I yelled a few cuss words and went back to sleep
When I woke up the next morning I thought why does my head hurt and then I remembered...
I told hubby don't ever do that again I just about knock myself unconscious
Zach: This is the most boring birthday ever
Me: what do you mean
zach: I didn't have a party.
Me I told you that you could have one later when school starts back up
and hey you got 65 dollars...you have more money than me.
Zach: Well thats not a present ...
me : It will be when you buy a toy with the money
Zach: oh
Me: Go get into the bath!!!!!
Zach: I can't I'm suvivor man
Me: what does that mean???
Zach: suvivor man doesn't take bath he is in the wild
Me: Yes he takes baths in the river
Zach:: I don't have a river
Me: Pretend the bathtub is a river...
Zach: humpf!!!!< walks off with army hat, sword in back of shirt and back pack on his back..
ME:<thinking> I will never survive this age....
Happy Birthday Zachary
My sweet 9 year old
So all this week Zachary has reminded me its his birthday this Saturday over and over and over...Like I could ever forget giving birth to a 9lbs 3 oz without yes I said WITHOUT pain medication...
I thought I would die before they got that kiddo out..lol
Conversation with Zach
Me: This time 9 years ago momma wasn't feeling very good
Zach: Why?
Me: Well I was big and pregnant with you and you were kicking to come out..
Zach: it hurts to have kids ?
Me: Yes it is very painful but very worth it
Zach: <walks away> Sure glad I'm not a girl
My husband and I bust out laughing.......
Have you ever felt the whole world was againist you...
I feel like I have a sign on my back that says...make it hardest on Donna...
Aghh!!
All I want is help to pass the state boards of Dental Hygiene....I keep hitting walls....
Zach: mom what does right handed mean?
Me: its mean someone uses there right hand to write with
Zach: what if they can use there right and left hand?
Me: it mean they are ambidextrous....
Zach: what
Me:It means they can use both hands to write with
Zach: NO it mean they can use two pencils..
Me: LOL ok Zachary whatever....
The doctor told her of a new procedure called "The Knob." This small knob is implanted on the back of a woman's head and can be turned to tighten up the skin to produce the effect of a brand new facelift forever.
Of course, the woman wanted "The Knob."
Fifteen years later the woman went back to the surgeon for a consultation.
"All these years everything had been working just fine. I've had to turn the knob on lots of occasions and I've loved the results. But now I've developed two annoying problems. First of all, I've got these terrible bags under my eyes and the knob won't get rid of them."
The doctor looked at her and said, "Those aren't bags, those are your breasts."
Then she replied, "Well, I guess that explains the goatee!"
This was read at our meeting I go to that moms of all ages meet and fellowship
Thought I would share
Meaning of Flag Draped Coffin
Here is how to understand the flag that lay upon it and is surrendered to so many widows and widowers.
Do you know that at military funerals, the 21-gun salute stands for the sum of the numbers in the year 1776?
Have you ever noticed the honor guard pays meticulous attention to correctly folding the United States of America Flag 13 times? You probably thought it was to symbolize the original 13 colonies, but we learn something new every day!
1. The 1st fold of the flag is a symbol of life.
2. The 2nd fold is a symbol of the belief in eternal life.
3. The 3rd fold is made in honor and remembrance of the veterans departing the ranks who gave a portion of their lives for the defense of the country to attain peace throughout the world.
4. The 4th fold represents the weaker nature, for as American citizens trusting in God, it is to Him we turn in times of peace as well as in time of war for His divine guidance.
5. The 5th fold is a tribute to the country, for in the words of Stephen Decatur, "Our Country, in dealing with other countries, may she always be right; but it is still our country, right or wrong."
6. The 6th fold is for where people's hearts lie. It is with their heart that they pledge allegiance to the flag of the United! States of America and the Republic for which it stands, one Nation under God, indivisible, with Liberty and Justice for all.
7. The 7th fold is a tribute to its Armed Forces, for it is through the Armed Forces that they protect their country and their flag against all her enemies, whether they are found within or without the boundaries of their republic.
8. The 8th fold is a tribute to the one who entered into the valley of the shadow of death, that we might see the light of day.
9. The 9th fold is a tribute to womanhood, and Mothers. For it has been through their faith, their love, loyalty and devotion that the character of the men and women who have made this country great has been molded.
10. The 10th fold is a tribute to the father, for he, too, has given his sons and daughters for the defense of their country since they were first born.
11. The 11th fold represents the lower portion of the seal of King David and King Solomon and glorifies in the Hebrews eyes, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.
12. The 12th fold represents an emblem of eternity and glorifies, in the Christians eyes, God the Father, the Son and Holy Spirit.
13. The 13th fold, or when the flag is completely folded, the stars are uppermost reminding them of their nation’s motto, "In God We Trust."
After the flag is completely folded and tucked in, it takes on the appearance of a cocked hat, ever reminding us of the soldiers who served under General George Washington, and the Sailors and Marines who served under Captain John Paul Jones, who were followed by their comrades and shipmates in the Armed Forces of the United States, preserving for them the rights, privileges and freedoms they enjoy today.
There are some traditions and ways of doing things that have deep meaning. In the future, you'll see flags folded and now you will know why.
Share this with the children you love and all others who love what is referred to, the symbol of "Liberty and Freedom."
It was around 1986. I had decided I would move to Fort Worth for a sales job with the phone company. ..I moved all by myself found a apartment...It was a terrible job I hated it. I was away from friends and family. I was always independent and stubborn which was not always a good thing
The job was so bad and stressful that...
I used to dream I was selling call waiting and no one would order it..I would wake up in a sweat because my job depended on sales...I would be gasping for air and realize it was a dream...well sort of...The job was very hard...needless to say I said stress out all the time.
My oldest son Landon <picture above>was about 5 years old.. He loved to play at the play ground at our apartment...
One day he walked in crying... I said what is wrong baby...He said a rock fell in my ear..I laughed and said honey a rock would be too big to be in your ear..
He said momma really it did...So I looked in his ear and of course nothing was in there and I gave him a hug and shooed him away..
Every now and then he would complain I would look nothing.. I thought that maybe I wasn't giving him enough attention or something since I had been stressed out...
About a month later guess what fell out of his ear
Your right a tiny rock like they have on the playgrounds..
He said see momma you didn't believe me... I said I'm sorry baby how in the heck did the rock fall just right to hit your ear...
he said he was laying on the ground and a girl walk over him at the playground and a rock landed just right...
I felt badly because I never could see anything...
Nothing was damaged...I felt like a heel though
So sorry I have been out of touch. I spent this last week staying with a patient for 72 hours...
It put me behind on sleep,family time and of course household chores...
Just wanted to say when I catch up I will visit journals and talk
Hugs and prayers to everyone
This is what happens when I forget to put my chichuahua in her cage while I am out doing errands..
BAD DOG!!!
She knows it to When I walked into the house she ran into her cage like she was in there all along..like I'm not going to know she got out HA!
This hallway had nothing on the floor it was clear of anything. Everything you see she found and pulled out...
Our sheltie never does stuff like this and never has...
The other animals look at her like she is a big dummie lol
So pretty ....not a bad price...10 acres would be enough to keep bad neighbors away lol kids could run wild..... sigh.....someday |
Landon<24>: Mom will you go out dancing with me tonight
Me: <snickers> Honey why would you want your old momma to go out with you?
Landon: I just do I'm meeting my bosses at Rodeo Roundup.
Me: Get Randy <my hubby>to go with you...It would probably be more fun
Landon: I asked him but he is too tired..
Me: Oh alright
< I put on a pair of jeans fixed my hair and put on makeup and we drove to the Bar>
We park and get out....I suddenly am taken back to my youth when I used to go dancing...I feel a little spring in my step
Landon: Wow mom you look really Young tonight...
Me: <laughing> Well I wasn't always old and boring. I did kick up my heels in my day..
We go in I met his friends... They remark on how cool that Landons mom came to dance with him..
I thinking wow I'm cool and didnt even try lol
A few times throughout the night my son would hug me and say "mom thanks so much for coming with me...
I could feel the love in his hugs....My heart melted...I haven't gotten hugs like that since he was a kid.
When the bar closed I agree to go to the after party with everybody...
Once again they were shocked and amazed...lol
One girl drank to much and started to get sick...they look at me like I was going to freak I didn't flench I just walk into the kitchen and got the girl a paper towel...
We got home at 4:30 am...It's been ages since I stayed up that late..
Fast forward a few days and Landon calls me...
Landon: Hey mom you were a big hit with my friends they said you rocked..
Me:<Laughes> I didn't do anything but chat with your friends and dance...nothing spectacular...
Landon: They said for me to ask you if you would go out with all of us again in the future...
Me: Well ok I might....but I can't do the 4:30 AM thing again...
Landon: OK...
Never thought I would be hip at 45.....Just goes to show you that you never know where your life path leads with you kids as they grow up...lol lol lol
Telephone rings
Me: Hello
Womans voice: Hello may I speak to Donna
Me: Yes this is her
Woman's voice: This is Womans Diagnositic
Me: Ok <I was thinking ok there are calling to tell me hey your fine see you in a year>
Woman's voice: The Dr wanted me to call you and tell you that we need you to come in. We compared your last years mamogram to last weeks and the Dr see's some hummm shuffles paper..Change..
Me: What kind of change...< trying to remain calm and not stress out over nothgin>
Woman" Voice: The Dr wants to us to take another picture of your breast magnigfied...She see's something different a calification and wants to make sure its nothing...this isn't an emergerncy we just need you to come in when the Dr is here so she can read it right then and tell you the results right away..
Me: Ok when do you want me to come in
Womans voice: I can get you on tuesday 9:00
Me:Sound good see you then..
I hang up the phone and think CRAP!!!! What if I'm dead by this time next year....Then I think oh Donna quit being stupid your fine.. I took a deep breath and told myself not to worry...
So there you have it...creeps me out because I tend to be sensitive to these types of things since my close friend died of breast cancer3 years ago and I went through it with her...
So any prayers that this is nothing is appreicated..
Thanks
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seems like a innocent number 1.58 lbs...that is how much I have gained per month..
Doesn't seem like much but when you do the math..
in a year12 months I have gained 19lbs...I haven't weighed this much in 6 years....
I'm so pissed at myself..
Gastric bipass starves you the first 2 years and then your stomach stretches and you can eat more....
what does your body do....it latches on because you have starved it for 2 years...I did ok for 5 of those years but this year I have sucked really bad...
Now that I can eat more I have more options ...I don't want options....
Disgusted with myself...<shaked head and walks away>
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So it is that time...Zachary's cub scouts are selling live fir wreaths for the x-mas time...So I thought I would put the information out there and if your interested let me know.. I know it has to be prepaid probably because the wreaths are real not fake... So if your interested just e-mail me below are the links to see the wreaths prices and such...
ANNUAL WREATH SALE FUNDRAISER Its time for our 2006 annual Wreath Sale and this year our goal is to sell $16,000 worth of Holiday evergreens! This is our primary means for raising funds to cover the expenses of the Pack (registration, awards, badges, etc…).
Brochures: | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
Not much going on today...just broke ...we haven't been this broke in a long time..
I hate this feeling...
my mom came down this weekend I took her to get her haircut..
My sister isnt speaking to us right now...but that is not always a bad thing:-)
my sister screw up with her money and expects my mom to bail her out....
Thing is my sister makes way more money than my mom.....I don't agree with mom helping her out....My sister is 42 years old time to grow up...I feel...
Mom doesn't want to help her out but my sister she know how to work my mom...
So I talked to mom and say if you want to help her out go ahead it's your money
See the thing is my sister makes the same mistakes over and over and over and never learns......but then why should she learn when my mom bails her out...
She has burned my mom so many times... I really don't get her..
It's not that I don't love her I do but I don't think she is fair to mom.....
Of course my mom told her no so my sister calls me and sayd she F*** hates me and its all my F****** fault that mom didnt give her the money...oh I forgot and she F******* never wants to see me every again...
Ok whatever......I wish I had a dollar for everytime she said this to me....
She never makes good on her threat....damn it....
Basically I wish she would grow up and be a good sister... but she wont
I get sick of it...We struggle but we don't ask anybody for help we just suffer through like most adults...
I have to visit a boy scouts troop today at 3:00 to see if cameron likes it enough to join..
Next weekend we have a camp out with zachary's cubscout ....Not looking forward to peeing in the weeds...---------
I'm not much on football. I had a boyfriend once in high school who adored it so I would sit with him and watch but it really bored me to death...
The ironic thing was in high school I was in band and we had to be at football games.. I never watched just talked to my neighbor checked out the cute guys and played my flute when told to...
So of course here we have the Dallas Cowboys... whoopee do I could care less I think athletics are over paid.. Pay them minimum wage is my vote.. So what they can catch a football .. I basically feel this way with all sports... although some take a lot more talent then catching a ball...
I am sick to death of hearing about the T K Owens...Send him back to where he came from... The news said he tried to kill himself today and he said no I didn't..'Personally I don't care about the argument all I know is every since they put him on the team its been nothing but drama....I;m sure the media is to blame also...
Basically I'm sick of it...I can't turn on even the news and its 30 minutes of T K owens...
Stop already... We don't care...
People are dieing starving and many other things that should concern us... Not some overpaid whinny ass football player who wants attention...
my son came home friday and said..
Cameron: they came on the loud speaker at school and said a girl died that went to our school.. she was in the 7th grade
Me: oh honey that is sad did you know her?
Cameron: No I didnt she went to a different elementary school.
Me: I wonder how she died?.
Cameron: Well someone told me she killed herself.
Me: WHAT!!!! she is only in the 7th grade...
Me: that is so sad maybe that didnt really happen maybe it was something else...
Then I got this e-mail:from a moms group I belong to...it was forwarded to me
Carol,
I am sure most everyone has received the email from the church in regards to Emily McBride. However, it may not have been received if you do not have a child in junior or senior high ministries. Emily committed suicide sometime on Thursday. I do not have the specifics as of yet. I was out of town today and found out from my son who is in 7th grade with her. Emily's mom is a dear friend and client of mine who attended M2M just last Friday (Encouragement Friday). She sat at the pink table and was looking forward to being a part of M2M. Her mom is Tammy Sterling and her step dad is Sam Sterling. They moved here a couple of years ago and have been actively involved in the church since that time. Please be praying for Tammy and her family. Emily has a younger sister still in elementary. As a sixth grader, I too lost a sibling. It was not under these tragic conditions, but I know the grief and loss all too well that her sister is feeling. I cannot imagine what her parents are going through.
Please pass along to our M2M sisters so that we may all lift the family up in prayer. When I know more details I will pass them along, or if you should find outmore please share.
In Christ's love,
Bridget
SHe was in the 7th grade what could this poor girl have been so sad about that she wanted to end her life....So sad......Just breaks my heart...
Today I went by a friend of mines house her name is D < abbreviated> I walked into her house and see her sitting in the closet....
Me: Hey what cha doing?
D:<with a look of frustration> sitting down here in the bathroom closet trying to calm down because the shower I'm repairing isnt cooperating and I want to cuss and scream but the kids are around.
Me: I laugh
We start talking about my 11 year old Cameron...about his adhd and his funny sense of humor and how he can make all kinds voices....
Me: cameron has this keen way of mimicing any dialect he hears or a persons voice.. All he has to do is hear a few words and he can start talking like that person...the other day my husband and I heard this voice like a person singing opera comging from the bathroom my husband said what is that bathroom opera ..we laughed and said that's our cameron.....
D: thats too funny, ..........I only knew one guy that could do that
Me: Really he was funny
D: Yeah I went to school with him you know back in Terrel Texas where I was raise you remember
Me: Oh yeah I remember that where your parents still live and a lot of your family
D: Yeah <she laughes >..he was funny and could imitate all kind of voices we used to laugh at him all the time..
Me: Really who was he...
D :<She thinks> His name has changed its now hummm..... oh yeah.... Jamie Foxx
Me: THE jamie Foxx...< I say with a shocked face>
D : Yeah except I know him as Eric
Me: <with a shocked look> Did you know him... know him??
D : Yeah <she says like no big deal> he was a year under me but he hung out with me and my boyfriend and friends at the time they all played football together.
D : She laughes and says he wasnt really a very good football player....but he was a funny guy so I guess that worked out for him...
She says all this like its no big deal..
I have this shocked look on my face.. I have known this friend for serveral years and she has never mention this fact..
D: I think he still stays in touch with one of our mutual freinds which she mentions by name but I can't think of it right now...
Me: I guess you guys can keep him grounded because you knew him when he was a nobody...
D:Yeah..He acts different now than when I went to school with him. but your right I knew him when he was a big fat nobody like us She laughes....
This just prove you never know who your friends know...
Ya just never know.....
I love this new artist I wish I knewhow to put the music with these lyrics...but I don't..this song reminds me of my life
Here is her website
http://www.virginrecords.com/kttunstall/
KT TUNSTALL LYRICS
"Heal Over"
It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime
Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday
And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady
Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard
Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over, heal over, heal over someday
So I spent several hours helping Cameron with his overdue research on Micro biologist... Yes I did alot of the work I didn't want to be sitting there all freaking day.. I made him sit right by me and offer ideas etc...
I signed up Zachary to cub scouts and decided to be a volunteer.
So I get this e-mail that 'I'm the leader I thought WTH...I never said I wanted to be leader...
I'm supposed to meet them at star bucks and we will see...
I'm excited about scouts that the kids learn all kinds of stuff about survival, kindness and giving back to the community. They will learn about others besides there own wants and needs should be cool I hope... I never was a girl scout so I can't say
My hubby told me he ran me some bath water.. I said good now that I have finished my homework<Cameron Research bag> hope I get an A... WE laughed....
I said gee I wish all I had to worry about it homework...and being sent to my room...
Please Daddy send me to my room.
He laughs....and says yeah I will send you to your room....<evil laugh>
I said nope get your mind out of the gutter.....lol lol
I made smothered pork chops tonight...
My kids acted like I was trying to feed them poison...
Lost my cool...
tired of the kids thinking I run a restaurant...
They took a bite and gagged...
I made them empty the dishwasher...or eat the food..
Guess what they decided to do...
yep they emptied the dishwasher..
Life a bitch then you have to eat pork chops
SIGHHHH
Wish my life was so hard....
Conversations at the dinner table
Me: Guys come and eat!!!.
Zach sits down and asks....What is this?
Me: Its hamburger meat and potatoes..
Zach: Oh < and begins to chow down>
Cameron: Yeah it's really good especially the beans..
Zach: <stops eating and spits his food out> BEANS yuck I hate beans
Me<giving Cameron the eye because he opened his big mouth>
Cameron<realizing what he did he tries to salvage the situation> Well Zachary if you were stranded in Antarctica and had no food you would eat it
Zach: NOO!!
Cameron: then you would starve!!
Zach: NO!! I would eat the Snow!!
Cameron: Zachary<he says matter of factley> Penguins pee on that snow...and shakes his head in disbelief..
Me: Laughing...and shacks head...
Where do they get this stuff
So I called Lisa a journal friend I read that is having surgery on her brain.
I left her message on her answering machine...
She has never heard my voice before
she left me a e-mail saying
I woke up to your voice on the machine.
Wow you don't sound like your from TEXAS
and you sound much younger...
Ok LISA THanks I guess :0)
I acutally don't have much of a texas twang probably due to being in a call center for 16 years and talking to people all over the world..
However get me excited about something and it can slip out a little...
Talk to yall later.....<smirk>
So I was very good this week I walked 3 and 1/2 miles for 4 days this week...
Yea! me
My feet have blisters...Note to self get better walking shoes...
Conversations with cameron
We went to the middle school to met Camerons teachers...we got into his social studies class and teacher said cameron has been having problems paying attention..
we walk into the class and we have this conversation..
Cameron: mom mom come over here and see where I sit at..
Me: yeah that is a cool seat who sits beside you?
cameron :<blushes> and says Michaela sits one seat away
<Michaela is the girl he has a crush on>
Me: hum cameron is that a good idea..... I want you to be able to pay attention and she might distract you..
Cameron: Naugh she doesnt distract me anymore mom
Me: why is that?
Cameron: I just want to be her friend now
Me: really what happen to make you change you mind?
Cameron: I got tired of chasing her
Me: I laughed...
Cameron: I didnt want to chase her like you chase daddy
Me: I'm going to have to talk to your dad and those stories he tells you LOL
I GOT THIS FROM MY DENTAL HYGIENE YAHOO MESSAGE BOARD
It has long been contended that there are male jokes and there are female jokes.
And
there are unisex jokes. Here is a joke that is considered a true female joke.
I offer it to
you in the hopes that women will love it and men will pass it along to a woman
who will
love it.
A woman was sitting at a bar enjoying an after work cocktail with her
girlfriends when
an exceptionally tall, handsome, extremely sexy middle-aged man entered. He was
so
striking that the woman could not take her eyes off him. The man noticed her
overly
attentive stare and walked directly toward her (as men will).
Before she could offer her apologies for so rudely staring, he leaned over
and whispered
to her, "I'll do anything, absolutely anything, that you want me to do, no
matter how
kinky, for $20.00...... on one condition....." Flabbergasted, the woman
asked what the
condition was. The man replied, "You have to tell me what you want me to do in
just three
words." The woman considered his proposition for a moment, and then slowly
removed a
$20 bill from her purse, which she pressed into the man's hand along with her
address.
She looked deeply into his eyes, and slowly and meaningfully said....
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"Clean my house."
Snagged this from
FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE:
1. Waitress
2. Hooker <just seeing if your really reading this lol>
3. Telephone Operator
4. Mommie..The job that just keeps on giving even if you dont want it to<smile>
FOUR MOVIES I WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER:
1. I'm not a big movie buff and usually don't watch them over once I see them....
2.
3.
FOUR PLACES THAT I HAVE LIVED:
1. Frisco, Texas
2. Hobbs, New Mexico
3. Wichita Falls ,Texas
4. Grapevine, Texas
FOUR TV SHOWS THAT I LOVE TO WATCH:
1. Starting Over
2. Desperate Housewives
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. Intervention
FOUR PLACES I HAVE BEEN ON VACATION:
1. Michigan
2. Mackenaw Island
3. San Antonio, Texas
4. MountRushmore
FOUR WEBSITES I VISIT DAILY:
1. My Space.com
2. Aol Journals
3. Dental Hygiene Sites
4. Various news stations sites
FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:
1. Hot and Sour soup
2. Snow Crab Legs
3. Shrimp
4. Potatoes....
FOUR PLACES I WOULD LIKE TO BE RIGHT NOW:
1. On a tropical island getting a great massage
2. Asleep in my bed
3. Living in a town I actually enjoyed and felt like I fit
4. Standing at the Lottery office collecting my winnings...LOL
SOOOO>>>>
lately when age has come up I have admitted to being 45..I'm really not 45 until the 29 but hell why not say it now get used to it...Its coming anyway...
This morning my 8 year old Zach came into my bed to snuggle..He said momma your so beautiful.. Such a little sly one he is...
He then asks me to get up and get him some cereal at which I remark well if you want me to get you cereal then you have to wait 30 minutes it not my getting up time...If you want it now then you have to get it yourself...He giggled and complained and left....
I got up later and he had indeed poured his own cereal...I smiled to myself...he can be amazingly independent when the need arises...LOL..
I was thinking today about back when I was 25...Where did all my energy go to.???..
I remember going dancing with friends , partying so excited about life and what my life was to become...
Now I'm happy to get out of bed without a ache or pain...
Life has a way of slapping you in the face just to say...yeah your in my control and what ya going to do about it....huh....
Guess I will go put some clothes on this fluffy 45 year old body and sashay out the door....
I'll go sit at the mall and watch the people walk by .....I will laugh as the young ones walk by because they will look at me and think....Why in the world would that woman want to just sit there and watch people walk by how lame...
Then I will want to yell at them...HEY I was you once and you will be me someday so I'm just keeping the seat warm for ya!!
PEACE OUT and all that jazz the young whippersnappers say...
Dang I dread the first day of school...All the forms they make us fill out....
I feel like they punish me...ugh!!
Cameron has 8 teachers.....Yes you read that right....How will I ever keep up!!!!
I tired after doing my homework <filling out the forms....!!!>>>
All in All kids like the first day....Cameron made it home on the bus all right..
I'm going to enjoy not having to take Cameron to school and fight all those moms that think they are the only ones driving.......
LOL LOL
Hear kids giggling in there bedrooms...See Daddy walking toward the room oh no I feel that they might be getting themselves into trouble LOL LOL
BOy it sure is quite here since the kids went to school today....I'm bored..
I miss them..... even the fighting lol
Sigh.......I will adjust..<smile>
Stopped into Chick fil A to kill some time and feed the kiddos...
The food arrives and kids sit down to eat about 15 minutes later
Zach: momma can I go back to the playground and play..
Me: sure go ahead.
Zach:<turns to Cameron 11 year old> Cameron you have to go with me
Me: why does Cameron have to go with you?
Cameron: Because it says Play with adult supervision only..
Me: ok well how does that apply to you Cameron......your not an adult...
Cameron: Will I'm taller than than the height requirement line..
Me: <Laughing> Yes you are but being higher than a line doesn't make you an adult silly...
Cameron: well ok I just want to go and play...
Me: well go and play then....
Cameron and I get in the battle of the wills he thinks he is the third parent.. He is such a bossy little guy I wander where he gets that from LOL LOL
So what new with you...Nothing here...Kids start school on monday...Hubby's car is acting up so more money to get a car fixed..Really feeling the stress of me not working...The extra income really helped..
Saturday I go and sit at a Dentist office and watch a Dental Hygiene friend of mine...I'm so ready to just take the damn board and get it over with....fail or pass...Tired of fighting... I don't have anymore fight left in me..
I turn 45 this month....That's 5 from 50 ouch!!!
Tired of being broke...very frustrating especially this time of year...with school starting...ugh!
I can't believe we got some rain today...It wasn't much but enough to lower the temperature about 20 degrees.....so this evening it was in the 80's..
I sat out in my front yard talking with the neighbor this evening....It was so pleasant...
Tomarrow I take Cameron to his middle school so he can learn were all his classes are and his locker..
He is so excited.....
There is a little girl in our town who has a rare form of cancer she is 4 I think
Here is her website
www.caringbridge.org/visit/alaina
A few readers have commented on they miss my conversations with my kids..
Well I havent put any in because well lets face it .....Its summer and were lucky we havent killed one another lol
So at your request I will put in one liners I have been hearing all summer from Cameron and Zachary
ZaCh:< Whinning>Moommaa camern is...
hitting me, touching me. says I;m stupid, says I can't sing, wont get out of my room, locked me in my room. wont let me play<fill in whatever game you wont>
Cameron: <yelling> Momma Zacharry is
Getting on my nerves, wont get out of my room, is a whiny baby, wont play with me.my life is boooring....
So there you have it
THIS JUST IN
LONG-TERM STRESS MAY SHRINK THE BRAINLiving under too much stress may harm your brain as well as your body. Previous studies have already shown that stress hormones, such as cortisol, can increase the risk of heart disease and other ailments,stress hormones, such as cortisol, can increase the risk of heart disease and other ailments, but a recent study shows that stress hormones may also shrink the brain.
Gives new meaning to the term Pea Brain....LOL
Marsha Marsha Marsha!!!!
Yes Maureen Mccormick who played marsha on the brady bunch will be 50 in August...
Where does the time go!!!
What's the deal with you Donna.. I tell myself. Everytime I pull up my journal to write I just don't feel like it..
Like my fingers are made of lead...Lately I haven't felt like doing much of anything.. Well I have watched several kids for friends but since I no longer have my job I figured we needed the money
I'm sorry for being boring and not interesting.. I'm just not interested in my journal much lately...I don't hear from many people much anymore but heck I can't blame them...
Being that I'm boring...
So I will take a break for a while...
Untill I feel inspired
Donna
no I don't work at that place anymore...in case you were wondering.. I left a message stating my feelings and she called back apologizing..because she knew I'm right and that I was going to speak with the Dr about my sudden exit..
I appreciated her apology but I feel is was a CYA thing for her...
I sure miss my Pauline..I had such a nice time with her...She was a cute and hip little mama...Her and I must have been related in another life...HA!!
I spent Friday at 6 flags in Arlington Texas...Yes you can call me an idiot because is was so hot....All those stinky sweaty people around I felt yuck but my sister in law wa to take the kids so what's a girl to do.. I went..
I much more of a water park type girl...I felt like I must of lost 5 lbs in sweat...of course eating funnel cake didnt help HA!
I met a girl at woman church thing and we got together on occasion and talk scrap booking etc...I would guess she was early 30's although we didn't discuss our ages...
I got a e-mail from the church that she had a stroke and died...I was quite shocked...so young...Just reminds me that I am a heartbeat away from death everyday... to cherish my family and life..
We its off to bed...good night my journal peeps
I'm so angry I could spit nails...
Have you ever been that angry..
My head hurts I was so angry...
Mean people suck...
I work with a woman who likes to belittle me and talk to me like I'm stupid.. She calls me on my cell phone today to bitch about some little something that is her job but felt the need to blame me..
This time I didn't sit there like her doormat.. I spoke up to her..
Boy did it piss her off...her response..MAYbe you shouldnt work here then...
I said well isnt it funny you can call me and complain and dumb your feelings but I'm not allow to verbalize my feelings
She stammered around and then started trying to belittle me again..I stood my ground..I didnt take it..
So she wants to have a meeting with me tomorrow because she thinks we need to dicuss that we arent seeing eye to eye..
I'm thinking there is a big X on my ass sister kiss it because I don't care anymore...
I will not take her crap ..Period...
SO how was your day?? lol
Yesterday I got to meet with Pauline
http://journals.aol.com/plieck30/Iwantedtobeacowgirl/
One of my journal friends...I was a little nervous because heck I never met one of my journal friends face to face. Hey I'm always surprize anybody would ever want to be my friend...Iwill tell you more later but first things first..
Dearest Pauline,
You my dear... are the kindest warmest person I have met in a long time. I really had no expectation just hoped I wouldnt be a bore for you or a bother...I knew the minute I saw you waving at me from your driveway that you were my kind of person...
I instantly wanted to just hug your neck..and sure enough we did... I could see that you had a great heart so full of love and kindness. I had so much fun when it was time to go I felt sad :-(...I love seeing the cows...your house is just precious..And your town was so much my kind of town..
You were so nice to take me out to eat even though you didn't have to...The food was great..I love the wildcat and stuff cowboy. No it was a food item...Ha!!! just decorations lol.
I just don't have the right words to say how much I appriecate you!!!!!
Now when you write about your places I can say hey I have seen that place..
I have offically adopted you Pauline...Hope you don't mine..
Friends,
Donna
Sorry I have been out of touch. Our computer crash and we had to put it in the shop...
and now I'm in San antonio taking my course at the University of Texas Health Science center...
I may hook up with one of my journal pals she lives here...So that would be really cool...
I'm on the hotel computer...so better boogie..
1. Would you marry for money?
Nope...
2. Have you had braces?
no
3. Could you live without a computer?
I did most of my life because no one had one...so yeah I probably could
4. If you could live in any past time period, where would it be?
Not sure
5. Do you drink enough water?
No
6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take 'em off?
I'm a barefoot type of girl I wear flip flops because they are close to being barefootas I can get
7. What are your favorite fruits?
Green Banana
8. What is your favorite place to visit?
Hawaii
9. Are you photogenic?
Yes did you see my picture LOL LOL
10. Do you dream in color or black and white?
color
11. Why do you take surveys?
I'm bored
12. Do you drink alcohol?
yes but very little
13. What is the most beautiful language?
French and Spanish
14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
depends on who is kissing me
15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?
I'm sleeping at sunrise so I would have to say sunset
16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?
Only if I'm healthy and of good mind...if not then NO
17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
Nope
18. Would you rather have a high IQ or a perfect body?
High IQ I could pay a surgeon to sculpt me a good body but stupid isnt curable
19. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights OFF
No
20. Do you believe in magic?
no if I did I would make some people disspear for good
22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
Depends on the cartoon
23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?
i;m to freaken old to remember that far back
24. Do you write poems?
NO..
25. Do you snore?
no
26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?
Side
27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
Poodle
28. Are you basically a happy person?
at times
29. Are you tired?
yes.but its raining and rain makes me sleepy
30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?
coffee this morning
32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?
a few
33. Do you get along with your parent's?
yes
34. Do you smoke?
No and if you have to smoke I don't wish to breathe your second hand smoke...If I want to kill myself Iwill do it myself ..
35. Do you have a kitty?
Yes 2 one is 16 years old and my husband wants it to visit kitty heaven lol
36. Have you ever had a birthday party?
One.
37. What do you do when you're sad?
get quiet and retreat to my room
38. What do you need most now?
Less gravity its playing hell on my body lol
39. What song are you listening to now?
none
40. What are you craving right now?
Hot and Sour soup would be nice..
Or a younger body but keep my 45 year old brain..its way smarter than my 20 year old brain ever was...
Sitting in Arby's waiting for Randy my husband to meet up with us...Cameron <11>starts a conversation
Cameron: Mahhmmah<in a southern accent>..What made you like daddy when you met him?
Me: Well.. I thought he was so hansome and my heart just did a pitter pat.
Cameron: Did you think he had a cute butt??<giggles>
Me:LOL well yes he did have a nice butt..I just thought he was so handsome.
Me: Why don't you ask Daddy when he gets here what he liked about momma?
Cameron: WEEEELLLL he probably juat got tired of you chasing him and gave in...
Me: <Laughing so hard my sides could split...>You think....
We were driving in the car going somewhere not sure now and this conversation was started by Zach<8>
Zach:Momma? what are all those sprinkles on your face?
Me: Sprinkles??.<I pause and realized what he is talking about>
Me: OH you mean my freckles??
Zach: Those dots on your face that look like sprinkles...
Me: They are called Freckles..
Zach: Why do you have them?
Me: I'm not sure...some people have them and some people don't
I like to think they were kisses from God
Zach: Well ...you sure got a lot of kisses then
Me: LOL
We went to San Antonio for a few days. It had been many a year since I had been there.
It is a city rich with culture and history.
It felt so nice to be away from everything and just be with my kids and husband...
I did not want to come back...
But back we came...
Hope all is well with everyone
I put Zachary to bed and lay down beside him
Zachary: Mama?
Me:what
Zachary: will you sing to me that song like you used to
Me: The rainbow song?
Zachary:Yes that one
Me: Somewhere over the rainbow......................................
Zachary: Oh mama you sing bootiful<his words>
Me: Thank you baby
Zachary: sing me anotder song...<he always mixes his sounds uponthe word another>
Me: ok.......Ive been working on the railroad...............
Zachary: wow that was a great song sing anotder
Me: Zachary you need to go to sleep young man
Zachary: Pllllleeeeaaassseee
Me: ok Jesus love the little children all the children of the world Red and Yellow black and white they are precious in his sight Jesus love the little children of the world
Zachary: MOM you forgot TAN some kids are TAN..
Me <snickering> ok Tan ones too
Zachary: Ok good night mama I love you and your singing
Me: good night...close those eyes stink pot
Zachary: giggles
Here is the site to my sons wedding pictures
http://absolutephoto.smugmug.com/share/Q9yQl08oBiffs
Donna
Zachary comes walking into the kitchen and pauses at the refrigerator...
He looks up and see a square piece of paper with a handprint stamp on it
the card says God helps me to grow...
He puts his hand upon the handprint and says....
Zachary: Mom come here
Me: <I walk over> what baby
Zachary: Look my hand is bigger than yours...
Me: what do you mean?
<Then he proceeds to put his hand over the handstamp and his fingers are about 2 inches longer than the handprint stamp on the paper>
Zach: See ????
Me: Baby that's not my handprint...
Zachary: Whose is it?
Me: That's your handprint when you were much littler..
Zachary: How old was I?
Me: OOHHHH I don't know maybe 4 years old
Zachary: Boy..... I sure miss those younger days....
<Then he walks off>
I about split a gut laughing...younger days......LOL LOL LOL LOL
ok ok Yes I will get more pictures of the wedding...In a few days the professional photographers will be putting up a website address to see ALL the wedding pictures.....Which I can assure you will be much better they my picutres Ha!
I didnt have control of the camera much my hubby did so I didnt get alot of pictures however the wensite will have them all....I'm excited..
Thanks for the wonderful comments
A picture of The day of the rehearsal
Yes It has happened!!!!!
Yes I cryed!!!! I cryed tears of joy.....
My oldest son got married a threshold of life all mothers of sons eventually experience...
I would have to rate it right up there almost when I gave birth to him
To watch my son with Ashley and see the deep love he feels for her and see it returned in her eyes...
It was so touching.....
Me trying not to cry but not succeeding
We had a mother son dance and we dance alone in front of everybody to a song by boyz2men called Song for <Mama.... a few lyrics
You taught me everything
And everything youve given me
I always keep it inside
Youre the driving force in my life, yeah
There isnt anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldnt feel right
If I didnt have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
Youll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times
Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama youre the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin you is like food to my soul
As we dance tears streamed down my face my baby looked at me and said mama don't cry ... I said baby these are Happy Tears..
He told me how much he loved me and that no one could replace me and he would always love me and then he started to sing to me as we dance.....
When we finished dancing I took hishand and walked him over and put his hand in Ashley and said "Here Ashley he is yours now.......
And I walked away with peace in my heart
Thank you for all your kind words... I do belive the meds are screwing with my mind...so I will stop them for now and find a good dr....4 more days untill my son gets married.......
Donna
I wish I had the guts to lay down and never wake up;....i feel like a big screw up in my whole life...maybe I will figure something out....
I think this medicine is tooo strong for me
The clerk farted and gave me a receipt.
The scene: sitting in steak and shake eating fries with the kids..
Me: Guess whose birthday is this week
Cameron: whose?
Me: yours silly boy you will be 11 and my big junior high schooler
Cameron: you mean middle school
Me: yeah sorry we called it junior high in my day
Cameron: back in the olden days
Me:<laughing> yeah back in the olden days...
Cameron: wasn't that when they had the dance the moon walk....
Me: well that was when I was in my 20's so it wasn't that long ago...
Me: you are growing up so fast...you think you will still love me this much when your big and married...
Cameron: yep I sure will..your my momma
ME:<sigh> If only it was that easy lol
Me: what if I get old and sick and need someone to take care of me..
Cameron: I will take care of you
Me: what if your wife says I don't want you to take care of your momma ......
Cameron: I will say screw you my momma needs me..she took care of me when I was a baby
Me: CAMERON those are strong words I think I would be a little kinder to your wife..
Cameron: Yeah but she shouldn't be mean to my momma..
I loved you first...momma
Me: Awww Cameron that is so sweet...
I do not like green eggs and ham I do not like them sam I am......
I do not like....
Mean hateful people.......
I do not like
liars............
I do not like
people who says yes to your face but there actions say no
People with sour puss faces and looks down there nose...
I do not like
Wealthy plastic surgery patients who think your there simply to pull the toe jam out of there feet...or any other crappie shitty thing they can think of. to order you around..
because we all know there shit don't stink....
I do not like.......
mean hateful jealous women....who do anything to hurt other women
I do not like
Mean people
Abusive People
alcoholics friends who try to use your friendship for a gain
relatives that are users and then claim innocence. when there busted..
psychotic....people in general.......who refuse to be medicated because it is everybody else that has the problem not them...
I do not like....green eggs and ham I do not like them sam I am......
I usually make my entries short and to the point...but today I am sad and feel like talking....I have felt a cloud of sadness around me for a week....I can't really say that is it any one thing or a bunch of things....
In 2 weeks my son will be married...and I am sad....
Not because of his wife to be Ashley... I love her to pieces...
Not because I don't think he shouldn't get married because I believe they are right for each other...
but because he will no longer me my son ....but also a husband
....he is stepping through a door of life that we all step through...
for every door he steps through it pushes me through a door..
one more step towards the end...
Of course we all have a end to our life and we know this......its just there are things that happen in life that are big reminders...of our grand finale
Its funny how feelings can be conflicting....bittersweet.....
I am happy for Landon and thrilled that he will have someone to share his life with.....and of course I will take on a different roll in his life...
Everything I experience with Landon is for the first time...but with the younger boys I have already been through it so I'm looking from the other side that makes it a little easier with them...
I love you Landon my precious son...and pray for you to have a blessed marriage....for happiness...friendship...beautiful times and children
and yes I hope you have a kid just like you so I can laugh my butt off when you call me frustrated.....LOL.....< ok I had to get in the mother curse>
So maybe this wont be so bad after all now that I think of it...<smile>
Zachary<8>: mom do you know where Elvis died?
Me: NO Where ??
Zachary: On the toliet... Hunter told me so
Me: really? hummmm I didnt know that
Zachary: where is he now?
Cameron<10> : he is in Rock n Roll Heaven
Me:snickering under my breath..
Zachary: mom is there a rock n roll heaven
Me: I don't think so....
Zachary: there is an animal heaven
Me: there is?
Zachary: Yeah..how many people do you think are in heaven?
Me: So many that I couldnt count them all
zachary: infinity
Me: yes baby infinity
I passed my Nationals Boards
<doing the happy dance>
I can't belive it after 23 of fear I passed
People keep asking have you heard have your heard
NO!!!!!!
i haven't heard from the national boards yet and it has been 6 weeks..
this feels like childbirth....you know its coming just not sure when
Dang It
The kids were out of school today....We went to Denton to see my oldest Landon<24> and take Zachary<8> to get fitted for his tux...
We went to eat at this hole in the wall place called Katz hamburgers...Landon just rave about there burgers....
As we were walking up this was the conversation
Landon: Ashley and I ate here and they are so good...
Me: Well I'm anxious to try them I love a good greasy burger...
Cameron: The name of this place is KATZ HUh
Me: yes < I kept walking to the door.>
Just then Cameron<10> looked at me with this puzzled look and said...Do they used cats in there meat????
Landon and I started laughing....
Me: No silly that is the name of the person that owns it...
Cameron<looking relive> Oh good...
Later that day back at Landons apartment...as I was cleaning his kitchen...
Landon was studying for a history final...he said
Landon: Mom I have a question for you..
Me: What about < As I cleaned around him>
Landon: History..
Me: ok....I try to answer
Landon: who was the vice president when Richard Nixon was president ...
Me: Well I can't recall his name but if you give me the choices I can pick him out...
Me: I chose Spiro Agnew..<sp?>
Landon: Thanks I figure you would know since you were alive back them..
Me: Oh thanks....<gave him a kiss my butt look> I was a still a youngster
back then smart butt..
Landon: Laughs out loud at me...
My husband was looking at our account the other day and ask me about some charges on the online statement......I couldn't remember spending the money..
So I called the 800 number today and it was a psychic hot line...
someone had used my debit card and called a hot line...
This totally freaked me out because nobody has access to my stuff not even my hubby..he has his own stuff...
The Psychic company customer service said that because my name wasn't link to the account when thy pulled it up it was probably fraudulent..<YA THINK>
I wanted to say so why didn't the psychic pick up on that one...
I have no idea how someone could use my account number...
I told hubby no more using the debit card as a credit card anywhere even to get gas or when we eat out.. Cash only
How do I know the waiter or waitress is honest and doesn't write down the number...
They could of wiped us out totally...
The government needs to bust these people and put them behind bars...
GRRRRRR!!!!
What is the best spyware to get we have norton...but now I'm paranoid
This is wrote in zacharys words and I will translate HA!!!
If I were President, I would eat...........................
cocleklee<translation chocolate>.
If I were President, I would have a pet...................
cowolwoa <translation.......chihuahua> named chika
If I were President, I would help...........
Peple <translation.......People>
If I were President, I would pass a law that.................
the president ha be colokle <translation.........president had to eat chocolate>
If I were President, I would travel to ............
E tin ..........< translation......michigan>
If I were President the first thing I would do is.......
in the war..........<translation END the War>
Smart kid eat chocolate and End the war and help people...He has my vote!!!
THAT'S IT!!!!!!! I AM OFFICALLY NO LONGER A PART OF THIS FAMILY....HE YELLS FROM THE OTHER ROOM
Yes that is my precious child Cameron who is 10 almost 11 and he has offically boycotted us...LOL
I reply:" Well I am going to miss your cute face...but it will save us money on the grocery bill and we could rent your room out..".
He makes a face like you wouldn't
I look at my husband and sign ....You know its coming I tell him...
What?? my husband says...
Hormones!!!! I so do not like this age....I think I will run away.. I Iaugh..
<I have a grown son so I have lived through the teenage years and it was not pretty.....> I have battle wounds..
And so life goes on and I know it will get worse before it gets better....
but GOD love him because by the time we get throught those teenage years
somebody will have to....Ok just kidding....sort of...HA!!
So the Aol God smoking Joe advised me I was to be guest editor...
I'm flattered and humbled thanks Joe...
I began writing for therapy and it has evolved into so much more.
We live in Texas. I worked for 16 years for the telephone company. I retired<think surplus> to be a stay at home mom.Once all the kids were in school I went to work part time for a Plastic surgeon's with the overnight patients. I am currently working on getting my Dental Hygiene license..
I am happily married to my best friend and husband Randy. He is my Rock...We have 3 Boys Landon 24, Cameron 10 and Zachary 8. My journal is about my life and thoughts...I invite you to go to the archives and check out other months I have been writing for over a year...
There were so many journals that I liked however I had to pick some that had never been picked before.. So here it goes
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